"Mauricio Reynolds, do you take James Diamond as your lawfully wedded husband? As rich or poor, in sickness and in health, 'til death do you part?"
Said Brooklyn boy smiled, bright blue-green eyes wet with tears.
"I do." He said, hands clapped politely across his lower stomach.
"And James Diamond, do you take Mauricio Reynolds as your lawfully wedded husband? As rich or poor, in sickness and in health, 'til death do you part?"
Said brunet looked beautiful in his all-white suit and black tie, wide hazel-green eyes glazed over in defeat. He took a deep breath, biting his lower lip as Mau's fingers met his.
"I...I-I do." He looked surprised at his own response, as if someone else had said that for him. A lone tear ran down his face, drank up greedily by the plush, thick carpet below his feet.
"If someone thinks these two should not be wed, speak now or forever hold your peace..."
For a few minutes a heavy silence fell over the audience, the priest about to continue when several horrified gasps cut through the calm like a butcher knife.
James tore his eyes away from his and Mau's entwined hands to see the only person standing in the seated crowd, a hand raised high over his head.
His heart started beating faster, throat suddenly dry.
"K-Kendall?"
"I object, sir. I don't think these two should be wed, because I love James Diamond! I'm in love with him, and I know this isn't the wedding he's dreamed of! I love him, and I'm not about to step back and let him go again!"
Everyone around the dirty blond either glared hotly at him or were listening closely in sick amusement. Mau dropped James's hands and met those wide, wet hazel-green eyes. His tears were pouring down his cheeks now, expression everything but happy now.
"James, que quieres decir por esto? Lo amas a el, o a mi?" He demanded softly, arms now crossed tight over his chest.
James swallowed hard, his tears finally break freeing as well; he looked up to meet Kendall's lively bottle green eyes, a hand over his mouth.
Though his response came out muffled, Kendall was able to hear it and his heart breaking at the same time.
"I'm sorry..."
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Kendall woke up with a start, lively bottle green eyes flying open. His vision was dark and blurry, James's alarm clock flashing the time in big, red bold: 2:14 A.M.
It was early, like way early than what he was use to.
He blinked the tiredness from his eyes and looked over and noticed a tall, brown-haired boy was sleeping only inches across from him, said boy curled up with his back to him. He noticed though that his arms were around his waist, the brunet's hands resting on top of his.
'James.'
Kendall wiggled around until he could look down at James's face, moving one hand to brush away a stray lock of brown hair from the other's closed eyes.
It had all been a dream, a very bad dream.
James and Mau at the alter, saying their vows. With hands shaking and heart racing, Kendall getting to his feet to say, "I object", Mau asking James to speak his mind...only for the brunet to tell his best friend, the guy he really loved (what Kendall hoped, so much, was true) that he couldn't walk away.
He had to marry Mau, for Royce. He was willing to throw his life away to an unhappy marriage for his baby boy, the only reason he'd agreed to the mess in the first place. For Royce he would do anything; having kids meant making sacrifices, putting their needs before your own.
James learned that at a young age, but learned it he did.
Even though it had all been a dream, that didn't stop the off pang that the shorter boy feel go off in his chest.
'If James does end up...marrying Mau, will I be able to accept that?' Kendall thought solemnly, biting his lower lip as he continued, and without being really conscious of it, to rake his hand through the brunet's short mane of silky hair.
Royce wasn't in the room, probably sleeping in Carlos and Logan's for the night. He made a mental note to make it up to the champ later today; the chances he saw his "mother" crying were small, yet it still made the blond feel like dirt having to pull them apart.
James had agreed with him, not wanting Royce to see him in such a broken state, but the bond between a mother and child was strong.
And he felt...bad for being in the way.
'No, stop thinking that Kendall. You're not in the way; James has made it clear that he doesn't want to Marry Mau and that he loves someone else, remember that tidbit? He told you so himself, so helping him find a way to break it to Mau wouldn't make you the bad guy. I mean why is he doing this, trying to push James into something he doesn't want? He's not the guy he wants, so shouldn't he respect that? Wait does he even KNOW James loves someone else, and if he does why is he not dropping it altogether? That will just drive James over the edge, if I knew who he loved then it would be easier to get Mau to back off. James needs to be with someone he loves back...'
There went that off pang again.
Kendall tightened his hold on James, the older boy still out like a light.
Kendall and James have been best friends for a really long time, ever since they first clicked at that kid's (Kendall couldn't remember his name) fifth birthday party. Sure they were different, like on opposite ends of the personality line different, but they worked. They worked well together, have shared their deepest, darkest secrets with each other and balanced each other out. Like Logan kept Carlos grounded, Kendall kept James grounded and sometimes it was the other way around.
James, despite the fact he can easily freak out in a stressful situation, was the person who kept Kendall calm, helped him think. He always wanted to protect the older boy, so having to cook up a plan in two seconds flat was big time important to him any day.
Anything to protect the older, taller boy who behind all that ego and "swag" was in fact a very fragile human being.
