One person wanted it and I been itching to do it, so hear it is! Chapter for Kai. Two chapters in one day woo!

Disclaimer: This chapter is heavily influenced by the movie and book "The Plague Dogs". Some lines and some references will be from the movie. I do not own the book or the movie. All ownership and rights go to: Richard Adams, Martin Rosen, Tony Guy, Nepenthe Productions, United Artists and Embassy Pictures. This chapter will also be covering what can be seen as "delicate subjects". These subjects are mostly Animal testing and mental illness. Please do not hesitate to skip this chapter if these subjects disturb you in any way, I will not be offended.

"He can't take any more…call off the tests." A man voice echoed through my ears. I felt my wrists become unrestrained and fell onto the floor in a bloodied heap. My head it the floor hard, but it didn't affect my vision; they had long ago taken anything that would cause my vision to be less than one hundred percent. My eyes were half-shut, but I could still see clearly. One of the men walked over, I could see his shoes clapping against the ground as he stopped just a few inches away from my head.
"Alright lad, time to get up." The man said to me. I watched his weight shift and felt my arm being grabbed. He pulled me up and flung my arm around his shoulder, the other on my waist forcing me to stand. He began walking me away from the contraption that held me against the wall.
"Remarkable, he took five hits more than yesterday. It's amazing how the mental capacity of ones mind can make them do extraordinary things before they give up." I heard one of the men say. He must have referred back to the tests, the tests of letting those little metal bullets come towards me at speed. They did something to me do, to let me control things with my mind; but they also took away things as well. I continued to walk with the man who had a tight grip on me as he walked me back to where I slept.

It took about ten minutes to get there. He opened the door and walked me in, then dropped me as he walked back out once more.
"Someone will be around later to give you something to eat. Well done lad." He said to me and closed the door behind him. I just laid on my back, staring at the ceiling with my half-opened eyes. This place was dark, it always smelt of chemicals. There was a mixture of people and creatures, and there was even people who looked like creatures. But those creatures always went and so did the people half the time. Something about the bonds being too weak, or those creature people ending themselves through hanging or even clawing at their own throat and wrists. I had thought about it myself and had been tempted to many other times. This place...this place was dark. But I only knew this place.

I heard scratching on the floor and turned my head slowly towards the sound. I saw the person who lived in the cell next door to me. She scratched on my floor, her arm through the bar. She had medium length black hair with very bright green eyes. Her skin was very pale and had whiskers growing out of her cheeks. On her head was two large red ears with black tips. She also had a tail, the same colour as her ears but with a white tip instead. Her clothing was tattered and full of holes. All she wore was a large tee-shirt and a pair of blue shorts.
"Hey, you alright? You look awfully beat up." She said to me. I turned my head back to the ceiling, keeping my stare on it.
"I guess, Chimera." I said back to her.
"I have a name you know. It's number one hundred and three." She said to me, clearly angry at me calling her what I had heard those man call her.
"That's not a name that's a number." I said to her as I sat up and rubbed the back of my head. I took my hand away after feeling something wet and sticky and brought it to my face. My hand was covered in blood, my blood.
"The blood's going to run out of your head if you let it continue like that." Chimera said as she continued to scratch at my floor. I looked between her and her hand before sighing to myself.

I stood up quickly and instantly regretted my decision. I stumbled forward but caught myself before I fell over. I grabbed my head once more and walked over to the door.
"Your shirt is covered in blood. Did you let those metal things hit you this time, or did they do it from behind?" Chimera asked me as I stopped in front of the door.
"I couldn't take it any more. My mind wouldn't let me, I gave up after the fifth one hit me, or so they said." I said to her and grabbed a hold of the wires between my fingers. I tugged at it slightly, the door was shut tightly with no way out.
"What are you doing? They'll punish you if you keep doing that and you'll go to the darkness." I heard another voice say making me snap my head to look in front of me. In front of me was a boy who was a little younger than I was; or so I thought. He had brown short hair like me, also a lot more scruffy and it stuck up in places. He's eyes were blue and his skin was tanned. He too, only wore a torn white shirt and green shorts. I wore the same, I think the shorts were colour coded. I looked at him with an eyebrow raised. Chimera had stopped scratching at my floor and walked over to her door, looking at the boy.
"What do you mean, three hundred and seven?" She asked him, her ears flicking slightly. The boy looked at her, furrowing his brows as he looked away from us.
"The darkness is the place where you go and never come back." He said as he grabbed his head between his hands and began shaking it vigorously, as if something was stuck in it.
"The voices keep saying I should go to the darkness, but if I go I can't come back. But it sounds so peaceful to be there." He said as he continued shaking his head.

