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I had part of this story written up way before hand, before I knew this would get quite popular, so I hope you enjoy!

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It was my turn to fight and my opponent was none other than Kai. I was scared, frightened, absolutely terrified. Kai knew how to strike fear in many ways but the way that scared me the most was his ability to make his weapons come to him without even touching them. That is was terrified.

But I have to win…

Kai and I stood glaring at each other, my Sai's in front of me being held tightly in my hands with Kai's hand slowly reaching for behind his back. He didn't look hurt or anything, but he was sporting a bruise across his face from my brothers' weapon. The tension in the air filled the entire room, my knees shook every so often; it was suffocating and we hadn't even begun. Masta looked between the both of us and raised his hands behind his head then threw them in a downwards motion and crossed them over his chest.
"Begin!" He shouted and instantly Kai grabbed a dagger from behind his back and threw it at me. I quickly pulled my arms into a cross shape across my face, not sure if he was aiming for there and instead felt the blade slice open of hip. I clenched my teeth together and lowered my arms slightly. He held hand out with his fingers outstretched. This was my opening. I quickly move to my left and ran quickly at Kai. I moved of my Sai's into my right hand and clenched my hand together; if I could get him in the stomach then hopefully that would wind him slightly. Once I was close enough I threw my fist at him only for it to be caught, a smirk wide across his face.
"Nice try but, no dice." He said to me as he pulled his outstretched hand back quickly. It didn't click what he had down until I felt something sharp pierce my shoulder.

I heard Kai click his tongue with a small laugh, the smirk still wide across his face. He reached round and grabbed the hilt of his dagger, ripping it out of shoulder. My eyes went wide from the pain as I gasped slightly, but it didn't end there as I felt my right hip, the hip that was sliced open beforehand, receive a powerful kick. I couldn't help but yelp as I few away from him and landed on my left side hard. I had dropped my Sai's in the process. I pushed my arms to push myself up and saw Kai standing a few feet away, holding my weapons and looking at them bored.
"Y-You never had your guard down…did you?" I asked him. Kai looked at me through the corner of his eyes and looked back at my weapons.
"You went for the obvious, that's your fault, not mine." He said, throwing my weapons into the air and catching them again by the hilt. He did this several times before catching them a final time and throwing them across the room towards me. I quickly ducked down, putting my hands behind my head as the weapons flew over me and hit the wall behind. I couldn't help but look behind me at where my weapons landed. A shadow loomed over me making me look forward again to see Kai standing in front of me with his hands on his hips.

I heard him sigh to myself and run a hand through his hair.
"I don't understand, why does someone like you want to be a Hunter?" I said, keeping a hand through his fringe. I stood up and glared at him, keeping my knees bent and apart to get ready for an attack.
"That's not your business." I said to him glaring at him. Kai snapped his head towards me and picked me up by the front of my shirt, glaring right back at me. I felt my feet leave the ground and placed my hands onto his wrists to stop myself from slipping.
"What you say? None of my business? You know my reason so I demand to know yours." He said as I shook my head keeping my own glare on him.
"You chose to tell me I don't choose to tell you." I said to him and lifted up my feet. I quickly shoved my feet into his stomach making him gasp and drop me. I landed on my bottom as Kai stumbled backwards, holding his stomach. Quickly standing up again I decided to go for the way Kai attacks, leave no time for your opponent to recover. He did that when we were fighting the two headed dog. I quickly ran at him and stopped a little bit away from him. Lifting my leg I spun on the spot aiming to kick his side. He grabbed the front of my foot and smirked at me once more. I looked at Kai shocked and quickly glared at him again throwing my arm at him to punch him. Kai quickly caught my hand as well and instantly threw himself forward, crashing his head from mine. He then threw my arm and leg back towards me making me stumbled backwards and fall over once more.

Kai stood up straight as I rubbed my forehead with my arm.
"I have to admit, that caught me off guard, well down brat." He said as he grabbed another dagger from behind him and held it tightly in his hand. He quickly grabbed his other dagger and held his arms across his chest then threw them towards me. I wasn't prepared. The two blades pierced my shoulders making my eyes go wide once more and gasp for air. Kai threw his arms to either side of him, yanking the blades out and across my shoulders. I screamed in pain and instantly threw my hands onto each wound closing my eyes tightly and gritting my teeth tightly together. It hurt, it hurt a lot. And if I was honest I really wanted to give up. I could feel blood seep through my clothing and onto my hands. Kai walked forward and kicked his foot hard into my guy making me hit my back onto the floor and cough loudly. He kept a foot on my stomach and placed his hands on his hips with his daggers in each hand. I looked up and saw him smirking at me.
"Ready to give up brat?" I heard him ask. I couldn't help but think about it for a second. But, I had to prove him wrong; I had to prove to him that I wasn't pathetic like he said. I glared at him and clenched my teeth together.
"I'm not giving up to you! I'm going to prove that I'm not weak and pathetic like you say!" I yelled at him, making him raise an eyebrow with a bored look on his face. I heard him click his tongue and lift his foot up slightly, only for it to slam down into my stomach once more. I gasped for air once more and coughed up some blood. I could taste it. I saw Kai shrug his shoulders slightly.
"Man, you're a stubborn brat I'll give you that. You're still way out of my league and every other Hunter's league though." He said lifting his foot fully off my stomach. I began pushing myself up once more and rolled over onto my hands and knees.

