CHAPTER TWO
Give your heart then change your mind
You're allowed to do it
'Cause God knows it's been done to you
And somehow you got through it
-John Mayer
I wish I felt more guilty about leaving Philip and Penny to meet him. Still, I didn't. The truth was I no longer loved Philip.
Maybe I never did. He came into my life when I was in a vulnerable state.
My younger sister Amy died in a car accident around the time we met. Philip was there to hold me and comfort me no questions asked. On the days I felt like giving up, Philip told me everything would be okay. I needed a distraction and he was there. It was as simple as that.
But why did have to go and marry him? Why did I let myself get so involved? Now I was his wife and stepmom to Penny.
Three years we've been married and I had been happy. I still would be.
If I hadn't met him, I thought pulling into his car port. He changed everything, made me feel things I didn't know I could feel.
Still I knew what I was doing was wrong. Maybe I could end this affair for good today, I told myself as I parked the car in his drive way.
But then I see Shane stepping out of the house. His soft brown eyes burn into mine. I take my seat belt off and rush to his side.
He plants a soft wet kiss on my lips, and I know I couldn't end this relationship if I wanted too.
His arms are wrapped around me now, his body pressing against mine. I can feel the soft denim from his jeans, and his erection brushes against my hip.
"We should go inside," I whisper into his ear.
"Have you told him yet? About us," Shane says looking into my eyes.
"Not yet," I said looking at the ground.
"Andrea, you have to tell him. You can't stay in that marriage. What we have is real. It is right. You can't say it isn't," he says in a low voice, his lips press on mine, before I can argue with him.
"Let's go inside," I said when he slowly pulls his lips away from mine.
"I am going to steal you away from him, the first chance I get," Shane says, his voice burning with sincerity.
"What I am going to do now," I said leaning up to kiss him again.
He says nothing, but takes my hand leading me into the house and then into his bedroom. His brown eyes lock with mine again.
"Andrea," he breathes grabbing my face with both hands, pulling me closer, and forcefully kissing me. I can barely breathe, as he pushes me onto the bed almost ripping my clothes off. We are both need this, I think to myself.
I watch as his hand reaches down for his zipper, freeing his erection.
"I want you," I said looking into those brown eyes.
Shane is now covering me with his flawless body.
He smiles up at me, and his lips find mine again as he slowly enters inside of me.