I watched from the other side of my door as three hundred and seven had his semi break down, if I could call it that. Chimera leaned into her door as she grabbed a hold of the wires and started pulling at the door, shaking it loudly. It made some of the creatures howl and hiss, bark and scratch at the walls and floor.
"That noise! That noise! It's breaking my mind, it's splitting in two! Make it stop!" The boy yelled. I quickly ran over to the wall and shoved my arm through the bars, grabbing Chimera by her arm and tugging her hard away from the wire door. Her hands were ripped from the wires as she fell over and looked up to me with wide eyes.
"What do you think you're doing?! It's making him more mental than he already is don't do that!" I yelled at her, glaring at her. She pulled her ears back and glared back then bit my hand hard. I pulled my hand away and brought it close to me as she sulked off towards the back of her cell. She sat on the ground with her knees close to her chest and chin resting on top. Her arms linked around her legs as she looked up at me.
"You made her stop breaking the world." I heard three hundred and seven say making me look back at him.
"She's a mad one she is. They say the mad ones are the ones that go to the darkness first." He said to me. I heard the slamming of feet against the ground and was about to open my mouth again to speak until the rattling of wires filled my ears. The boy immediately placed his hands over his ears and shook his head vigorously once more.
"Stop breaking the world or we'll all go to the darkness!" He shouted at her making her stop.
"I'm not going to the darkness!" She yelled at him.
"No one's going to the darkness. Just stop yelling, those men will come back and think we're up to something." I said to them as the two looked at me and nodded.

Three hundred and seven dropped his hands from his head and crossed his legs over, looking over to me from his cell and them looking at Chimera who was watching his closely. She sat on the floor herself as I did the same.
"Hey, what is your name?" The boy asked me making me look at him.
"I don't have one." I told him simply as he raised an eyebrow slightly.
"Everyone has a name. I'm Felix and she's one hundred and three, although that's more a number than a name. You keep calling her Chimera though, so I guess that's her name." He said pointing between himself and then to Chimera. Chimera flicked her ears as she looked over to the boy.
"He's called number sixty-two. He's been here the longest." She said making me glare at her from the corner of her eyes. The boy nodded his head. He continued to stare at Chimera, looking between her ears and tail.
"You look like a fox; do you bark, or can you smell really well like a dog?" He said pointing to one of the creatures who was asleep in the back of its kennel. Chimera looked between it and raised her hands above her head feeling her ears. She then looked at her tail and looked back to the creature who continued to sleep and shook her head.
"No, I don't think so anyway. I never been told to try." She said as the boy nodded his head once more. I sighed to myself as I looked up.

Silence fell between us all as the lights flickered. I could hear the sound of something patting against the windows.
"How old are you two anyway?" Felix asked us making us snap our attention back to him. Chimera moved closer to the cell wired door and grabbed a hold of it slightly. I watched her closely to make sure she didn't rattle like she had done before.
"I'm eighteen. Sixty two is sixteen." She said turning her head to face me.
"But you were sixteen last year, and the year before that, in fact; I think you've been sixteen for the last ten years. Did you forget your real age, or do you choose not to remember?" She asked me, the ears on top of her head flicking. I moved my eyes to the floor with a slight sigh.
"They just say that genetically I'm sixteen. They took away some things and gave other things. I just know that my head always hurt when they did those test; before they started doing these ones." I said to her as she raised an eyebrow slightly and moved her head back to Felix. I looked up doing the same.
"What about you, Felix?" I asked him, looking at him questionably.
"Me? I'm fourteen." He said as a sound of an opening door filled my ears. We all snapped our heads over to see a man with several trays and paper bags filled with meat walk through. The three of us moved away from the door as the man walked past. He opened a small slit at the bottom of the door; it was large enough to put his hand under and slid through a plate with food on it. For the creatures he opened the door fully and bent down dropping the paper bags with meat inside just on the side of the door before shutting it.