Standing up shakily I glared at him once more. I had to prove him wrong. If Gon could do this, then so could I. Once I stood up fully I felt a fist to my throat and gasped loudly, falling to the ground once more trying to gulp down air.
"I didn't punch you hard enough to collapse your trachea, carotid artery or jugular vein, just enough to wind you." I heard Kai say as my mouth hung open wide. I stared at the ground on my hands and knees, my eyes wide. I could feel tears leave my eyes and hit the ground. It hurt, it hurt so much. "Give up kid; come back next year when you're ready. It's better to give up and try again then die trying to pass." Kai said as I held me in the air by my throat. He wasn't allowed to kill me, but he was trying to make me say "I give up". I wasn't going to though, I couldn't do that. No matter how much it hurt, no matter how much pain he put me through, I couldn't give up, I wouldn't give up!
"N-n-n-" I stuttered out making him raise an eyebrow slightly and tighten his grip around my neck, making me wince and close my eyes tightly in pain. I gritted my teeth together tightly.
"Speak up brat!" He yelled at me and threw me onto the floor. I landed with a heavy thud, my body creating some cracks in the ground below me. I must have hit it hard because the only thing I remembered was my vision going black.

"If you knew it was so dangerous why bother bringing her along? It's not a game; kids shouldn't be allowed to participate." I heard Kai's voice say, although it sounded muffled, but maybe that was because I had only just regained consciousness. I could hear the slight clicking of metal contacting with the ground and a bored sigh escape Kai's lips.
"Besides, it's not like I'm allowed to kill her. Once this is over you can take her home and tell her not to come back until she's older, if at all. Man, you're not that smart for someone who's meant to be her older brother are you?" I heard Kai say as I slowly opened my eyes. I could hear shuffling as I winced and breathed heavily; it felt like I couldn't breathe at all.
"I-I'm not giving up." I began saying as I struggled to get myself up onto my hands and knees.
"Oh, awake now? Isn't that grand…" He heard Kai say as I began pushing myself up. I could see out of the corner of my eyes Kai standing up. By the looks of things he had decided to sit down while I was out. All that came was a knee into my stomach making me fall back to the ground and hold my arms tightly around my stomach with my forehead on the ground as I sat on my knees. Bringing up my head I threw up the contents of my stomach, which was only stomach lining and acid. I couldn't tell if it was from pain or if it was from fear. My brows furrowed I had trouble breathing, it was shaky and crackly. I could feel my face was wet with tears and some snot as I stared at the ground wide eyed, my mouth wide opened as I tried getting in air.

I heard gasps from my friends and big brother. It sounded as if my brother was ready to kill Kai. I heard Kai scoff. I began pushing myself off the floor again. Once up I was wobbly and found it hard to keep myself steady so I stumbled forward before stumbling backwards. My site was blurry and my breathing was still shaky and crackly. I had managed to position my feet so I was able to keep my balance. I heard Kai sigh slightly to himself and looked at him, still holding my very sore stomach. The slice on my side had become the least of my worries now.
"You just don't give up do you? What is the point?" Kai asked as he wondered around me, taking in every little detail of the damage he had done. He shoved his hands into his pockets as he stopped in front of me.
"I've kicked you hard enough to make your breathing crackly, I've punched you in the throat hard enough to make you gasp for air. On short of killing you what else can I do to make you give up…?" Kai said, trailing off as if he was in thought with himself. I swallowed hard as I brought my head up to look at him once more, bringing the glare back onto my face.
"I-I won't g-give up t-to someone l-like you…" I stuttered and whispered to him making Kai bring his head back down to look at me with an eyebrow raised in question. He placed his hands back onto his hips as he looked at me, annoyed by my words and actions. I continued to glare at him, even though I was in so much pain, even though I wanted to give up and try my chances at another fight, I just couldn't. I had to prove I could become a Hunter.
"What was that? Give up to someone like me? What's that supposed to mean huh?" I heard Kai ask as he brought his face down to my level.

I clenched my teeth together as I continued to stare at him through my glare.
"You're mean and you're scary. All you've done since you met me is hurt me and hit me. You say you want to be a Hunter to get rid of people like me because we don't deserve to breathe the same air as you. That's what you said, right?" I said to him as Kai kept an eyebrow raised, continuously looking at me bored.
"What's your point?" He asked, standing up straight again and crossing his arms across his chest.
"It's people….people like you who don't deserve to breathe the same air as everybody else! People like you who are mean to everybody else! It's because you're so sad that you have to make everybody else's life sad too! That's what it is, right? You're mad because you're sad about something and take it out on everybody else, right?!" I shouted back at him as I glared at him. I saw Kai glare at me. He threw his hand down onto the top of my head and grabbed my hair tightly, pulling me up straight. I clenched my teeth together tightly and closed my eyes tightly; it was painful, so painful.
"Don't you DARE speak to me like that!" Kai said, emphasizing the dare. With every word he spoke I felt a punch to my stomach once more. I opened my eyes widely at the first punch and gritted my teeth together. After he finished speaking, I felt him let go of my hair and punch me in the cheek sending me back to the ground again.

