Chapter 405
Whe Xander, Willow, and Tara returned to Sunnydale Buffy still hadn't returned. They helped Faith with her patrols, had to pick up the slack until Buffy came back. But Willow and Tara knew they had to address their situation. When Xander kissed Willow, she seemed to enjoy it. Willow loved Tara, but she also felt certain things for Xander. Tara asked Willow about this in private. She feared the answer, but she had to know.
Tara: Are you in love with Xander?
Willow: I don't know. I feel these things for him, but I also feel them for you. I don't know what I am, gay, straight, maybe I'm bisexual. I wish I knew. But what we have is not just some experiment for me.
Tara: Experimentation gets a bad rap. I had feelings of friendship towards guys, and I thought I could be in love with them. I needed to kiss a girl to know for sure. And that's how I knew that I'm gay.
Willow; The first time I kissed you, it felt right, like I belonged with you. But kissing Xander, everything came back. All those feelings I'd felt for him since kindergarden, it felt like I belonged with him. I'm sorry.
Tara: I know he was your childhood sweetheart. He will always have a piece of your heart that I can't touch.
Willow: I don't know what to do. I want to know, but I don't.
Tara: Do what makes you happy. That's all I want for you.
Willow and Tara hugged and quietly cried in each other's arms. Neither wanted this relationship to end, but they feared it couldn't last. Willow didn't want to hurt Tara, or Xander. But it seemed that no matter wat se did, someone was going to get hurt.