He slid open the opening on my door and slid a plate through. I heard something cling onto the ground and quickly looked behind me. Something shiny was on the ground.
"Hey now, what's the matter lad? You're head still hurts? Well eat up and get some sleep, you'll feel better by morning." The man said making me nod my head slightly as he walked away and did the same to Felix's door. The man quickly left after leaving everyone's meal. I continued to stare at shiny things on the ground.
"Those are keys to get into the cells and kennels. There's a master keep on that there is; I know because he used it to open a kennel and take away one of those creatures when it wouldn't move any more." Chimera said as I pushed my plate out of the way and tried prying open the slider at the bottom of the door.
"We're all creatures here, and if we stay here we could end up like that creature that was taken." I said to her as I managed to pry open the slider. I stuck my arm through, lying closely onto the ground as I tried to reach for the keys. I could feel Chimera and Felix watching me closely as I moved my fingers just trying to grasp a hold of them. If I could just scrape them I could use my nails to get them. I let my arm drop when it began hurting and stayed lying on the floor.
"It's not use; I can't get them." I said to the two.
"Use your head. Our shorts are green, I discovered it meant they were doing something with our heads." Felix said as I looked up at him from the floor. Use my mind? I furrowed my brows slightly at the thought and took a deep breath. Just think, that's all I had to do; just think and it'll come to me just like in those test. It was the last thing I wanted to do, it made me ill and always made my head hurt. I focused on the keys hard and saw them move slightly. Focusing more I could feel myself sweat until I felt them touch the palm of my hand.
"Got them!" I said moving backwards and bringing my hand back through the slider.

I stared at the metal as I sat up onto my knees and then shifted myself so I was sitting cross legged. I looked between the keys and the locks, there's no way I would be able to fit my hand through that gap. I looked over at Felix, who was staring at me, looking more at the keys.
"Can your hand fit through the wires?" I asked him. He was taken back by my question and blinked a couple of times. I looked at the wires and knelt up, sliding his hand through the wire. He looked back at me and nodded his head, keeping his hand through the wire.
"Okay, try and locket the lock. If you can reach, I'll pass you the keys and we can escape." I told him. Chimera gasped from beside me in her cell, I looked at her with an eyebrow raised as her ears twitched constantly, never stopping.
"Escape? As in go to the outside? What will we do? You or I have never been outside; if I remember correctly you were born here you were." Chimera said as I nodded my head. It was true, I was born here, how I came to be born here though I never knew, and if I was honest I don't think I wanted to know. I watched as Felix moved his hand up another wire and poked it through, feeling the side of the box where hopefully the lock should be. Felix's face light up as soon as his finger slipped into something.
"I found the hole I have. I can get us out." He said to me cheerfully. I nodded my head laid myself on the ground, slipping my arm through the little compartment that the food came through. Felix did the same after he was able to pry it open from his side. I outstretched my arm as he did the same. When I felt his fingers brush along my hand I handed him the keys. Felix took them gently and slid his arm back through. He went back to finding the lock. It didn't take him long to do so and soon he had unlocked mine and Chimera's cells.

We stepped out. I couldn't help but smile to myself. Out of that cell at last and it wasn't for tests. We began walking up the corridor.
"Where are you going? How did you get loose? And what's that smell on your head? It smells of the stuff the white coats put over anything. The white coats made me better - first they made me ill and then they made me better, I've been ill you know..." A voice said next to me. I stopped and looked at her. She had brown floppy ears and a little brown tail. Her clothing was the same as Chimera's. The girls hair was dark brown and cut to her shoulders, her eyes dull blue and her skin was very pale. She had scratches all up her throat and along her wrists.
"Let me tell you what happened when I was ill. First of all the white coats made me better as I said, and then they made me worse, I didn't know if I was coming or going first they made me well then I was not..." She was saying to me until Felix came and dragged me away by the arm. I looked at him confused. He shook his head at me, giving me a sad smile.
"She's unstable they say. She'll claw out her throat soon, best not getting too attached to her it is." Felix said to me, making me nod my head slightly. I could hear the whimpering getting smaller and smaller, I could only assume the worse was happening.