I wrapped my arms around my stomach. I didn't dare look at Kai; I didn't dare look at anyone. I couldn't. I had crossed the line and had made Kai so mad, much madder then I had ever seen him since I first met him.
"Do not talk to me as if you know so much." He said, walking over to me and standing in front of me. I pushed myself off the floor, struggling and sat on my hands and knees.
"You're one to talk. You cry and big brother comes to save you and you dare act like the way you do? Ever since you got to this exam you been clinging to your brother as if your life depended on it and for what? So you can become a Hunter just like "big brother". Absolutely pathetic!" He said and then sat on the balls of his feet bringing himself level with me. I kept my eyes on the ground as I felt his breath on my ear.
"You know the worse part…You're holding him back. You're bringing him down with you. I bet you spent your whole life with him looking after you because you can't look after yourself. I bet it's making him miserable and regretting you were born." Kai said to me in a whisper making my eyes go wide. I looked at Kai with wide eyes. He looked behind him slightly and then back at me, bringing his head back.
"Look at your brother quickly." He said to me in a whisper. I quickly glanced over to my brother with wide eyes. Kurapika brows were furrowed, but at the same time he was glaring and had his teeth clenched and fists clenched as well. I could see his eyes had gone red, he looked so angry. I quickly looked back at Kai with my eyes wide and brows furrowed.
"He's angry but not at me, at you. You're making him angry because you can't be strong and it's humiliating him as well as you." Kai said as he stood up. I stared back at the ground again with my eyes wide, my brows furrowed.

Kai placed his hands on his hips as he sighed to himself once more.
"Not everyone's cut out to be a Hunter, and it's worthless for you to keep chasing this dream that's never going to come true. You're only hurting yourself and your brother." I heard Kai whisper just loud enough for me to hear as I continued to stare at the ground. It couldn't be true, could it? Was I really bringing my brother down with me? Did he really regret I was here? No, it couldn't be true, it just couldn't!
"If you don't believe me I can certainly prove it again." He said and drove his hand down, grabbing a hold of my neck once more. I felt myself being lifted into the air and quickly placed my hands onto his wrists to keeping myself up. I saw him glare at him as I looked at him with wide eyes and furrowed brows. I quickly looked over at my brother once more. The same look, the same angry look. Kai was right, Kai was really right…
"I….I give up." I said to him through shaky and stuttering breathes. Kai's face turned into a smirk as he looked at me.
"That's a good girl." He said and threw me away from him, far away from him. I bounced on the floor a couple of time and then slid to a stop. My head hit the ground hard and made my vision blurry. I could see Kai start walking away from the arena and then stop, turning his head to face me.
"Some advice brat, don't bother taking the exam again. You're not worth the effort or time." He said and with that he walked off the arena. I gritted my teeth together and put one hand on the ground, pushing myself up with difficulty. I managed to slide my other arm from under me and placed that onto the ground flat and pushed myself up fully. I began standing up shakily and started walking over to where my weapons were. I bent down and picked them up shakily. I didn't feel well, I felt like I was going to be sick again; but there wasn't anything I could bring up. I stood up straight again and began making my way back to my brother. Although I had a lot of injuries, they weren't too big, and I didn't throw up blood I only lost a lot of it from open wounds. It wasn't enough for a trip to the medical room where Gon had gone to. I made it back to the group and stood next to my brother before dropping down onto my knees and picking up my bag, placing my weapons back in again.

I could feel my brothers stare into the back of my head, but I didn't say anything about it. I closed my back up again and took in a deep breath.
"Mishka…" I heard my brother say and looked up at him smiling widely, doing my best to cover up my pain and cover up the fact that I knew I had disappointed my brother.
"I'm okay really. I…I just thought it'd be better to give up this fight that's all." I said bringing my head down again and furrowing my brows. I couldn't help but look at my bag as I felt tears brimming my eyes. I shook my head and quickly ripped my eyes with the sleeve of my shirt.
"It's like he said, not everyone is cut out to be a Hunter; I'm just one of them, it's no big deal…" I said, trailing off as I sighed, tightening my hold on my bag.
"I'll try again in my next fight but if I don't win that then I'll just give up. I'll still help you it just means I'll be limited to what I can do. And maybe I'll try again another time, but right now…right now…" I said, unable to finish my sentence and closed my eyes tightly. My shoulder shook as I stared at the ground and gritted my teeth together. I wanted to prove Kai wrong and I couldn't, I wanted to show everybody, my big brother the most, that I was just as good to become a Hunter as well. And I couldn't. Instead, all I did was bring my brother down with me, I held him back. He could do so much more, and instead he had to look out and look after me and that just held him back. I was meant to become a Black List Hunter with my brother so we could get back our clans eyes, and instead all I did was hold back my brothers ability of doing so. The Hunter dream, it was worthless for me to follow, just like Kai said. I didn't deserve to breathe the same air as everybody else when all I did was hold back my brother. Kai was right…Kai was right all along and I felt so stupid for thinking differently.

I felt my brother kneel down next to me and place a hand onto my back. I couldn't bring myself to look at the person and instead just continued to stare at my bag, holding onto it tightly.
"I'm proud of you." I heard my brother say, making me snap my head up to look at him. I looked at him through furrowed brows and wide eyes, feeling tears in the corner of my eyes.
"You tried your best and that's all that was needed. Kai was not easy; he's ruthless and is very unstable. I'm proud of you for staying in the match for as long as you did; even when it looked like you were about to give up all hope, you stayed by it." He said as I continued to stare at him with wide eyes and furrowed brows.
"That's the kind of mental state a Hunter should have, not just pure physical strength like Kai seems to think. You more deserve to be a Hunter then he ever will be." My brother said making me just stare at him in disbelief. He was proud of me. He was proud. No…how could he? I lost, and he looked so mad at me. I couldn't help but continue to stare at him in disbelief. I knew my brother didn't lie, it was something he couldn't do but I couldn't believe him no matter how much I wanted to I just couldn't believe him. I could feel my bottom lip turn inwards as I bite it lightly.
"The third match is Kurapika versus Hisoka." Masta said making Kurapika turned his head towards the ref and nod. He looked back at me with a kind smile, the kind of smile that was given when people tried to cheer you up.
"I'll leave you to decide to tell me what's up. Don't bottle it up, okay?" He said as he stood up. I nodded my head slightly and watched my brothers retreating back go towards the arena with Hisoka.

