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This story will eventually have a HEA, so please be patient as I get my characters into position. There will be extreme adult subject matter, drama, talk of abortion and angst; please be advised.
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I was so lost and scared. Renee seemed to know the exact minute Edward walked out the door for work because the phone started ringing. Renee was irate and sending Charlie to get me when Edward was at work. I fought her tooth and nail, and told her no multiple times. I was not leaving. I was not leaving our new home.
"I love him; I don't know what we are going to do. I just found out! I am not coming home. Charlie is not coming to get me," I screamed and cried.
"Isabella, your uncle is already on a plane and is bringing you home and you are not keeping that baby. You are too young and we are not playing this game," Renee said then hung up.
I was so upset. I sat in the bathroom and puked until my uncle arrived. I told him I didn't want to leave that I was in love with Edward. How could I leave and not say good bye? I just sat there while he packed the truck. I was in shock that this was even happening. I tried to call Edward at work, but Charlie tore the phone from my hands.
As I laid on the bathroom floor, I thought back over my relationship with Edward and the first time that Renee truly saw the two of us together. I knew then that she was going to ruin my life with him. I saw it in her face. I saw that she was going to destroy my happiness for her pleasure. I didn't understand how a mother could not want their child to be happy. When I had children I would do anything in my power to make them happy, even if it meant a sacrifice on my part. Wasn't that what parents did for their kids?
I walked out into the kitchen to get something to drink and tried to get to the phone again, but I couldn't find it anywhere. I couldn't run from Uncle Charlie. Where the hell was I gonna run too? I had no idea where Edward's work was and no way to even get there.
"I truly am sorry Bella, this is not my choice. I came down here for your mom; I told her I would bring you home."
I was sobbing, I didn't want to leave and I couldn't get a hold of Edward. I pushed passed my uncle and ran to the bathroom again, nothing was left in my stomach; I just dry heaved into the toilet. I lay on the floor hoping he would forget I was there. However, he didn't, he came and picked me up and put me in the truck and left. That was the last time I was ever going to see my Edward again and I knew it. Renee had done it; she had ruined my life completely.
I never even spoke the entire way home, we stopped to eat once. I wanted to protest, but I was starving. I knew I had to eat if not for me, but for our baby. I just sat at the damn iHop and cried. Everything about this entire situation was wrong. Edward would be home from work by now; he would notice that I left. What was he thinking? He must think it was my choice to leave him. I didn't even have a way to contact him.
We finally arrived back at Renee's house; I would never call it home again. Renee took my home away it, was where Edward was, and he wasn't here. She opened the door and ran to hug me.
"Don't worry; we will take care of this. He won't hurt you anymore," she said.
"Hurt me? You are the one hurting me Renee not him, I didn't want to leave him. I love him. You are ruining my life as always. Why can't you just let me be happy, is that so hard for you?" I screamed as I ran from her.
The first night with her, I tried to go back to Edward once in my truck and she took the keys and hid them. As the days passed, I refused to leave the spare bedroom, since she already turned my old room into a family room. I refused to unpack my things hoping that I would eventually find a way back to Edward. It had been a week or so of living in hell with her, she was pretending life was perfect and I was not speaking to her. I called my grandma crying and told her what was going on. She said she would buy me a ticket, but I had to get to the airport. She got me the ticket and Mike said he would take me to the airport, but Renee caught on and put the brakes on that one too.
"You're calling Edward," Renee said as she entered the guest room holding the phone.
"If I call Edward, it will be for him to come and get me," I stated uninterested in why she was going to allow me to call him now.
"No, I'm standing right here … you are going to tell him that you don't want to be with him and that you are not having his child," she demanded.
"I won't do it," I replied stubbornly.
"Yes, you will or I will do something about it!"
"Like what? There is nothing you could do to him or me?"
"Well, for starters I could say that he kidnapped you … held you hostage, and even raped you."
"Those things wouldn't stick and I would NEVER agree to say those things. And, you seem to be forgetting the fact that I'm twenty," I screamed.
"You might be twenty, but don't push I could drag you to psychologist and have you proven unstable in a heartbeat. Better yet, I could have him fired from his new job. I don't want to do these things Bella, but if you don't I will be forced."
I knew she had me, there was nowhere for me to go, nothing for me to do, and if I continued to fight her, she would do everything she threatened. I didn't want to hurt Edward anymore than what he could already have been so I finally caved to her demands. It was horrible. As soon as I hung up I ran to the bathroom and threw up. My body could not handle all the stress.
