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Erica and Boyd have never been my friends and I never trusted them after they went after Lydia, but they didn't deserve nine arrows shot at them. I know that, now. I know they'll never forgive me. I would never expect that.
My dad will forgive me. I think Scott will, too.
They were right in front of me this entire time, and it was Gerard that I followed. I made my decision in grief and that was a mistake.
I don't know when I'll reach out to Scott. He said he can wait for me, and I'm starting to believe it. I need to avoid contacting him for a while, but I know if I ever need to talk to him, he'll answer. He might even come to France, even if I tell him not to.
For now, I need to focus on my dad, because that's one relationship that I know I can save. He lost his sister and then his wife. He's basically lost his father. He's grieving, too. He won't lose me. Getting away from California was a good idea. We used to be a normal family. That's not possible anymore, but we can still act like a normal daughter and father. I want to try for my dad. He deserves it.