I can't tell him, I just can't. It'd only add to the stress of everything he already does for me. I stood up myself, keeping my bag by my feet. Kurapika and Hisoka stood staring at each other as Masta threw his arms downwards once more.
"Begin!" He shouted and moved backwards, far, far away from Hisoka. Who could blame him? Hisoka was something else. He had blood lust urges, which was the scariest thing about him. The two stared at each other before suddenly jumping and dodging out of each other's way. Hisoka threw a card which hit my brother hard. He tried to block it and did for the most part with his arm. However, it still managed to cut his face making him slide backwards. Hisoka suddenly appeared next to him, that same smirk on his face. He began whispering something to my brother, although what I couldn't hear.
"What." I heard my brother stutter out as Hisoka continued to stand close to him, whispering things into his ear. He then laughed, making my brother tense up. With that, Hisoka began walking away and held up a hand to Masta.
"I lose." He said, ending the match right there. All of us looked at him shocked, he just ended the match right there. I looked between him and my brother. Kurapika didn't look happy with his win against Hisoka.

My brother walked back towards Leorio, Killua and me. I looked at him worried as he turned around and closed his eyes. I furrowed my brows and looked forward once more. Next it was Hanzo and the guy with the pink turban.
"The Fourth match is Hanzo versus Pokkle." Masta said as the two began walking to the front. With the same arm movements, Masta began the match. This time it went much quicker. Hanzo instantly got Pokkle onto the floor and pushed his arm behind his back with a hand on his shoulder, attempting to break his arm just like he did with Gon's.
"Sorry, but I won't go easy on you." Hanzo said to Pokkle, a hateful look in his eyes. He sounded almost automatic, as if he was running on autopilot.
"I give up!" Pokkle yelled, making Hanzo let go of his arm. Hanzo walked away from Pokkle with a hand in the air, claiming his victory, leaving Pokkle on the ground on his hands and knees. Pokkle immediately stood up and glared at Hanzo. He walked back over to the rest of us, standing next to Leorio once more. Hanzo was mad, that's how he won fights; he tortured people until they gave up. By the sounds of it from earlier though, he had been doing it for a long time and it no longer bothered him.

Soon it was the fifth match.
"The fifth match is Hisoka versus Bodoro." Masta said, making the two walk towards the arena once more. Bodoro was the martial arts guy now that I think about it. With the hand movements once more, the fight began. Bodoro started throwing punches at Hisoka, all of which the magician dodged with ease. He looked bored. Bodoro showed no fear though. Hisoka, if he really wanted to could kill him in an instant and Bodoro didn't show any fear of him. Bodoro tried kicking Hisoka however Hisoka just flipped over him and landed on his feet. Bodoro then ran at the magician aiming to punch him, but Hisoka caught his fist easily and pulled downwards before launching his own fist into the oldest man head. Hisoka then swung his leg into the air, kicking Bodoro in the chin and lifting him from the ground. The magician kicked him in the gut, the face once more and then punched his head into the ground. It didn't look like he was holding back; at this rate he could kill him. Bodoro laid on the floor breathing heavily. Hisoka knelt down behind him and began whispering something to him as well. Once Hisoka got up and began walking away, Bodoro surrendered leaving the unmerciful magician as the victor.

"The sixth match is Killua versus Pokkle." Masta said, making the two boys walk towards the arena. It would be my match soon again. When, I didn't know; but, I didn't mind waiting. Not when I knew I was going to lose anyway. The fight began however Killua walked away, ending the match instantly. I looked at Killua confused, wondering why he would just throw away the match like that. He removed his hand from his pocket and never opened his eyes.
"Sorry, but I'm not interested in fighting you." Killua said to him confidentially. I couldn't help but sigh slightly as I furrowed my brows. Killua, although he was my friend, was really over confident and cocky at times; this was one of those times.

It was my match next. I was meant to fight Leorio. However Leorio walked over to the judges. I couldn't help but watch him carefully.
"I can't fight her while she's too injured. Could we post-pone the match until she recovers? I'll fight whoever recovers first between Bodoro and Mishka." He asked. The men in the suits had to think about it but they agreed for whatever reason. I looked at Leorio as he walked back towards us and stood in between Kurapika and Pokkle.
"Why did you ask that?" I asked him, furrowing my brows. Leorio looked at me before looking back towards the board again.
"I don't want to fight you. You're also too badly injured. I think you could win against Bodoro so I'll fight him and win." Leorio said, making me furrow my brows. I nodded my head and smiled widely at him.
"Thank you." I said to him, and looking forwards once more. Next it was Killua's fight again. He was against the pin guy.

