CHAPTER FOUR

Dinner with Philip and Penny reminded me of the good times.

Seeing her smiling face as she ordered the strawberry cheesecake for dessert. Laughing at Philip's ridiculous jokes.

I knew my feelings for them had not gone away. I still loved them both dearly. But I also wanted Shane.

I was quiet at the restaurant and on the way home. Then as I was getting dressed for bed, Philip decided to question my faithfulness to him again.

"I know you are seeing someone else," he said with no hesitations.

"I am not discussing this again. I told you already I am not having an affair," I snapped at him.

This was the second time he brought it up today. Maybe he did know. But how?

Being a lawyer, I was a pretty good liar. Still Philip had a way of getting under my skin. How how much longer could I deny my affair to him? And to myself?

Could I keep up living a double life for much longer?

I glance up at Philip now and his blue eyes are burning into mine. He is silently begging me to tell him the truth. And I know part of me wants too. I wanted to end this relationship for good.

Somehow I can't find the words to break his heart. I feel so guilty.

"Andrea, I love you. I know something has changed in our relationship. But if I can forgive you. Just don't see him again,"he whispers in my ears.

"Okay," I said finally giving in. He reaches his hand out for mine. And I place my hand in his, as pulls me closer.

"You don't have to tell me the details," he says warmly.

"Thank you. I rather not go into details. It's over now. I am going to end it ," I said regretfully.

This was not the way I imagined telling him. I had never done anything bad to anyone and I knew my affair with Shane was wrong. Still, I couldn't imagine not seeing Shane again.

"Your loyalty is with me now. Right?"

"Ofcourse. The affair was a mistake," I said reassuring him.

How could I keep lying to him? He derserved to know how I was really feeling, but I couldn't do it.

"Good. Because I love you. Noone can love you like I do," he says, his voice is low.

He touches my cheek with the back of his hand, tracing my lips with his finger. He leans down slowly and kisses me.

I feel Philip's powerful hands start running down my body. My heart is pounding as he presses his erection against me. He pulls away for a moment. I watch as he removes his clothes then tosses them on the bedroom floor.

Closing my eyes, I fall back into his embrace again. I feel him planting wet kisses all over my body.

The moment feels surreal. We are having sex for the first time in weeks, but I felt as if I am not present. Like this is something that is happening to me. I close my as he continues to thrust himself inside of me over and over. Finally, he finishes. I turn over in bed, my heart pounding.

He lightly kisses my cheek. I watch as he gets up. I hear running water. He is in the shower, I decided. I reach over to my night stand turning on my cellphone. I see Shane has text message me several times. Pausing for moment, I decide to message him back.