We wondered through one of the offices, papers everywhere. Chimera couldn't help but sniff everywhere she walked, finding new smells, some more disgusting than the other according to her. One thing did peak her interest though. She stood by a door with a huge push door near the middle. She pushed open the flap and sniffed the air before taking her face away rather quickly.
"It smells of death, creatures have been burnt in there. Bones, hair, flesh, I can smell it all." She said, sticking her head close to the flap once more as she continued sniffing. Her ears perked up as I shuffled through some papers, not really sure what I was looking for. Felix came and stood beside me, looking through the papers himself.
"I can smell something that smells like dirt and wet out there! It's refreshing." She said, smiling over to us. I looked up at her as if she was mad and raised an eyebrow slightly.
"That's mud and rain that is. But we won't get through there it's too small" Felix chimed in, making the fox drop her ears in disappointed as she came over, her head hanging low. At least she tried. I spotted a piece of paper with Felix's picture on it. Picking it up I raised an eyebrow. I couldn't read and I sure as hell couldn't write. Felix took the paper off of me as he examined in.
"Name: Felix. Birthdate: Eleventh December. Gender: Male. Ex-ex-ex-pe-ri-men-ta-tion: Frontal and Temporal lobe operation. Details: The subject will have the Frontal and Temporal lobes tempered with. This tempering will include removing a tiny part of the lobes that determination reality from hal-lu-ci-na-tions. If the experiment is successful the subject will have episodes where his imagination becomes reality and reality becomes imagination. If the experiment is unsuccessful then he will be permanently brain damaged." Felix read off, making me and Chimera look at him in complete shock. He could read.

The brunette looked between us with an eyebrow raised slightly in question.
"I came from the outside I did. Before the whole world exploded that is." He said to us as I nodded my head, taking that answer as enough. He frowned deeply, furrowing his brows as he placed the paper down and grabbed his head between his hands, shaking it slightly. I don't think he fully understood, but by the sounds of it learning that his brain was messed with was probably upsetting. I placed a hand on his shoulder making him look up and smile sadly at me.
"I'm okay, really." He said and turned his attention back to the papers once more. There was a paper with Chimera's picture on it, before she had the ears and tail. Felix picked it up as he began reading it out loud to us.
"Name: One hundred and three. Brithdate: Unknown. Gender: Female. Experimentation:Genetic splicing. Details: The subject will be going under genetic splicing. The genetics we have chosen is Fox. We believe she is most compatible with the Fox gene. If the splicing is successful she will go under a psychical change and her mental state will remain the same. In the splicing is unsuccessful she may end up with the psychical change but will shortly end her own life due to the pain." Felix read off as we looked at Chimera. She stared at the paper with wide eyes before throwing her hands onto her ears and furrowing her brows.
"I wasn't born like this..." She said, trailing off as she began looking around trying to find some sort of comfort.

I couldn't help but furrow my brows. Chimera was distraught beyond belief. It was hard to see the girl like this. I looked back at the papers. Felix had picked up one more. It showed a picture of me on it with my details.
"Name: Sixty two. Birthdate: 31st August. Gender: Male. Experimentation: Cortex tempering. Age stopping. Nen blocking. Details: We believe subject sixty two is the subject in the facility, as such we will be performing three tests on him. The first one - Cortex tempering. We believe if we temper with the Cortex of the brain enough we can unlock psychic abilities. If the tempering is successful he will live and be able to use psychic abilities within a week after the procedure. If unsuccessful he will die on the table. Our second test - Age stopping. We believe we have found the genetic make-up that causes ageing. If we remove that genetic we can stop ageing. If the procedure is successful, number Sixty two will not age psychically beyond sixteen. If unsuccessful he will age like normal." Felix said, taking a break and looked at me through the corner of his eyes. I swallowed the lump in my throat as his eyes fell back onto the paper in his hands, reading off the last thing.
"Nen blocking - In order for the Cortex tempering to work to it's fullest potential we will need to block off everything that may awaken his ability to use Nen. A series of drugs will be given to him over the next six months to block off all potential openings permanently. We will only know if this is successful if he is able to use psychic abilities." Felix finished, placing down the paper in front him. That was a lot to take in. I didn't know what Nen was, not that it mattered I couldn't use it now anyway. It explained why my head hurt so much for a while, they had messed with my brain to make it possible for me to use psychic abilities. I wished it was a dream; but reality kicked in. It wasn't a dream, if it was they wouldn't have done all those tests to see how much I could take before I quit.