"The seventh match is Killua versus Gittarackur." Masta said. I looked at Killua smiling widely at him as he leaned against the wall with his hands behind his back.
"Good luck, Killua." I said to him. Killua looked at me and smiled back, nodding his head. Kurapika looked at Killua sternly, as if he knew something was up with Gittarackur. I watched as Killua and Gittarackur walked towards the arena and couldn't help but shiver. That was the guy that threw the pins at me. His name was Gittarackur? It was an odd name, but I didn't dare question it. He was scary as well; in fact, half the people here were scary. I was afraid of him though because of his ability with pins. Masta threw his arms down, starting the match.
"Begin!" He shouted. Killua removed his hands from his pockets and began walking towards Gittarackur. I watched uneasy, I knew Killua was tough, really tough, but Gittarackur…something about him didn't sit right at all. The pin man never removed his eyes from Killua and continued to just smile at him.
"It's been too long, Kil." He said to him, taking us all back by surprise. Gittarackur new Killua?! It took Killua by surprise as well as he stopped walking forward and looked at him with wide eyes. Gittarackur lifted up a hand, the clicking noises sounding the room with his movements and grabbed a hold of a pin inside his ear. Be began taking the pins out of his body, making my cringe at the site and sound. Soon, his hair started waving about, turning from a short purple Mohawk to long black hair flying all over the place. His face started morphing; it looked like it was breaking in places then repairing itself again. Killua's eyes went wide with fear as he stared at the man, who no longer looked like Gittarackur.
"Brother…" Killua said, making my own eyes go wide. Killua had a brother?

The man who Killua called brother stared down at him, looking bored. Killua started breathing heavily looking at the man, he began sweating in fear.
"Hey." He said simply, never taking his eyes off Killua.
"Killua's brother?" Leorio asked in disbelief.
"He used those needles to change the shape of his face?!" Kurapika asked in disbelief himself.
"They're both really disturbing facts." I said, furrowing my brows as I watched the match. Killua's brother seemed unchanged by the whole atmosphere in the room and just continued to stare at Killua.
"I heard that you cut up mum and Milluki." He said simply to him, acting as if it was a normal thing in the family.
"I guess." Killua replied back with the same "it happens every day" kind of tone in his voice. Gittarackur tilted his head at Killua, never taking his eyes off him.
"Mum was crying." He said to him with the same normal act.
"Anyone would cry if their son did that to them." Leorio said bitterly, glaring at either Killua or Gittarackur, it was hard to tell which.
"Tears of joy." He said making Leorio fall over out of pure shock. I looked at him with an eyebrow raised, was that normal? No, that wasn't normal that was madness. Killua's family was really strange by the sounds of it, yet Killua wasn't. That was the confusing part.
"She was so happy to see that you'd grown up. But she was worried about you leaving home, so she asked me to check up on you. What a coincidence. I didn't know you wanted to be a Hunter. I'm trying to get a licence for my next job." Gittarackur said. I remember Killua saying his entire family were assassins, so that meant for his brothers next job to be successful, he had to be a hunter where he could have access to information otherwise impossible to have.

Killua looked down and away from his brother.
"I don't really want to be a Hunter. I just felt like taking the exam." Killua said looking back up to his brother. Gittarackur seemed unfazed by Killua's words and I had to admit I wasn't all that shocked either. Killua did say he was bored, which is why he was taking the exam; so it wasn't that big of a shock to me.
"I see… That's a relief. Then I have some advice for you. You're not cut out to be a Hunter." Gittarackur said making Killua wince. I couldn't help but wince myself, that's what Kai had said to me as well. Who would have thought that he and Gittarackur were on the same kind of wave length when it came to words.
"You were born to be… a killer. You're a puppet of darkness, without passion. You don't want anything or wish for anything. As one who lives in the shadows, you can only feel pleasure when people die. That's how dad and I raised you. What would you accomplish by becoming a Hunter?" Gittarackur said to him. I couldn't help but cringe at the words; they were awful words to say to your younger siblings. Kurapika would never say something like that to me. I could see Killua looking at his brother, furrowing his brows slightly as he listened to his words.
"True, I don't desire to become a Hunter. But… I do have something I want…" Killua said as sweat dripped down his face.
"You don't." Gittarackur said to him slightly, making Killua step forward and clench his fists, glaring at his brother.
"I do! There's something I really want!" Killua yelled at him. No matter how much he yelled, Gittarackur's expression or stance never changed.
"Hmm? Tell me what it is that you want." He said, pointing his hand at Killua. Killua looked at him wide eyed and dropped his head, looking at the floor.

Gittarackur crossed his arms over his chest, waiting for Killua's answer.
"What's wrong? There's nothing you really want, is there?" Gittarackur said to him.
"That's not it! I want to become friends with Gon and Mishka… I'm sick of killing people… I want to become friends with Gon and Mishka, and to live a normal life…" Killua said, taking me back by surprise. At least I knew he wanted to be friends and as far as I saw it we already were friends. Killua kept his head down, not daring to look at his brother.
"Impossible. You'll never be able to make friends. Your only concern when you meet someone is whether you should kill them. That's how you were trained." Gittarackur said, making Killua look up at him with wide eyes.
"You just don't know how to classify Gon and Mishka because they're too dazzling for your eyes. You don't actually want to become friends with them." Gittarackur said to him, trying his best to get into Killua's head. I couldn't help but think it was working. Killua whispered something, but what I couldn't hear.
"If you stay with them, you'll end up wanting to kill them one day. You'll get the urge to see if you can kill them or not. Because you have the soul of a killer." Gittarackur said to him, making Killua clench his fists tightly as he continued to stare at his brother with wide eyes. I couldn't help but furrow my brows at Gittarackur, he was saying such awful things to Killua, and they were so bad. He wasn't a very nice big brother.