Renee even found the pictures I had of Edward and me from New Years, she destroyed every one. Every day, I was told how much he didn't really love me because he never came for me or his baby. She broke me. I was starting to believe it. But, in the back of my mind, I knew it was not the truth. Edward thought I left him, why would he try to come get me especially after everything she made me tell him.
Renee pulled me away from Edward, but I still had to try to fight for the sake of our child. I got out of the house one day while she was at work and went to a free clinic for uninsured moms. I needed to figure out if everything was ok with mine and Edward's baby. I was going to go down fighting. Renee had made the appointment for two days from now at the abortion clinic, but I was trying my hardest to not have to go through with it. They did all the blood work needed and an ultrasound, I got to see our baby on the screen. I was sobbing.
"Would you like to know what you are having?" the tech asked looking down at me with thoughtful eyes.
I didn't know what to say, I did want to know, but if Renee made me go through with the procedure it would be worse.
"Yes," I barely whisper but she heard me.
"That's your son."
I jumped off the table before she could even finish and ran to get dressed, still sobbing. She caught up with me on the way out the door.
"Here, I printed you out a picture," she said handing me a tiny ultrasound picture of what Edward and I had made. A piece of both of us, I ran to the bathroom to go throw up again.
I got home a couple hours before Renee did, and sat in my bedroom with my picture and just cried. I didn't know what to do. I wanted Edward, I wanted him to know how much I loved him, I wanted to be with him and have a family with him.
I must have fallen asleep with the picture in my hand because I was woken up the next morning by Renee with it in her hands.
"Let's go I changed your appointment to today."
"What?" I asked groggily from sleep.
"Get up," Renee demanded.
She proceeded to throw clothes in my direction pushing me to get ready. She shoved me towards the car to something I didn't really want. When we pulled into the parking lot of the clinic I was so mad I was shaking. We had not said a single word to each other the entire ride there. We had to give our name to get buzzed into the building. People were so against this they had to take precautions. I was very pro-choice and everyone had to make their own decision, but I was not getting to make my own decision. Renee was making mine for me. I walked in and just sat in a seat, while Renee went up to the counter.
The waiting room was full of young girls; I couldn't believe how young some of them looked. Most looking like it was just another day not a care in the world, and here I was…my life felt like it was ending. There was a wall of hearts with letters written to the unborn babies, of why not carrying them to term was better for them, and why the mothers were too young or unable to take care of them. Be with God my sweet child. Heaven is a better place for you to be my dear one. I will always love you. I read as the tears rolled down my face, I wish I was able to love you as much as you deserved to be loved. They just got worse. I wiped the tears from my cheeks and sat back down.
They called my name and I just sat in the seat for a few minutes and finally Renee pushed me forward. I had to change and have an ultrasound; they keep the TV turned so you can't see anything which I am glad about now. I just kept my eyes closed and cried. You have a choice to be asleep or awake. I choose the second, I couldn't imagine being awake while everything was happening. I was brought into a room and laid down. The next thing I remember was waking up in a roomful of girls. The nurse told me it was time to get up and dressed.
I walked out to the waiting room and stood there. Renee stood up and walked out to the car. We drove home in silence again. What was I going to say? There was nothing I wanted to say to her, I still couldn't believe what she made me do. What was I going to do with my life now? How was I going to move on?
I went into the guest room and just cried I didn't leave it for weeks. I didn't eat, sleep or talk to anyone. I still wanted to be with Edward, but how was I ever going to face him again after what I did. I still wasn't sure if he wanted the baby, but now he never had the chance to make that choice. I wish he would just barge into my door right now and take me away, but he won't. He thinks I left him. He would never know how much I really love him. No one would ever replace Edward in my life. He would always be the only man I that would ever hold my heart.
As the month passed, I started a new job. Edward had called about bringing me some stuff that I had left in our home. I didn't know what was going to happen when I saw him. Do I pretend and act like I did when we were on the phone? I didn't know what he was going to do or say either. He thought I took off on him pregnant with his child. I could only wish that when I saw him, he could see how sorry I was and how much I still loved him, in my eyes.
Edward met with me at my lunch break. It was so uncomfortable; I didn't know what to do. I wanted to jump him and tell him everything. Crawl into his car and disappear, no one would know the difference. I could see the restraint in his eyes. It was then I knew he didn't love me anymore. I thanked him for my stuff, turned my back and got in my truck. I cried my eyes out. I got my heart broken all over again.