I could feel my hands shake as I stared at the paper Felix read off. That's why they did. I felt dirty.
"Hey hey, I found an exit!" I heard Chimera's voice shout over, instantly dragging me away from my thoughts. I looked over at her to see her looking out of a clear like square, a wide smile on her face as she pressed her hands and face against it; forgetting everything she heard earlier.
"It's so dark right now, but I can smell out there! It's refreshing and inviting, it doesn't smell like death or chemicals. That's where we need to be." She said as I wondered over with Felix. Felix looked out smiling widely as he did the same as Chimera, pressing his hands and face against the invisible force. I hesitantly placed my hand onto it. It was cold, but welcoming.
"I think we can break this." I said to them, looking through the slightly reflective material.
"If you break it then everything will be sharp and you'll bleed you will." Felix said to me, looking up with furrowed brows. I shook my head and pulled back my hand, clenching it into a fist.
"That's the last of my worries." I said, slamming my hand against the invisible force. It made a crack. I raised an eyebrow slightly and did the same thing. It made the crack larger. I did it again and again making the crack bigger and bigger until my entire hand went through. Pulling my hand out, it was covered in blood. I furrowed my brows as I looked at the cracked force. Taking a deep breath I rammed my shoulder into it and fell through, feeling the cold hit my face. I looked over to the window to see Chimera and Felix smiling and coming through themselves, careful not to touch any of the sharp bits. Chimera frowned at me as she walked towards me, her hands on her hips.
"The blood will leave your body if you don't patch up." She said to me, making me shake my head.
"It'll be fine. It just needs rest is all." I said to her. She eyed me carefully before taking my answer and turning her attention back to Felix, who looked around confused and frightened.
"Where...are...we?" He stuttered.

I don't know how many days it had been since we escaped that place. From the number of times the sun had been up I could safely say it had been at least fifteen days. Felix was teaching us how to get food from strangers in towns, or even this thing called money. He said because Chimera had ears and a tail, we could use a cute factor and hopefully get us some extra cash. But people didn't like beggar's around here. We never received anything. Not even trash. So we went hungry for many nights and days. I was beginning to think this was a bad idea.
"Maybe we should go back." I heard Chimera say, voicing my own thoughts. Felix shook his head tiredly as he looked at the ground.
"We wouldn't be able to. We don't know the way we don't." He said as he grasped his head with one hand and closed his eyes tightly. I looked at him with concern as he stopped walking and latched onto his head with the other hand, shaking it vigorously.
"My head, it hurts. It feels like their needles in it, it hurts so much, I can't take it." He said as he crouched down before falling down onto his side, curling up into a ball. First he was calm, then he shook, then he was calm again until he started shaking again. It was terrifying to watch. Chimera stood there wide eyed, not sure what to do. I swallowed the lump in my throat and walked over to him. I knelt down next to him. His eyes were half open and vacant, as if he wasn't even there.
"Is...is he gone?" I heard Chimera ask me. I looked back to her before looking back Felix. I could see his chest moving, but barely, it was almost as if he was sleeping. I shook my head at Chimera's question.
"No, he's still breathing. But his not in our reality. All we can do is wait." I said to her as she walked over to me and took a seat next to me. It started to rain. The rain pelted again my skin and bounced off of Felix's and Chimera's. I didn't know how long we were waiting for but Felix's breathing eventually got heavier. I looked at him and gently placed a hand onto his shoulder as he blinked a couple of times.
"Yeah you alright?" I asked him as he blinked a couple of more times. He let go of his head and began pushing himself up, nodding his head slowly.
"I...I think so." He said as Chimera began using her hand to wipe away the mud that caked itself to his face. I couldn't help but smile to myself, he was okay, that was good to know.

We began walking, trying to find somewhere to sleep for the night. I was tired and hungry, but my main concern was finding somewhere that Felix could sleep in peace to try and get over his episode. I felt a tug on my hand and looked at the person who tugged at it. Felix looked at me seriously, making me raise an eyebrow at him in question.
"I need to ask you to do me a favour." He said, making us stop walking. I watched him closely as he thought about what to say or how to say something. His eyes kept switching from place to place, first looking panicked and then calm. It was almost like a mini episode. He finally locked eyes back with me.
"I...I want you to send me to the darkness. If I slip into my head, and I don't come out of it, I want you to send me to the darkness, it'll be peaceful there and I can stay inside my head all the time then." He said to me, taking me back. I didn't know what to say to his request. Did he think he was getting worse since we escaped? I thought about it and began opening my mouth only for him to talk me off.
"Please! My head hurts so much, and it hurts after I come out of my head. I can't take it. It hurts so much. Please, I'm asking you as someone who sees you as an older brother." Felix said to me, taking me back even more. I stayed quiet, what could I say? What could I do? Did it really hurt him that much that he would trust me with such a task. After several minutes of silence I sighed to myself, and ran a hand through my hair, not taking my eyes off the ground and shook my head a little.
"Okay, if you don't come out of your head after thirty minutes, I'll make it so you stay there forever." I said to him. I suddenly felt a weight on my and looked down to see the younger boy had wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Thank you." He said simply as I stood awkwardly, not sure what to do. He unwrapped his arms some time after and began walking to catch up to Chimera, who had stopped to wait for us up the road somewhat. I didn't know how I felt about that agreement, but if it hurt him that much that it would be better for him to stay inside his head, then I would do it.