Leorio began walking forward, his hands in his pockets and a glare on his face. One of the men in black suits stood in front of him.
"As we mentioned before…" He began saying until Leorio leaned forward to cut him off.
"Yeah, I know! Killua! I don't give a damn if he's your brother. He's a worthless piece of crap! Don't listen to him! Just beat the crap out of him like usual and win! You want to become friends with Gon and Mishka? Are you daft? You already are friends!" Leorio shouted over, pointing at Killua. Killua jumped at Leorio's words as Leorio continued speaking.
"I'm sure that's how Gon and Mishka feels!" Leorio yelled over. I nodded my head and stepped forward myself. Placing my hands on either side of my mouth I began yelling over to Killua as well.
"Leorio's right! We both see you as a friend. It's fun being around you and we're really happy we met you! I normally wouldn't say don't listen to your brother, but in this case don't! He's being really mean. You are mine and Gon's friend!" I yelled over to himself and dropped my hands back down to my side. I saw Killua tense up as Gittarackur placed a hand on his hip and looked over to us.
"Really?" He asked as Leorio moved to the other side the man in the black suit.
"Hell yeah, idiot!" Leorio yelled over to him angrily. Gittarackur looked forward once more and placed his finger and thumb onto his chin.
"Really… That's no good. They consider Kil a friend. Okay, I'll kill Gon and Mishka." Gittarackur said pointing his finger into the air after coming to his conclusion. I felt myself tense up and saw Killua do the same. Kurapika and Leorio gasped in shock.

Gittarackur pulled out some pins as he continued to look at Killua.
"A killer doesn't need any friends. They'll only slow you down." Gittarackur said to Killua. Killua began shaking, but rather it was in fear or not I couldn't tell. Gittarackur turned around and began walking towards the door.
"Where is he? I'll kill Gon first." Gittarackur said as he continued walking to the door. Killua brought his head up in shock at his brothers words. One of the men in suits ran up to catch up with Gittarackur.
"P-Please wait… the match is still…" Began saying until Gittarackur threw pins into his skull without looking. His face stared morphing making me cringe.
"Where is he?" Gittarackur asked once more.
"The waiting room over there…" The man said to him, trying to bring his hands up to his face to remove the pins. I couldn't believe what he had just said. Whatever was in those pins and made that man tell Gittarackur where Gon was. The man dropped to his knees as he gripped his head tightly.
"Thank you." Gittarackur said politely and began walking towards the door which led to Gon's room. Kurapika, Leorio, Hanzo and me all stood in front of the door, keeping Gittarackur from entering. Gittarackur looked at us as he stopped walking.
"This won't do. I need a Hunter license to do my job… But if I kill him, I fail, and Kil will pass automatically. Oh, darn. The same thing will happen if I kill Gon and Mishka." He said and tapped his head slightly as it thinking to himself. He then lifted his head away from his finger again.
"I know! I'll pass the exam before killing Gon and Mishka." He said, looking at us, more importantly me. I felt Kurapika put me behind him slightly, even though I was here protecting the way to where Gon was, I was still in danger myself from Killua's brother.

Leorio glared at Gittarackur, clenching his teeth together.
"Bastard…" Leorio seethed at him. I couldn't help but glare at Gittarackur myself through my bruised and swollen face. It hurt to do so, but I couldn't let him hurt Gon. Gittarackur turned his head over to where Chairman Netero was.
"If I wait until after passing the exam, I can kill everyone here and still keep my license, right?" Gittarackur asked the Chairman.
"Yes, according to the rules." Chairman Netero admitted. That seemed like a major flaw in the system.
"Did you hear that, Kil?" Gittarackur asked him and turned back around to face his little brother, his expression never changing on his face. Killua looked at Gittarackur with fear; I could understand why he feared him so much now. He was ruthless and cruel.
"You have to beat me if you want to save Gon and Mishka." Gittarackur said to him and began walking towards Killua once more. The four of us stayed by the door, even though he knew he couldn't kill us without failing the exam; we didn't want to take the chance.
"Will you fight me for your friend's sake? You can't do it. Because you're more worried about whether or not you can defeat me. And you already have your answer: "I'm not strong enough to beat my brother." "Never fight an enemy you can't beat." I drilled that into you…" Gittarackur said to Killua as he stopped in front of him. He raised his hand and began moving it towards Killua's head. I could see the fear in Killua's eyes. He started moving backwards away from his brother.
"Don't move!" He said making Killua stop moving instantly and look at his brother with wide eyes.
"If you move an inch, I'll assume that the fight has already begun. And if our bodies make contact, that will also mean the fight has begun. There's only one way to stop me. You know what it is." Gittarackur continued as his hand got closer and closer to Killua, who looked so scared.

