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This story will eventually have a HEA, so please be patient as I get my characters into position. There will be extreme adult subject matter, drama, talk of abortion and angst; please be advised.

Thank you to carolinecullen2012 and piesmom for everything you did to make this story what it is today. I love you ladies with all my heart. Could not have done it without you!

Sorry for the delay in updates RL has been crazy! I plan on updating on a much more regular basis. We have the rough drafts to Chapter 13 prewritten. Enjoy!

The Christmas party was quickly approaching; I had yet to find something nice and appropriate to wear. Appropriate was Renee's word for not wanting me flaunting my shit. She really was funny, sometimes. Of course, I didn't have money to go buy something. So, I went with a pair of black pants and one of her tops that I thought were appropriate, but she said looked like they were painted on. I couldn't help it I was blessed in the chest area. Fuck that! They were HUGE! I had a hard time getting clothes to fit. Blessing wasn't what I would call them. Then, add the fact that my waist was tiny and there was no way of hiding them. In fact, my little waistline made them look a lot bigger! I'm quite shocked I never toppled over from the uneven weight it placed on my frame. When I was younger, I was embarrassed, but now … I used them to my advantage. If you got it...flaunt it, right?

The dressy silver tank top, I choose wasn't "proper," but I was still young. Hell, I refused to look or wear clothes that made me look old. Renee had to sew and pin the top in a few spots to make it fit. I spun around in front of my floor length mirror, getting a good look at myself. Actually, I thought I cleaned up pretty good. I made sure that everything was covered and turned for Renee to see. I was shocked when she gave me a compliment, and left the room.

Hoping Edward didn't have to take me to the emergency room, instead of the Christmas Party. However, the way I looked; I worried that Edward would have a heart attack when he saw me.

Edward picked me up at my house, and we headed to the party. The party was at a hotel; Edward suggested that we book a room for the night because both wanted to drink. I quickly agreed because the hotel was a good forty minutes away, and neither of us had to worry about driving home. I had never been to the place before, but Edward had. He said it was pretty nice.

This was the first time we were technically going somewhere as a couple and I was a little nervous. It wasn't like all the other times we had gone out. All those times, we had basically been at the same place, at the same time. I didn't even know why I was nervous really. I had gotten over my nerves when it came to Edward it was just a matter of going to go with the flow of things.

Edward reached down and grabbed my hand leading me over to the desk to get the keys for our room. We settled everything into our room before headed back downstairs to enjoy the festivities. We walked into the ballroom, hand in hand, and I quickly surveyed the area. I knew that the worst part of the night was going to be Lauren. Since my diffused attack, I didn't know how she was going to react. However, I wasn't backing down, even if we had to go another round. I didn't give a flying fuck if the president was going to be here tonight, because nothing would stand in my way if she opened her damn mouth.

We were about fifteen minutes late and the cocktails had already been served. We got something to drink and stood around at the tables talking with a few of Edward's friends, basically just shooting the shit about nothing in particular. I couldn't take my eyes off Edward; I loved seeing him dressed up in a suit and tie. The thoughts of him tying me up popped into my head, again. I really needed to get my mind out of the gutter; we were at a Christmas party after all.

"Bella … Edward, I am so glad to see you. You both look great!" Renee had her fake face going tonight, all was happy in her world, it seemed to an outsider. She walked over, giving us both a hug. I tried not to roll my eyes at her, and plastered the same fake smile across my face.

"Thanks Mom, great party."

"Hi Renee, it's good to see you," Edward said while grabbing my hand.

"Come on guys, let's go sit down and eat, they are getting ready to serve dinner," Renee said as she walked toward the party room.

We both followed her, not happily; however, we weren't going to cause a scene, especially here. We sat down at the table, and I saw Lauren look over at us. She waved and mouthed hello quickly. It made me laugh out loud, I guess I scared her. Renee shot me a disapproving look. I shrugged my shoulders in response to her. Conversations flowed around the table; I even chimed in a time or two always getting the disapproving look from my mother.

Dinner went well considering we were stuck at the table with Renee. I really did enjoy myself, but only because Edward kept putting his hand on my thigh under the table. I think it was to make me less nervous, but all it did was make me hornier. The hosts did a couple speeches, awarded the staff with a couple of awards, and wished everyone a Merry Christmas. By the time dessert was served, I was feeling pretty good.

Once dinner was over, Edward and I decided to go to the bar, I stood in front of Edward with my back pressed close to his. I knew the moment his body reacted to mine, causing me to shiver as his hard cock rubbed up against my ass.

"I am really tired."

I turned to look at him, hoping I was being seductive, but casual in my response. I hoped he caught on quickly because I could feel the achy growing between my legs as his cock rubbed up and down. He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. I could see he knew what I wanted; his eyes turned a deep dark the wanting shade they always turned when he wanted me. With that look, I was ready to attack right there.

"We're gonna call it a night guys," Edwards said to the people that were at the bar, as he put his arm around my waist. Renee was standing there watching us.

"Don't you need your coat Isabella?" she spit.

"No, we got a room for the night," I said as we walked out the door. Edward's arm still wrapped securely around me. I wasn't turning back to see what she or anyone else had to say. I wanted out of there and away from them, but I also wanted to get him alone and fast.

We walked to the elevator doors and pushed the button. As I looked up at him, he crashed his lips to mine. The kiss was powerful, if his arms weren't wrapped around my body, I would have fallen over from the force.

