Chapter 15: Giving up

(Lucy's P.O.V, three years ago)

I walked out of a flower shop, holding a bouquet of flowers as I looked at the watch on my arms. It showed "15:42", so it meant the store was closing soon. I giggled quietly and started to walk back home, wanting to surprise my big brother with these flowers. Today was his 12th birthday, and I had seen him so down lately, so I wanted to make him cheer up. Our mother and father was still rarely home, so it was just me and my brother home this week.

"Hope big bro like these!" I smiled gently and started to skip back home, looking around. My body still hurt every now and then, but it was getting better and better which each passing day. I never knew exactly why it hurt so much, all I knew was that big bro told me I fell and hurt myself a lot, and passed out. But it just felt like something else was wrong but I never knew what it was. Mostly because he wouldn't tell me what it was. But as the days went by, I started to see that something else was bothering him. About two months back, his long childhood friend, Robin, had to move to a different country as her parents had gotten a new house and job there, a long way away from others. Lucas was trying to convince them to stay, but when he and I went to the house the next day, it was completely empty and with a sign that said: "To sale". After that day, I hadn't seen him as happy as he normally was, and the childish personality that he and I had, wasn't there anymore. I was really worried about him, but every time I wanted to ask him about it, he just walked away, and disappeared from quite some time.

"I hope he's home, almost there" I said to myself as I could see our house in the distance. The white walls shined as sun shined on the house, the white color almost looking like it glowed. The brown roof made it looked like an old house, which I laughed softly for, knowing that the house was as old as me, which was almost 8 years old. It always wondered me why my mom and dad left me alone so much, even if I was just turning 8. At least I have my kind big bro! I thought to myself as I got to the house and slowly opened the door. The first thing to greet me was a light shining straight towards me, which made me cover my eyes so I didn't get blinded by it. I walked past the light, turning it off and looked around the house. The living room was filled with paintings that seemed like something I would make. It would seem like someone just hit the board with a pen or pencil and started to randomly paint something.

"Hihi, I know I can do better than that!" I said as I laughed and walked over to big bro's room, holding the flowers behind my back. I kicked the door lightly and waited for him to answer. "Big bro it's me! Can I come in?" I stood there by the door and looked at the handle, waiting excitingly for him to open so I could say happy birthday to him. I kicked the door lightly again, as I didn't hear anything from his room, which made me confused. Normally when it was just the two of us, we would spend the day in his room, so not hearing anything from him now was just weird. I stood there and waited again, hoping he would come out or open the door. I looked at my watch and saw that it had already been a couple of mintues since I knocked on his door.

"I'm coming in big bro!" I said as I opened the door slowly, and was met with complete darkness. I found the lightswitch and turned on the light, and saw that the room was a mess. His clothes was spread across the floor, his pillow and sheets were against the wall on the opposite side of where his bed was. I looked around the room, but I couldn't see him at all, but I noticed that it was a small notebook on his desk. I slowly walked to his desk, holding the flowers in one hand and looked at the notebook.

"…Lucas' final moments…h-huh?!" I quickly used my free hand to open the book, and the very first page had the word "Alone" written on it with huge letters, which almost covered the whole page. I widened my eyes and turn it over to the next page, which had the words "No one loves me" written over and over again. I felt a small tear fall down my cheek as I kept looking through the book, seeing more and more pages filled with negative words. Big bro…what's all this about?" I thought to myself as I felt more tears starting to appear in my eyes as I kept flipping through the book. I carefully lifted the book up, wanting to sit somewhere else to read it, but as I picked it up, a small note fell out of the notebook. I put the book away and crouched down and looked at the note, seeing it was my big bro's handwriting.

To whomever who reads this. If you find this, I'm most likely not here anymore, either not in the house or this world anymore. I can't take it anymore, there is nothing left for me here. My closest friend and love left me, and my lil sis doesn't remember things that have happened. I feel so alone. So, I'm writing this, to say my final goodbye's, if you really care, even if I know no one does, you can find me at my usual spot. From, the lonely boy, Lucas.

I quickly stood up, held the flowers close to my chest and ran out of the room and the house. I just couldn't believe it, he was this sad after all that, and I didn't know about any of this. Why wouldn't he tell me…we are family. I thought to myself as I ran to the forest and towards a hill in the area. Whenever Lucas and I was alone at home, we often went out here too, but that was just to watch the stars appear in the sky. But now he had run away, and it was starting to make me more worried as I kept running.

"Big bro! Where are you?!" I shouted, as I felt tears coming down my cheeks, as I had to find him. I looked around the forest, just hoping I could spot him, and in the distance, I could spot a small silhouete leaning over a small cliff. I ran faster up to them, feeling the tears roll down my cheek and as I got closer, I could see the person better. Their back was turned to me, but their dark brown hair was flowing in the wind, their jacket tied around the hip and in their hands I could see something glinting and what looked to be a small piece of paper. I panted and stopped by the tree a small distance behind them, and noticed that in their left hand, was a knife, and in their right hand was a picture.

"W-wait! D-don't!" I screamed and slowly walked towards that person. They turned around and made me stop dead in tracks, as I saw that the person was my big bro, Lucas, with small cuts around his arms and cheeks.

"…what are you doing here Lucy? Leave." He told me as he turned back around and dropped the knife down on the ground and walked closer to the edge. I shook my head and ran up to him and hugged him from behind. I felt him shiver a bit as I did it, but he just stood there. I felt the flowers crumble against my chest as I hugged him tighter, but I didn't think more about those flowers.

"Please no! Don't do it big bro! Don't leave me!" I said to him as a buried my face against his back, letting the tears fall down as I kept crying and holding around him tighter. I could feel his hands trying to move my hands away but I just tightened the grip and shook my head. "You're not alone! You have me!"

"Just stop sis. There is nothing left for me to fight for. Everything I love is gone" He said and I could feel him trying to take another step forward. I cried louder and let go of him real quick, before jumping onto his back, holding around his chest with my arms, and his hip with my legs. I rested my head against his shoulder and looked at him.

"Don't say that! You got me big bro! I will always be here for you!" I said, smiling and moving my hands a bit closer to his face so he could see the flowers. Half of the flowers were ruined because of how much I ran to get to him. "I b-bought this for you! It's you birthday a-after all big bro!" He carefully took the flowers from my hands and looked at them. I looked closely at his face and I could see a small smile appear on his face, looking at the flowers, then he looked at me.

"…you promise to stay with me sis?" He asked me, which I nodded too and buried my face against his neck. "Thank you sis…and thanks for the gift" He carefully moved my hands and legs away, and moved me onto his lap as he set down and gently rubbed my head.

"No problem big bro! I promise I will never hurt you!" I told him as I rested my back and head against his chest and closed my eyes, feeling safe knowing he's safe.

"And I promise I will never hurt you lil sis." He said to me as he kept rubbing my head and we just sat there, watching as the sun slowly went down behind the horizon. I looked at the picture in his hand, and saw it was a picture of me and having, sleeping beside each other in his room, like we always did. I smiled, knowing i just saved my big bro. We will never hurt each other. I thought as i watched the sun go down with him.

(Lucy's P.O.V, present)

Why….why did I not see through that lie…

I know it seems weird having it in Lucy's perspective, but that was the only way i thought i could get out why it was such a big thing for them both. Hope you like this chapter. Until next time

Dark Chara Out!