It was awful to see, I had never seen Killua look so afraid of anything, angry yes, but not afraid.
"But don't forget… If you don't fight me, your dear Gon and Mishka will die." Gittarackur said as his hand continued to move closer towards Killua. His eyes were wide as he watched the hand move closer to his face.
"Take him out, Killua! We won't let him kill you, Gon or Mishka! We'll stop him, whatever it takes! Let him have it!" Leorio shouted over to him as Gittarackur continued to move his hand forward. I could hear Killua's breathing and see the fear induced sweat. It was horrible. I felt bad for him, if Killua was afraid, then it was truly something terrible. Killua dropped his head.
"I surrender. I lose…" He said simply and defeated, without as so much as being touched. Gittarackur dropped his hand to his side, before lifting them both up in happiness. He clapped his hands together happily.
"Oh, that's good! Then the battle's over." Gittarackur said to him. He bent down slightly and tapped Killua's shoulder with his hand.
"I lied, Kil. I was lying about killing Gon and Mishka. That was just a little test. But now I have my answer." He said and placed a hand on top of Killua's head. He began whispered something to Killua, what it was I couldn't hear. I couldn't belief he was lying about killing us. Don't get me wrong, I was glad he wasn't going to, but that was an awful thing to lie about, more so to your own brother!

The two walked off the arena as Killua walked back over to the wall. I immediately ran up to Killua worried about him. His eyes had gone wide and dull. I stopped in front of Killua looking at him with furrowed brows.
"Killua… Don't listen to your brother; it was mean of him to lie about that." I said to him as Leorio and Kurapika came and stood slightly behind me. We spent about five to ten minutes trying to get him to respond to us, but he wasn't. He stood there with dull eyes and a sad look on his face. I even tried shaking his shoulder slightly and calling his name, but he didn't say anything; he just stood there. I couldn't help but furrow my brows and tried to smile at him, even though it was sad.
"It's okay. I'm sure you'll win the next one and then we can all go and celebrate." I said to him smiling at him. Still no answer. I frowned as I dropped my hands back to my side and looked at him sadly.

I had heard Leorio tell the man in the suit I still wasn't fit enough to fight however, Bodoro looked good and healthy.
"The seventh match is Bodoro versus Leorio." Masta said as the two walked over to the arena. I stood next to Killua and quite close to, trying to get him to respond by saying various odd things like how we should play a game once this was over or go out and buy some juice to celebrate. It made me sad to see how Killua was like this, all because of what his brother had said to him. Those mean, mean words. Bodoro bent down stretching out his legs ready for the match. Leorio had planned to beat him and also beat him enough so I could win against him and become a Hunter as well.
"Begin!" Masta shouted throwing his arms down. As soon as the match began, Killua had left my side at an instant and appeared behind Bodoro. I looked with wide eyes at Killua wondering what he was doing. Killua's hand had morphed into a claw like hand, his finger nails were long and the veins showed. Bodoro looked behind him, feeling Killua's presence.
"Killua!" I shouted over beginning to go forward myself. And like that, Killua and thrown his hand through Bodoro's back right to the either side and out of his chest. I was stopped when Kurapika gripped my shoulders stopping me from growing forward. My eyes went wide, Killua had killed Bodoro. Bodoro dropped to the ground, leaving Killua covered in blood. His eyes looked dull and empty.
"Killua you are disqualified!" Masta shouted at him. Killua didn't say a word and instead just walked out of the door. I watched his retreating back with wide eyes and a furrowed brow.
"Killua…" I whispered watching the doors close behind him, leaving nothing more but a bloodied hand print.
"Everyone is hereby qualified to be a Hunter. Congratulations!" Masta announced, turning his attention back to everyone. But that didn't matter to me now, not right now. What mattered is that Killua had gone; he had killed someone all because of what his brother had said. I couldn't help but frown and furrow my brows, Killua didn't deserve this. He didn't deserve those words said to him. He needed help.

It had been hours since Killua left to go home after killing the oldest guy who made it to the Final Phase. It was sunset and I had long ago taken off my dress tabard. It laid on the bed next to me. I would need to repair it as well as both my training shirts. Chairman Netero said that we'd have the briefing tomorrow once everybody was rested up. It also gave Gon a chance to wake up. I sat on the bed in the room I had decided to calm. It was huge. There was only a single bed in it. Because Killua killed that man, all of us passed by default. I stared at the card inside the book like case. I didn't deserve it; I only passed because Killua killed that man. I furrowed my brows and closed the book sighing. I couldn't use it.
"Mishka? Are you in there?" I heard a voice say and some knocking on my door. I snapped my head towards the door, instantly knowing who the voice belonged to. I nodded my head and hopped off the bed.
"Coming." I said, placing the Hunter card book onto my bed. My bare feet lightly touched the ground as I got to the door, although very sore. Opening it I saw my brother standing in front with a concerned look. I couldn't help but look away slightly as I stood to the side to let him in. He nodded his head in thanks allowing me to close the door behind him. I quietly walked back to my bed and sat down on it with my hands in my lap. My brother followed shortly afterwards and sat down next to me.

