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Geez guys am i horrible or what? I am sooo sorry for the long wait. I was wrapped up in completing all of my assignments before winter break, reading books, reading manga and (shamelessly) going on Tumblr for hours. hehe. But, fear not, a oneshot awaits you below and I have tried to answer every question from your reviews as well!

This one's kind of bitter/sweet but enjoy!

Oneshot 28: Not A Good Fit

by AshAnime

Fuu knew that only pretending to listen to her friend was wrong. Although she could easily predict everything that came flying out of the gushing waitresses' mouth it was still rude to let her mind wander. But, the thing is, she couldn't help it. A part of her was jealous of her friend for still being able to have such a child-like rapture and innocence. If only she could change the past. If only she could gain back the purity that was stolen from her.

"Hey, are you even listening?" Kaori asked suddenly, startling Fuu from her reverie.

"Uh, yea, of course," she lied lamely, getting a not so convinced look from her best friend.

"Sure you were. I was just saying that he said he'd meet us here."

Fuu frowned. "Who?"

She was rewarded with an eye-roll from her dearest friend. "The guy I've been talking about all week! He's sort of a loner and doesn't like to get involved with people, but he seemed like he meant it when he said he'd come."

Fuu pouted and placed her chin back in her hand. "Oh." She really didn't feel like meeting new people today. The warm breeze of summer had awakened many memories this morning… painful memories. And now she was going to have to put on a fake smile for some guy she didn't even know. "What did you say his name was again?"

Kaori smiled broadly. "It's- Oh! There he is! Over here, Mugen!"

Fuu blanched. The whole world seemed to have stopped spinning as she kept her eyes trained on her ecstatic friend. She didn't dare turn around, she didn't even know if she was able to. Every one of her muscles ceased up as she clenched the napkin in her fist.

This wasn't happening.

This couldn't be happening.

"Yo."

It was him. It was most definitely his voice. Fuu knew she probably looked like an idiot, sitting there stiffly with a frozen look of surprise, but she didn't care. He was here. Standing two feet away from her. How could she possibly care about anything else?

Kaori gave her a curios once-over before standing to greet the former pirate. "Fuu this is Mugen. Mugen, this is my friend I was telling you about."

So he knew? He must have, right? She may not have been listening to Kaori's jabbering the entire week but surely he realized that she was the same Fuu he traveled with. The same Fuu he…

"Yeah, I remember," Mugen answered smoothly before taking a seat. Kaori scooted him into the space next to her, placing him right in front of Fuu. Her eyes immediately darted down to the scrunched napkin in her hand. "This place got any good booze?"

Fuu cringed at the sound of Kaori's giggle. "Of course it does! I know how much you love your sake!"

It seemed her friend excepted him for who he was. Crass, tit-loving, booze-drinker and all.

"Hey, are you day dreaming again, Fuu?" Kaori piped up, startling the ashen girl. "I'm so sorry Mugen. It isn't that she doesn't like you, her mind just wanders a lot."

Fuu could here the smirk clear as day in Mugen's voice as he answered. "You don't say?"

She felt like she was going to be sick.

"E-Excuse me!" she blurted, rising abruptly. "I have to use the restroom!"

Kaori laughed nervously and shot her a curious look. "Alright, don't be long."

The world was tilting, but Fuu put one foot in front of the other anyway. Her heart felt like it was going to beat right out of her chest! How could he be so calm and collected? How could he simply act like he was meeting her for the very first time? After everything they went through?

Instead of going towards the restrooms, Fuu made a sharp left and headed through the back entrance of the shop. She stumbled out into the quiet back-street and reached out to grab the wall of the next shop. Whenever her shift was over she usually came out here to think about the year that seemed to be flying by. Now there was no time for stargazing and mulling over the future.

She had the right-here-and-now to worry about.

Fuu steadied herself against the wall to keep from swaying and tried to suppress the stinging in her eyes. What right did he honestly have, strolling back into her life like it was no big deal?

She heaved, her heart beating faster in her fragile chest. This can't be happening she thought, clutching her middle. Bile burned at the back of her throat but none of it would come up. Her forehead was pressed against the sun-baked brick wall when she felt it.

Slight pressure on her back.

"This aint the restroom, girly."

With the speed of a well-trained waitress she whirled and backed up into the warm wall behind her. Fuu's large brown eyes pierced Mugen with an intent to kill as he matched her with a nonchalant gaze. "Don't touch me," she hissed, curling her hands into tight fists. Her nails bit into her skin, sure to leave red crescent moons.

"Tch, Nice to see you too."

Fuu pressed a hand against her stomach and bit her bottom lip. Go away! her thoughts screamed. Why can't I be rid of you?