Yeah, Kendall had went out with Jo but it was only to try and drown out his true feelings for James. He tried, really he did, to fall for the attractive blonde but he couldn't for two reasons: Jo wasn't James, and she turned out be nothing like the sweet, nice girl he thought she was at first.
She turned out to be a very clingy, whiny and rude girl who hated Kendall's friends and only liked him, at first, because he was going to become famous. In the end his career skyrocketed while hers not so much; that left her VERY bitter.
Of course she claimed she fell for him over time, but the dirty blond, deep down, knew that wasn't really the case. It was obvious through the way she tried to come between him and his best friends.
Jo wasn't James when it came to looks, but in all honesty she wasn't him in anything outside looks either.
He loved James not just for his deep hazel-green eyes, cute laugh and killer smile but also for who he was. Sure he was (keyword there) a bit if a diva but he was also sweet, pretty smart (just hated showing it), funny and a loyal friend. He even helped him out a few times with Jo, and had been there to cure his "heartbreak".
He did get his heart broken by the blonde girl, really he did. He thought that maybe, with everything that's happened and her sometimes difficult-to-deal-with attitude aside, that they could work it all out and be friends. Jo had turned against him though and called him out, saying he was a loser and that BTR would soon crash and burn. From then on the guys avoided her, heck even Lucy and Camille did too! Apparently Jo wasn't fond too of gay people, from how she had trash talked the two girls when they first announced their relationship, so they decided right there they wanted nothing to do with her anymore.
Jo had called Kendall out too, using gay slurs towards him, and Carlos and Logan since they were a couple. At the time James had been single, no one knowing about Royce, so she didn't get to go all Mean Girls wild on his butt. While James was a proud, out of the closet bisexual, apart from Mau (now) he had had no clear dating history. He admitted to going after Lucy only to get Camille to admit her feelings once and for all. As for Lily (Sunblock Girl) and Annie, they were just two more girl friends to hang with.
Kendall had tried to fight his feelings for James, to not risk their friendship, but over time realized he was only falling more for the pretty boy.
And right now there was a big time chance of losing James for good, if his dream becomes reality.
'When I said I'd love Royce as if he was mine...I meant it. I know he isn't and that I can't take Mau's place as his dad but I love him, I love him already and I love James. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to, I mean Royce had been a surprise, but I do love him. Mom says that a real man, if he really does love someone and that someone has kids that he'll love them too. And when I look at Royce...I see James in him. His smile, his laugh, the way he fusses over his hair; I love them both, I love them a lot and part of me wants to take care of them. To take care of them, see Royce grow up and follow whatever dreams he'll have, be that support for him and James. I want to be everything they'll need. The question is, is the guy he loves...me?'
Kendall sighed and looked down at James's face again. The brunet had shifted so he was on his back now, hands tangled with Kendall's still over his toned stomach.
The dirty blond moved the hand carding through the brunet's hair back to its original position, feeling a small spark of awe at picturing that nine months to two years ago James had carried Royce inside him, nurturing him and feeling him grow every second that passed.
The kicks, the sensation of another being depending on you, the bond that formed over time. James had confessed to Kendall that Mau had missed the first kick, the trips to the doctor and watching James's stomach expand as their son grew and grew.
How could a father live with that, the fact that he missed out on the birth of his one and only son?
Kendall would rather die than miss one of the beautiful things about life: a child. The birth of a child, a beautiful little life that you hope one day will reach for the stars. A life that you will try your absolute best to protect, love and teach everything you know to.
How Mau has managed to go through life, so far, knowing he missed out on what Kendall himself hoped to see one day was beyond him.
'I guess it's just wishful thinking right now, still I don't think I'm giving up just yet.' Kendall, sleep soon grabbing hold of him again. He began to pull away to get comfortable again, still completely oblivious to the fact he was in James's bed instead of his own across the room.
When suddenly James's right hand snapped around his left wrist.
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The dirty blond froze halfway back down on the bed, lively green eyes wide as dinner plates.
James's own hazel-green ones were wide awake as well, tears filling them. He pulled free his other hand to gently stroke Kendall's thin, right cheek; his long, warm fingers soon threaded through the shorter boy's dirty blond hair, tugging at it bit as if trying to tell him something.
Kendall was confused for a minute, before something in him finally caught on to what was going on. He responded by cupping James's strong chin with his left hand that he gently pulled free, tilting the taller boy's head slightly upwards.
The two swallowed hard at the same time, eyes locked in a dazed sort of gaze, before they both closed their eyes and had their lips meet in a soft, gentle kiss.
Hey everyone! Just a heads up, I'm back in the states next Thursday so this is the last full week I'll have of internet service. I'm not sure when I'll have access again, probably the 23rd of August when I move back onto my college campus so I hope that everyone enjoys any new updates to current stories and random one shots I might think of. Sorry for the inconvenience but I do hope everyone understands and supports me even then. Thank you once more for the reviews, favs, and follows! It really helps, especially during a tough time I'm experiencing at the moment, hope this chapter's surprise makes everyone excited for more! Thank you again, I'll see you all in the next one! :) Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush! All I own is the plot and the OCs that are Mau and Royce!