Silence. That's all there was, silence.
"We're Hunters now." Kurapika said as I nodded my head slightly, looking down at my lap. I felt my brother turn his head to face me slightly.
"Do you want to tell me what's wrong? Since your fight with Kai you've closed up and been very quiet." He said to me. I couldn't help but shake my head and turned my head to face him, smiling widely as if nothing was wrong.
"I'm okay. Just shocked at what Killua did. It's hard to believe he killed that man, just like that." I said to him, turning my head back away and furrowing my brows, a small sad smile on my face.
"But it's not his fault, his brother was so mean to him, saying all those things..." I said to him and blinked a couple of times, furrowing my brows even more. The change of subject could change what was really on my mind.
"I really wanted to win." I said, feeling tears form in the corner of my eyes. I could feel my brother still staring at me, concerned.
"I really wanted to beat Kai. I tried so hard to do it and I still couldn't win. And then he said…he said… Kai said…" I stuttered, finding it difficult to try and bring up what Kai had said in the first place. I felt a hand on my back as I closed my eyes tightly and reopened them. I felt tears drop onto my hands as I gripped onto my sleeves and shorts tightly.
"He said I was just bringing you down. Because all I do is cling onto you. He said you were angry at me because I couldn't be strong and because I couldn't be strong I was humiliating you and me." I said to him sniffing to myself. I felt the hand rub my back slightly as I rubbed my eyes with the sleeve of my shirt.
"And I believed him. I believed what he said was so true and I really thought you hated me." I said to him, turning my head and smiling at him widely, although it was sad. My face was wet from crying. I frowned once more and furrowed my brows once more, continuing with my story.
"And then…and then you said you were proud of me and…and I…I…" I said closing my eyes tightly once more. I opened them again and looked at my brother once more. He was concerned, he looked it at least.
"I didn't believe you. I didn't believe you were proud of me even though you don't lie ever. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!" I said to him, closing my eyes tightly once more and dropping my head down again.

I could feel more tears spilling onto my hands as I cried. What happened next took me by surprise. My brother had placed the hand that was on my back and put it around my shoulder, bringing me close to him. I opened my eyes widely, before half closing them once more as his hand rubbed my arm.
"I do the things I do because I want to, not because I have to. Kai doesn't understand that. What he said to you was to play mind games; he knew exactly how to get to you and at what moment." My brother said as I continued to sniff to myself and closed my eyes tightly.
"You're my little sister, so I'm always going to be there to take care of you. Even when you get older and no longer want me to look out for you. I'm proud to call you my little sister; I wouldn't want to trade it or any other way." He said making me look up at him, furrowing my brothers.
"But he said I'm bringing you down with me and holding you back!" I said to him. Kurapika just smiled at me and used his thumb on his spare hand to wipe the tears from my eyes, just like when we were little.
"You're not. You trained alongside me at the pace I was going at. If I thought you would hold me back I wouldn't have taught you how to defend yourself along side me. You're not bringing me down either; we're keeping each other up because we have to." He said as I felt my shoulders hunch together. I buried my head into his chest and hugged him tightly, shaking to myself. He was honest, he always was, that's what got him in trouble most of the time when we were younger, it was his honesty. Right now, I was so glad for it.

A few hours had gone past and I had stopped crying. I just continued to hug my brother, not daring to let him go; I didn't really want to. I felt him pat my arm slightly and looked behind him out of the window. He turned his head back towards me again smiling. I looked up from his chest and smiled widely back at him myself, glad he was still there. Patting my arm again he sighed to himself before looking at me once more.
"It's dark, you should get some rest. We have the briefing tomorrow." Kurapika said to me as I sighed and nodded my head. I stopped hugging him allowing him to get up and got up myself. I followed my brother to the door and opened it for him, allowing him to walk out.
"I'll see you in the morning. Good night, Mishka." He said as I smiled widely at him and waved slightly.
"Night night, big brother." I said to him and watched as he started heading back to his room. I closed the door behind me and walked over to the window. Drawing the curtains closed I walked back over to my bed and took off my shoes. I picked up my dress tabard and folded it up neatly, well the most neat I could when in the dark and gently laid it on the floor by my bed. I would need to repair it tomorrow morning before the briefing. I took off the Hunter card book case and placed it on the bedside table next to the bed. Sliding into the covers I buried my face into the pillow and shut my eyes, allowing myself to fall asleep.

The morning soon came and I had gotten up early enough to fix my clothing. I looked on my bed side table and saw a needle and some thread. I smiled to myself slightly. Kurapika must have entered at some point and left it there. Picking up the needle and thread I began making work of my clothes to get them back to a nice standard, ready for this briefing. Once down and happy with my work, I got myself wash and dressed. I had decided to take a shower thanks to yesterday's match. My face wasn't swollen anymore, something I was grateful for, and the wounds in my shoulders and side were starting to scab up. My neck was heavily bruised as was my stomach and side from all the punches and kicked I took. I couldn't help but sigh, I took all that and only became a Hunter by default, all because of Killua's brother. I quickly got dressed and packed everything into my bag. Once I made sure I had everything I exited the room and began making my way to the room where the briefing was being held, my Hunter card book placed neatly on top of all my things.

I got there quite quickly and entered the room with everybody else. I couldn't help but smile widely at my brother and sat next to him. We had all placed our Hunter card books onto the desks in front of us. The briefing had only gone on for five minutes until the door slammed opened. We all looked to see who could have slammed the door open. Gon entered the room. He had a couple of plasters on his forehead; his arm was in a cast and sling. His jacket was off as well; then again it would have been hard trying to put on the cast if he wore his jacket. I couldn't help but smile at his presence. Gon looked angry, which took me back by surprise, he never looked angry. He began walking down the stairs, the glare on his face as we watched him in suspense. He stopped next to Gittarackur's desk, who didn't even look at him.
"Apologise to Killua!" Gon demanded him. We all watched him closely. Leorio leaned on the desk as I stood up as well, leaning on the desk myself. I was amazed, after all the beating Gon had taken yesterday, and even after being knocked unconscious, he was standing there, demanding Killua's brother to apologise to our friend. I couldn't help but admire him.

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