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Chapter 42

Summer had already hit Bucharest and she had to go to the nearest Zara to buy a few summer dresses. It was way too hot for jeans and a woman in a sweet flowery dress didn't seem dangerous. It was long enough to cover her thigh holsters and she thanked Tony in her mind for making her Black Widow bracelets look like normal jewelery. No one would think her shiny bracelets had enough volts to bring down a supersoldier.

Tony had send her a text informing her that he and the others were now working with Coulson's SHIELD and tracked down a HYDRA cell in Canada. She didn't think they would find anything there since the HYDRA leader in Amsterdam told her that all cells operated on their own so they wouldn't all go down if one cell was discovered.

It was early afternoon and she bought a ticket to the national museum to check it out and to look for places the list could be hidden. Was it a handwritten list or saved on a USB drive?

The museum was over 8000 square meters big and she should prepare herself to spend maybe a few days here until she would find the list. FRIDAY had already booked her a hotel room so she had a place to stay if she had to be here longer. She spent the day walking around the place and hid herself when the museum closed. She checked a few spaces where something could have been hidden but came up with nothing. She left at dawn to go to her hotel and to get some sleep. She put on another summer dress, armed herself and took the trolley back to the museum. Today she would go to the National Gallery- maybe they had hid the list under a painting. She had an app on her Starkphone that would shut off the alarm system when she moved a painting. She hid again until the place was closed and checked under every painting but found nothing.

Where did HYDRA hide that fucking list? She was now roaming through the museum on her third night and still found nothing. She was on her way to the Medieval Art Gallery when her senses told her that she wasn't alone anymore. Was it the guard that walked every hour through this wing? He had been here only half an hour ago. Maybe he changed his tatic. She was about to hide in a corner to check out who was out there when suddenly someone pressed their body against her and covered her mouth with a hand. She tried to shake them off but they wouldn't move an inch. Fuck, this person was really strong and smelled familiar for some reason.

She blinked a few times and her eyes could finally make out in the dark who was pressing her against the wall. It was Steve. He shook his head and she heard how someone was walking close by. The heavy steps told her it was the guard.

She wanted to scream and to punch him for leaving her alone. For leaving her alone to deal with this fucking mess. For leaving her and breaking her heart. But said heart betrayed her and she melted against his body. They had been only apart for five days but she thought she would never see him again and she missed him so much. The guard was gone but Steve didn't move away from her but he did pull his hand away from her mouth. She wanted to say something, she should kick him in the nuts or put him in a chokehold but she didn't do any of those things. They just stared at each other and when Steve opened his mouth to say something she grab his face and crashed their lips together. She didn't want to hear his excuses right now. It wasn't a soft and gentle kiss, she took her anger out on him and bit his lips and dugged her nails into his scalp. He let her and only pressed closer to her and she could feel him getting hard. It was all so wrong but she wanted him right now so badly. They didn't stop kissing when she unbuckled his jeans or when she wrapped her legs around his waist. Thank god she was wearing one of those ridiculous summer dresses. She reached between them to slid her panties to the side and to guide him into her. He fucked into her hard and fast like he was as desperate as she was and she bit his shoulder to muffle her moans and tugged on his hair violently until he made her climax with a deep and hard thrust. He followed her and only after they came down from their orgasms it hit her what they had done.

What the fuck was wrong with her? She was so fucking mad at him and yet she let him fuck her against a wall in a museum in Romania? She pushed him away from her and straightened her dress over thighs and tried to catch her breath. She was miserable in the last days and at the first sight of him she jumped his bones? They hadn't even talked to each other yet but had sex. Great, Natasha. You are so fucking stupid.

"Nat..." Steve whispered softly but he looked ridiculous stuffing his dick back into his pants.

"Don't" She snarled. She was so mad at him and at herself. What woman lets her ex-boyfriend (cause that's what he was, wasn't he) fuck her after he disappeared on her?

He reached for her but she stepped back and walked around the corner only to smack into someone's chest. A flesh and a metal arm wrapped around her and Bucky whispered into her ear how sorry he was for everything.

Of course he was also here. She didn't think Bucky had every hugged her before. She didn't know what was going on inside her but everything was suddenly too much and she started to cry. She was ashamed for not being able to stop her sobs but Bucky cradled her and rubbed her back in a soothing manner. She heard footsteps and Steve was probably standing behind them. She hated him but oh she loved him so much. She almost laughed at how weird her life was. Captain America fucked her in a museum after breaking her heart and dumping her for his best friend and said best friend who happened to be the Winter Soldier who also shot her twice was now holding her in his arms and letting her wet his shirt with her tears. This never happened to Kathering Heigl in her movies!

