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This story will eventually have a HEA, so please be patient as I get my characters into position. There will be extreme adult subject matter, drama, talk of abortion and angst; please be advised.

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We got to 'our new home' I would never get sick of hearing or thinking that. We started to unpack everything and I was a little overwhelmed. I was living with a boy first of all, but I had never had a home life really. How do I take care of a house? I guessed, I would figure it out. We unloaded the truck, Edward and Carlisle started to put together what furniture needed to be; I decided to unpack the kitchen. We decided to take a break and go get lunch; we went to local restaurant just down the block from our apartment.

I was looking around to see what was close in shopping and food places. I knew we were going to have to grocery shop soon, and that thought scared me even more now. I didn't know how to cook. I can make Mac and Cheese, eggs and grilled cheese. What have I gotten myself in to? Edward was going to send me home within the week. Return to sender. My grandma was coming to visit in for a few days, so I was hoping she would give me a few pointers.

We were sitting at lunch with Carlisle; Edward could tell something was wrong. I hardly ate my lunch and I was super nervous. Everything hit me all at once. I had no idea what the fuck I was doing. This man, who told me he loved me, was expecting this girl to whom he could start a life with and I didn't know how to do that. How to take care of someone let alone a house. I was going to have to cook and clean. Renee really did set me up to fail in my life. I am fucked!

I excused myself to go to the bathroom, partly because my stomach was upset and I felt like I was going to puke all over Edward and his dad. The other because I had gotten myself so worked up I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. I really wanted to call Ali but there are no pay phones in a public restroom and I didn't want to go running to one in the middle of lunch and make Edward think I was regretting my decision. I was not I wanted to be here with him more than anything; I was just scared I was going to let him down.

We went home and Edward started to set up our bed, it was a water bed so it had to be filled and heated, so it took a while. I hooked up the computer and decided to email Renee and let her know we made it here and everything was ok. I knew email was safer than a phone call; I did not want to talk to her yet. As soon as I opened my email there were messages from her about missing me already. I didn't even read them and sent a short message that we made it safe and sound. I didn't need her calling on top of everything I was feeling right now.

Carlisle stayed the night and we took him to the airport the next morning. I made sure I paid attention on how to get there because my grandma was coming to visit for a few days and Edward was going to be at work when her plane came in, so I was going to have to pick her up on my own. After he showed me where to go and what to do I was pretty confident I could do it alone.

Edward took me around the city, and showed me how to get places. I had a job interview, and I was going to have to go to while he was at work. So, he wanted to make sure I knew how to get there. Edward started his new job a few days after we moved. I was left in the house alone, not really sure what to do. I was not feeling well, but I just shrugged it off as more stress. I didn't tell Edward that I still felt like shit, and I didn't want him to worry or think I was having second thoughts.

My grandma came to visit; we went shopping at a couple places. The best thing about her visit was that I had someone to hang out with. However, she knew something was wrong with me because I could not eat.

"Bella, figure it out either before I go home or not, but something is wrong. I know you don't have insurance but your health is more important," she told me in that loving way that only your grandma could talk to you. She was the one that basically raised me, till Renee decided she wanted to play mom, when I was twelve or thirteen and took me back.

It was great having Grandma visit, she made me feel a little more at ease. I was still scared that I was never going to be enough for Edward, and that I was not going to live up to the expectations that he wanted, needed or expected. I didn't know if it was all the bullshit Renee had feed me for so long, or just normal worries every young girl has the first time they move in the man that they love.

Edward never said anything to me about not being good enough, or not being what he wanted. He never made me feel bad about myself at all, I could never ask for a better man to be in love with it really was my own self esteem issues that Renee burned into my brain. I had to start to get over this feeling of being inadequate, I know if something bothered Edward he would talk to me about it. Toughen up Swan.

I went for my interview, everything went well and I got my start date, but I still wouldn't have health insurance. I would chat on occasion with Renee on IM, but I tried not to spend a lot of time on it with her, she was always so negative.

I finally broke down and called Ali. We had been talking through email and that IM bullshit, but she knew I was hiding something; she didn't push. I couldn't figure out why either.

"Ali, I am so scared. I don't know what to do, I am never going to be good enough for him," I cried to her.

"Bells, you are good enough. I don't know why you are letting Renee's voice haunt you. You know better than that. Now, tell me what is really going on, because you have been dancing around shit for some time now and I have been letting it go. You better spill your guts or I'm telling Jasper, and then going to have him call Edward," she said.

"Ali, I just don't know how to take care of a house...cook...clean…"

"Spill it NOW BITCH," she shouted

"I have been sick for months … I just think its stress. But even Grandma noticed. She told me to figure out what my problem was and do it fast." I was crying.

"Go take a test; you know you should have a long time ago. Why did you wait?" Ali questioned

"I don't want to know the answer, I don't want him to flip out and leave me. I don't want what happened to you to happen to me. I don't want everything Renee said to be true." I thought about what I said and realized that once I finally admitted it, I felt much better.

"You know what you have to do Bella … He loves you, Relax. I have to go call me later. I love you Bells."

And she was gone. I was left to my thoughts.

Everything was going great with Edward and I, the sex was awesome. I was horney as hell, which had Edward reaping all the benefits. After my talk with Ali it finally started to sink in, I was pregnant. I knew deep down I was and she was right. Edward was going to be so upset. We had been together for a while and he said that he loved me, but all I could do was think back to what Renee said. He will leave you and take that baby. I was so sick to my stomach now, I ended up throwing up. Once I had cleaned myself up I knew I had to figure it out for sure.

I drove up to the grocery store to buy a test, I remember being with Ali and she always bought more than one, so I got a box with two in there. As I walk to the front of the store a million things went through my head. What if Edward doesn't want this baby? We really have never talked about kids, he is a lot older than me maybe he is ready to start a family. But, does he want to start that family with me?

"Congratulations," the cashier said to me at the checkout.

"Thank you," I replied, as I held back the tears. They were not really sad tears, because I was not sad to be pregnant, but I was scared what Edward was going to do. OH. MY. GOD. Edward is going to flip.

How the hell could you start a new job pregnant?

I cried all the way home. I walked into the house and right into the bathroom, I took both tests. You had to wait three minutes for them to tell you the answer, so I walked out of the room. I went to get a cigarette to try to calm my nerves, ironic huh. Since you shouldn't smoke when you were pregnant. I looked down at them when I walked back in, about a minute later, and they both showed two pink lines.

"Fuck."

I didn't even know how far along I was because of the birth control I was on, it made me not get my periods, so who knows. Now, what was I going to do? Edward was going to be home soon, and I had to tell him sooner rather than later. I cannot hide shit from him. I decided to email Renee, since she won't get it till tomorrow and tell her I didn't get pregnant here. I came here pregnant. Surprise!

Edward came home from work, and he knew something was wrong. He could tell I had been crying. He walked over to me, and gave me a big hug. I had eventually gotten enough nerve to tell him out loud. I had told him a ton in my head.

"I'm pregnant."

All I can remember after that was crawling onto his lap and straddling him. I hugged him and looked him in his eyes. They were totally lost of emotion, was Renee right after all. I put my head in the crook of his neck and let the tears roll down my face.