We had found a cave for the night. It was small and dark, it smelt of damp; but it kept us dry. What it didn't do was keep us warm. We were lucky, it must have been used before as there was a few things to make a fire with; Felix was the one that decided to take it upon himself to make the fire. Then again, he was the only one who knew how. Once Felix had got it lit we all took a seat around it, just listening to it crackle.
"It's normally the sad and lonely people you know." Chimera said to us as the three of us sat in silence in the damp cave. I looked at her with an eyebrow raised slightly, wondering what the girl meant.
"What do you mean?" I asked her, keeping my arm lazily propped onto my knee. She smiled sadly to herself, her eyes never leaving the ceiling the of the cave we used as shelter.
"People who are sad and lonely make other people sad and lonely too. That way someone else knows their pain. Those men in the white coats back there, the ones who tested on us; I bet they were sad and lonely. I think, that's why they tested on us. They were sad and lonely and wanted others to feel that way too; so they made us different so we could experience they're sadness and loneliness and it made them feel better on their lives...That's just my thoughts anyway." Chimera said as the cave filled with an uncomfortable silence. It made my skin crawl. I clicked my tongue and laid my back onto the cold stone flooring, staring at the ceiling myself.
"That's awfully deep for someone like you." I said to her as she chuckled lightly to herself.
"But I think she's right. Why else would they do it?" Felix said, coming up to one side of me as Chimera came to the other side. I was laying in the middle between the two, the only two people I knew outside this world. The silence fell around us again, the uncomfortable silence that made the air seem toxic.
"Kai..." I heard Felix say, trailing off. I looked at him with an eyebrow raised as Chimera leaned up on her arms. What was a Kai? Did it have a meaning?
"I think Kai suits you. In one language it means unbreakable or strong. It suits you it does." Felix said with a wide smile across his face. I furrowed my brows slightly as I turned my head towards the cave ceiling once more, linking my fingers onto my stomach as Felix and Chimera got closer for warmth. I could only guess what little fire we had had gone out.
"We're all broken." I said to him simply, letting the silence creep over us once more. None of us were stable, we all had our problems. Felix heard voices and had episodes where he couldn't tell reality from make-belief. Chimera; she had fox ears and a tail and an otherworldly sense of smell she wouldn't be accepted into normal society easily. As for myself? I was beginning to doubt if the two people who travelled with me were actually my friends, or if they were my foes. I kept slipping, thinking they were going to take me back; it scared me.

Felix had began teaching us how to read and write from books or newspapers we could find in the newspapers. Felix found it hard to believe that we didn't know, but Chimera kept reminding him that we were born inside that place, so we only got shown what was necessary. We had heard Felix talk about his world breaking to bits on occasions and I had to admit, I wondered what he meant. We sat in an ally way as Felix went through a newspaper with us. I decided to ask my question.
"Felix...You say your world blew to bits. What did you mean?" I asked him. He looked up to me, considering I was still taller then him even when sitting down. His face grimaced as he looked back down to the newspaper.
"I was just playing a game I was. I only lived with my dad." He said, shifting his weight slightly. Me and Chimera watched him carefully, wondering what the story was as he practically knew ours, not that there was much to tell.
"I was playing a game, and one of the kids threw the ball to me. It missed me and ended up in the road so I went to get it. My dad must have seen me he must have, because I remember him shouting "Move Felix" before I was pushed out of the way. He was hit he was by a car. My world blew to bits from the sound." He said, fiddling with his shirt as he kept looking around, trying to preoccupy his probably already busy mind from the subject.
"Everyone said I killed my dad they do, so I ended up there where they did something to me." Felix finished up. The subject was grim and depressing. Chimera took the boy into her arms, hugging him and patting his head. He seemed to loosen up at the touch, as if that's all he wanted was another persons real touch.
"We'll stay and make sure your world doesn't blow to bits again." She said to him, making the boy smile to himself. I leant back on my hands as I watched the two. I wanted to promise as easily as Chimera could, I really did; but I felt I couldn't. Not with what I was thinking, I didn't want to promise something and then end up not keeping it. But by the looks of things, Chimera had always done that for me.