Edward must have heard the elevator doors open because the next thing I knew, he was pushing me backwards into the elevator. I felt the cool wall against my back as he pressed his body against mine. We broke apart for a minute to catch our breath, and to hit the button for the floor. I leaned forward pressing floor seventeen, I liked my lips and readied myself to turn and attack him, but he beat me too it. He didn't relent either, pressing me into the panel of the buttons. He pressed me harder against the wall than he had before, but I didn't care because I could feel his arousal through his pants. I moaned as his body rubbed up against mine so deliciously. He spun me around and slammed me into the wall on the opposite side of the elevator. He lift me up, so I could wrapped my legs around his waist. I knew what he wanted because I wanted it too. His cock slid right into place causing the most erotic pressure in just the right spot. He had me so wet already that I knew he could feel the moisture through my pants.

His fingers dug into my ass as he grabbed me, I reached for anything on him I could grab a hold of. We had never been like this before; he was getting a little rough. I loved it and wanted more. I rubbed myself up and down on his cock. He helped me along and had me to the point of wanting to scream his name. The way his dick was rubbing my clit and the way he was treating me brought me to orgasm so fast. He crashed his mouth back over mine, covering my screams of pleasure. That was all we needed, complaints that someone was screaming on the elevator.

The door opened on our floor, I tried to jump down, but Edward wasn't letting me. He carried me to our room. I mouth never left his body; I peppered kisses down his face, jaw and shoulder. I had started removing his clothes on the way down the hall. His tie was the first to go, and I slipped it around my neck. I pushed his coat off his shoulders causing them to catch in his elbows. When we got to the door, he held me against it while he tried to open it with the key. When the door finally flew open we didn't hesitate and went right in landing on the floor, laughing. Edward kicked the door closed.

When we fell, Edward landed right on top of me between my legs just where I wanted him to be.

"Look how fucking wet you are for me, I can see it right through your clothes," he moaned, looking down at me rubbing his hand over my covered wet pussy.

"God, I want to taste you."

I wanted that too and pulled his coat off his body, I ripped his shirt open as buttons flew everywhere. I couldn't help it. I wanted to feel him naked against my body. I wanted him inside me, and I wanted it now!

He stood and finished taking his clothes off, before he could move I got up on my knees. I looked up at him and licked my lips. I had never really done this, so I figured what the hell. Ali said guys loved it so, I was willing to try. I loved him so much that I would give him anything he wanted. My body was overwhelmed with feelings. I tried to focus on what I was doing and what Ali or even Rosie had told me, or I had seen in those stupid movies.

"Bella, you don't have to do that," Edward said as he looked down at me, but I could see the want and lust in his eyes. I took him in my hand. I licked just the tip; I could taste the small amount of pre come. I swirled it around with my tongue teasing the top of him. It wasn't so bad, I thought before sliding him in my mouth; I let him go all the way back till he hit the back of my throat. Feeling brave and proud to have made it so far, I began pulling him in and out of my mouth. I used my spit and hands for what did not fit. The noises he made as my lips around him turned me on even more. When his hands fisted my hair, I didn't mind. And, when he started rocking his hips back and forth fucking my mouth with his cock; I really did love pleasing him. The louder he moaned the bigger my smile grew. I never took my eyes off of him and watched as his eyes closed and his jaw tightened. I knew he needed more and decided to start massaging his balls.

"Bella," he groaned.

"You need … to stop."

"I want to fuck you," he panted.

"I don't want to come ... in your mouth."

Jerking me up off the floor, he stood me up in front of his naked body. Pulling my top over my head and reaching around my body to unhook my bra. He started to kiss me again, working his way his way down my neck. I could feel his hot breath on me before he would kiss; he sucked my earlobe into his mouth. I slipped my hands down to my pants and pulled them down my body feeling the cool wetness drip down my legs.

Edward slid his hand down to mine; pulling away from my body he led us over to the bed. I pushed him down on the bed and straddled him. Now, the only thing between him entering me was a thing piece of wet fabric.

"These have to go," he said as he ripped them from my body. I let out a gasp, not knowing if it was from shock or excitement. I knew I was going to have a mark in the morning, but I didn't care. The passion between us was unbearable.

"I'll buy you a new pair," Edward whispered between kisses. I had to laugh at him.

He flipped me over, putting his body on top of mine. He pulled both my legs over his shoulders and slammed into me hard; I couldn't help but let out a cry of passion. He drove in so deep this way, and he wasn't being gentle about it. I on the other hand, loved it. I loved how he wasn't treating me like a china doll.

His lips were all over mine as his body pumped in and out of my body. He was pounding into me hard and rough causing us to gasp for air as he worked me over. He sat up on his knees and pulled me up against his chest. We were a sweaty mess of limbs and skin.

"Bella …I …," Edward said, looking into my eyes with both his hands on the side of my face. I didn't know what he wanted to say. He closed his eyes and kissed me with such meaning and passion. I was lost in the feelings again.

We were both getting close to our climax; he reached down and started rubbing my clit. I could feel the buildup in my stomach; I was getting close and he could tell. I knew he was too, by the way his legs were responding and how he was thrusting up inside of me.

"Come with me Bella, I want to see that beautiful face the same time I explode inside you."

A couple more thrusts and I could feel him starting to pulsate, as his seed spilled inside of me; he looked me right in the eyes and pinched my clit, that was all I needed pushing me over the edge. I could have sworn I heard him say "I love you," but I really was caught up in the moment.

Our bodies were one in a complete euphoric feeling, when my orgasm finally started to come to a lull I could see the smile on Edward's face. We both collapsed onto the bed.

"That was beautiful love," Edward whispered as we curled into each other and pulled the covers over ourselves. We lay there in each other's arms for a while, his head was on my chest and I was running my hands over his head and back. When I could tell he had finally drifted asleep; I lay there thinking about what I thought I heard him say. I didn't know if I had heard him correctly or not. There was no way I was going to ask him. He started to stir a little in his sleep, which he did sometimes when he drank. That's when I heard him, I thought he had woken up, but he was still sleeping.

"I love you, my Bella."