"I told him to stay with you." Bucky whispered and her sobs grew louder. Of course he did. Bucky was a nice guy and she considered him a friend.

"Natasha?" That was Steve who sounded shocked and unsure.

She growled and Bucky's hold tightened around her. Steve didn't say anything else and she didn't know how long Bucky held her but her tears finally stopped and she took a step back. "I don't know what came over me."

Bucky gave her a kind smile."It's okay. Those last days must have been hell for you. And then running into Steve and..." Bucky trailed off blushing. Great so he knew what happened between her and Steve against that wall.

"Bucky? Did you do it?"

He shook his head. "No, I swear it!"

She believed him and nodded. Bucky seemed relieved and told her that the got lured out of the Tower and couldn't remember what happened after that but he knew that he didn't leave New York. Someone must have posed as him. That could have been still HYDRA. Maybe they didn't know how to trigger him but their plan was still to blame the Winter Soldier.

"So you're here for the list too?" She asked Bucky.

"Yes. We found a HYDRA member who told us about it. I take it you didn't find it yet?"

"No, this is my third night searching for it." She turned around but Steve wasn't there. Did he leave again? God she hated how much that hurt her.

"He went looking for the list." Bucky explained. Was her panic so transparent?

She chewed on her lip. "Did he...did you talk about me?" She didn't want to hear it but she had to know if he was at least as miserable as she had been.

"He thinks he was keeping you safe that way. Felt obligated to help me because of a promise we made each other decades ago." Bucky grimaced. "You should talk to him about it. But he did miss you. I could see it on his face when he thought I wasn't looking." He gave her a small smile. "If you want me to beat him up for you, just say so."

She had to laugh despite feeling like shit. "Thanks, Bucky. But I want to do that myself."

Bucky grinned and helped her search the wing but they didn't find anything. Where was that fucking list.

Steve was waiting for them at the entrance of the wing and he at least had the decency to look guilty. "Nata-"

She ignored him and turned to Bucky. She didn't want their help, wait that wasn't true she didn't want Steve's help but three people would cover more ground than one. "I take it you're gonna be here again tomorrow night to keep looking?"

Bucky nodded.

"Okay, then til tomorrow." She said to him and wanted to leave but then she turned to Steve. He opened his mouth but she beat him to it and slapped him as hard as she could. Her hand was throbbing in pain but it was worth it. He hurt her so much, she wanted to hurt him too.

He held his cheek in shook but nodded. "I deserved that."

"You're damn right." She answered and turned on her heels and walked away.

She ran to her hotel and jumped right under the shower to wash Steve off of her. She wanted to call Laura to tell her about everything that happened. She and Clint didn't know that Steve left her. She didn't think it would help the cause of the Avengers if Hawkeye killed Captain America with one of his arrows. She tried to ignore how good it had felt to finally have Steve inside her again. She could still feel him, she cursed herself for lusting after him and crawled under the cool blankets. FRIDAY picked a really nice hotel for her with silky and smooth sheets. She checked her phone and Sam had send her a text telling her that they raided the Canadian HYDRA base but found nothing on DC or the Winter Soldier. And Sam asked her if she knew if Bobbi was seeing anyone. She wondered if she should tell Sam that she knew where Steve and Bucky where.

The text message would be something like this:

Too bad that HYDRA raid was a bust. Bobbi has a thing with her ex-husband Hunter. Oh btw, I ran into Steve and Bucky. Yeah, despite being fucking furious with Steve I had sex with him next to a painting of a famous Romanian artist.

She only sent the part about HYDRA and Bobbi. She was already embarrassed enough that Bucky knew that she had spread her legs for Steve ten seconds after she had seen him again despite what he had done to her.

What if Steve wouldn't be there tomorrow? What if he would leave her again? And even if he did show up where would they go from here? Would he and Bucky disappear again after they found the list? Should she go with them to get to the truth? And what about Steve and her? Were they done for good? Did he want her back or was he done with her for good? Did she still want to be with him? Would she always fear that he would leave her again? Could she live like that?

Needless to say that she didn't get much sleep that night with all those thoughts running through her head.

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