More weeks had passed. We had resorted to stealing from shops. Our saving grace was that we moved all the time, we never stayed in one place. We had gotten weaker, skinnier. Felix's episodes were becoming more frequent. We had to leave him behind when he needed food, it was the only way we were able to guarantee that we'd get out without being caught. My thoughts of rather or not they were my friends or foe had become more frequent. Sometimes, I even found my self just twitching my hand over to them, it would be easy to just explode their brain from the inside and be over with it; but something held me back every time. I couldn't do it, matter how much I told myself they were against me I just couldn't do it.
"We need to take Felix to see someone." Chimera said as we were coming back to a small field we had found to sleep in. I looked at her with an eyebrow raised slightly in question.
"He needs help, we can't help him. He needs to see someone." She said to me making me stop and look at her wide eyed. She stopped when she couldn't hear my footsteps and looked at me questionably, dropping an ear in question.
"Kai...what is it?" She asked me as I stared at her wide eyed, wondering why she would even suggest that.
"If we do that they'll take us back!" I said to her, walking closer to her once more. Chimera glared at me as she pulled back her ears.
"It may be better that wa-" She began saying until I cut her off, wrapping my hands around her throat. I had pinned her to the floor with my hands tightly around her throat, pressing down with all the weight I had left.
"It's not better they'll just make him insane! That's what they'll do!" I shouted at her. I expected her to do something back, or even shout back; but nothing. She did nothing.

Panicked, I jumped up and looked at her over. She didn't move, she didn't twitch, she didn't even breathe. I felt my chest raising up and down quickly, fear taking over my body as I looked at Chimera. I...I had sent her to the darkness because I got angry at what she said. But she deserved it, she was trying to make us go back. But she was trying to get help for Felix, which meant going back there. She was with them. Yes, that was it, she was with them. I remember, she had said sad and lonely people did things to others to make them sad and lonely, but sad and lonely people were also weak. That type of person, a weak person, deserved no place here. No I had to stop thinking about that, Felix was weak; he was getting worse...I should give him his request that he asked me all those weeks ago. But he hadn't had an episode that lasted for thirty minutes or more. It didn't matter, I would be doing him a favour if I did it early for him.
"Kai?" I heard someone question making me jump. I hadn't even realised I had walked myself back to the field. I looked at the voice that spoke. Felix stood confused, wondering where Chimera was. I could see if on his face, he didn't need to say, I could just see it on his face.
"Where's Chimera?" He asked me making me stiffen. I scratched the back of my neck as I tried thinking of an answer, but Felix seemed to have beat me to it.
"Where...did you leave her?" He asked me making me snap my eyes at him. How did he know it was even more? Was I that easy to read. I didn't answer the boys question. Instead he looked at me wide eyed and started backing away from me, gripping his head tightly with his hands. I began moving forward, trying to reach out to him.
"No you don't understand, she...I...She..." I said, stuttering, not sure how to word my words. Felix continued to move backwards away from me, shaking his head as he kept his eyes on me.
"No, stay back. Don't come near. You're mad you are. You...you killed her! I'm not hanging around you I'm not, you'll...you'll kill me to soon enough." He said to me making me stay in place. My eyes widened, I wondered if he forgot about the request he had asked of me all those weeks ago. I furrowed my brows as he continued moving back before eventually turning around to run away from me.

If he went on his own, he was practically dead. That's how I had to think about it. It hurt, it hurt so much. My mind felt like it was torn in two. I didn't know if I wanted to be angry or upset. Instead, I stayed at the spot I was glued to, the spot where Felix left me. I had killed them both, even though that was not my intention when we first left; one by my bare hands and the other by forcing away. They were both dead. But maybe that was for the better. They were weak after all, and they were holding me back. I bet, if I didn't have them around I could have accomplished so much. It was there fault I was still like this, because they were weak and needed someone there to hold their hand. With them gone, I could do so much.

It was better this way, for them both to be dead.