"You ok? You look like shit," Mugen mumbled, scratching his cheek. Despite the year of absence Fuu still remembered it to be a nervous habit of his. "Oi, I said-"

She slapped his hand away as he reached for her, and was surprised to feel a tight grip around her wrist in return. "I said don't touch me! Let me go, Mugen! Let me-"

"Too fucking skinny," he whispered, looking from her face to the thin wrist in his hands. Never had she ever felt so fragile under his gaze. She swallowed the lump in her throat and finally asked the question that plagued her every day she spent in this new town.

"Why?"

Mugen finally met her somber stare. "Huh?"

"Why did you do that to me?" she whispered, unable to hide the hitch in her voice. "Why did you look me in the eye and say 'We're not a good fit'?"

Mugen frowned and let go of her wrist.

"Why did you say 'I don't want this anymore'?"

The afternoon heat was hot and unwavering on their bare necks.

"Why… Mugen?"

He could hear the hallow emptiness in her words. The dark bags under eyes and sharp edges of her shoulders were painfully noticeable. This wasn't the same Fuu that loved the smell of sunflowers and the taste of good food. The same Fuu he kissed beneath the stars and whispered kinky things to, just so he could see her smile and hear her laugh.

This was a different Fuu. A broken Fuu.

And there was no denying that it was all his fault.

"I was just being honest," Mugen muttered, placing his hands in his pockets. "We're not a good fit, girly. A fucking disaster waiting to happen, really. It was only a matter of-"

"And what gives you the right to decide that all on your own?!" the grief-stricken girl before him blurted. "Did you ever stop to think that my life has been a complete disaster without you?! I tried so hard, so very hard to get over you! I took this job, I-"

"Fuu-"

"I tried to make new friends! I even… there was this guys… he was so nice but I couldn't do it to him. I couldn't make him think that there was a shot of anything happening between us because I just couldn't let go! Let go of you! You, of all people!"

"I'm sorry."

"Every day has been nothing but- Wait… what did you just say?"

Mugen pouted and scratched his ankle with the heel of his shoe. "I aint repeating it so try to remember," he spat, avoiding her searching eyes.

Did Mugen just... apologize?

"There you guys are! I was looking all over for you!" Kaori's bubbly voice exclaimed, shattering the atmosphere. "The kitchen staff made us something on the house and it's getting cold! You like dumplings, right Mugen?!"

Fuu stared at Mugen's cheek, his face still turned away from her.

"Yeah," she whispered. "He does."

*dodges tomatoes and flying boots* Sorry for making this one so depressing! I'm even mad at myself for ending it like this but I didn't want it to be too long. If any of you guys thinks I should make a PART 2 just tell me!

response to answers of previous QOTD: Japan is one of the places I desperately want to visit too! Despite my obvious infatuation with anime and manga I simply find their culture very interesting.

Question of The Day: What Manga are you reading now or have most recently read? Do you read manga at all? (i beasted out on hirunaka no ryuusei and now i'm mad cuz i have to wait for the next chap)

The sloppiest kisses for:

YungHime

HaruKuro

Tanto Storm

VampireAreej

Saelryth-Windstalker

LillianClassic

ThisIsNotPretend: It's very rare that I will even read an AU mutch-less write one. I like everything to be as realistic as possible, although while I was writing this OS it sometimes felt too modern lol.

Brittany: Well darling my ideas come from my head:) I usually get really good ones while i'm taking a shower or walking my dog. (weird I know) Then, so that I don't forget them (can't tell you how many times that's happened), I write them down in a little pink book where I keep all of my other writing ideas, even stuff that isn't fanfic.

sweetserenity13

Ghibli Ninja: Clannad is on my list of anime to watch actually. I'm just sooo afraid to watch it because people say it's even sadder then angel beats. I balled during that so i'll probably drown in a river of my own tears if I watch clannad. But it will happen eventually:)

DiraAllDay10: OMG I LOVE YOU FOR LOVING ME! LOL And I was reading your profile and we have a lot in common:) My favorite number is 4 too!

OrangeBananaRiLen: Glad I helped your stress! (I've always wanted to make manga of my own too!)

thanks sooooooo very very very much you guys!

AshAnime: LISTEN UP FREELOADERS!

Fuu: Did she just-

Mugen: Bitch.

Jin: Hn.

AshAnime: DiraAllDay10 asks... Where would you guys be RIGHT NOW if you didn't have eachother?

Mugen: *smirkes* Screwing hot babes.

Fuu: *glares* MUGEN!... hmmm... I would be running my own tea shop!

Jin: I've always wanted my own dojo.

AshAnime: Yes, yes we know Jin, and I gave you your couple seconds of glory when it came to that one.

Jin: *eyebrow twitches*

AshAnime: Well there you have it DiraAllDay10! AND THANK YOU READERS FOR REVIEWING!

*dont forget the question of the day and answer if you want a part 2 to this oneshot. PEACE.*