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A vampires forbidden love ch.10
Usagi POV
I put my fingers to his lips and hoped to hell that I could keep up my strength to say no even though every fiber of me wanted to say yes and please, "Mamoru…I…" but he brushed my fingers away and kissed me. my hand cradling my head to the perfect angle for it. It wasn't hard, nor demanding but passionate. It made me burn hotter for him. The arousal that was starting to form was burning hotter and making me twitch near uncomfortably.
My body wanted to react so much more so than I was as I was inches away from letting things happen. My mind essentially jumped head first into a fog bank till I felt the necessary urge to breath. Tilting my chin up he trailed kisses down my chin to my neck before I heard a moan. My moan. It was one of suppressed desire and need for him. My heart started to pound that much harder and faster than before.
If I didn't stop this now it would be over with and I would be in his bed, riding him into the next new moon. This was getting far to out of hand. I had to act before I lost control and made hard love to him on the couch. So I used the remnants of my control and pushed him back away and found his expression of confusion to be saddening for me, "You have no idea how much I want this but - " this time he cut me off.
"Don't stop this Usagi…" he looked at me with desperation. Like being here with me meant something deeply to him. "If you do, do it because you don't feel the same way I do towards you or because you love another but don't stop it unless it is for those reasons." Tears were prickling at my eyes as he held me closer to his form. His warmth so comforting and inviting. My body dying to take him - to take us both to great pleasure.
"Damon will kill you…" he knew I loved no other. He certainly knew I held no fondness towards that dick bag and he knew I felt the same sparking way towards him. To deny it would be to lie and something told me he wouldn't believe me regardless of what I said or how I presented the lie. Besides I felt like he'd see right through me. He smiled at me with something I couldn't identify.
"Usagi…" he kissed me once more, so sweetly to… "I'd rather die tomorrow having felt this deeply for someone so incredibly special and to know your feelings in the same manner than to live a thousand years without ever having met you." It was so beautiful that I couldn't help but let a tear fall. My thinly made control was evaporating all to quickly. Images of Damon killing him left me and I tried to grab onto them to remember why I shouldn't do this.
"I don't care if he comes after me." his words gained me back a little of the images till I heard his next words, "He will make an attempt at me regardless of what happens with us or the war. He's made that clear with me, so why not let us have these moments together? Let us have this. Let us have each other. The way it was meant to be." He kissed me again and this time I didn't fight it. How could I when he was right.
Instead I let my hands and his hands roam each-others bodies and for once there was no feelings of repulsion. The very thing I had to ignore for at those years with Damon and I received none of that disgust now. My body was hungry and eager for Mamoru and suddenly I felt that urge become undeniable. He pulled me into his lap and I didn't resist as he pulled my ¾ length sweater off and revealed only my tiny tight little tank top.
It didn't leave much to the imagination especially as his hands traveled up and under the shirt and found my bra beneath it. My breath hitched and I felt those butterflies in my stomach that I recalled hearing girls talk about in their youth but never experienced before myself. Not even with the scientist all those decades ago. I finally felt that true smile reach across my face. The one you try to hide so that no one sees who you really are and finds you weak for it. For a moment I nearly shied away but Mamoru pulled my face back.
"Don't hide who you are from me. You are the most kick ass, smartest, amazing woman I have ever met and nothing will change my opinion of you…not even seeing you for you…I want that." He said as he kissed me again. "The things I've had to do over the years…" I tried to in a last attempt get him to see reason, "If you knew who I was you could never really want me…" if only he knew everything.
"I could say the same…" I looked to him, "We both have pasts, it's part of life. Usagi…its okay…you're always going to be amazing to me." I don't get it… "How can you be so sweet to me? How can you hold feelings for someone like me? I'm damaged goods." Now I felt truly vulnerable. The teachings my parents taught me all those years ago came back. Where a woman's virtue was her net worth so to speak. Mine was taken so long ago…I was considered damaged goods.
Mamoru if anything pulled me in to kiss me harder than before. With more passion than I thought possible. "If you ever talk like that again I'll…" I arched a brow at whatever threat he could come up with, "I'll…spank your ass." His hand actually reached back and slapped my ass causing me to laugh and find the contact pleasant for once. The laughter though was something that I couldn't help so I stated, "That might encourage more."
He smirked before pulling me into his lap and spoke in lower tones, "I want to be with you Usagi…Serenity…" I was stunned he acknowledged my past name but it also made me smile to as it was his way of saying he wanted all of me. The good, the bad and the ugly truth of me. "I think I love you…" I stated in an astonished whisper. Then blushed brightly as I realized I had confessed my feelings.
I hadn't even had the guts to do that to the scientist. But those were also different times. The expression on his face was that of happiness and joy at what would be coming next. I couldn't help but share in his feelings. There was something about this that would change us both forever and I couldn't think of a single reason not to revel in it. He smiled, "Good…cause I feel the same way." My smile widened as he encompassed me in a kiss more deeply than before. His arms wrapped tightly around me.
I relaxed in his hold and felt that rush of excitement that I barely recognized as lust enter me as he pulled the tank top over my head. I let it go as I grabbed at his shirt and flung it over his head and somewhere near the couch. Smiling he trailed kisses once more down my throat and this time kissed the tops of my breasts as his one hand snaked around back undoing my bra in mere seconds. I shucked it the rest of the way off as a nipple entered his mouth.
All these sensations felt so real and freeing. I took a sharp inhale and grasped his head closer to me to avoid letting him loose anytime soon. Anything I'd ever had with Damon fell to the sidelines like mere tap water compared to the refreshing fitness drink I now had. I was gulping it down like a woman in a desert to. He stood up with me wrapped around him and walked to the bedroom that seemed to take forever to get to.
I didn't protest only let out encouraging sounds as he laid us both down on the soft bed spread below. The comforter felt welcoming as our weight came down on top of it despite the condition of the bed it didn't bother either of us as we sunk in and relaxed. I could feel so much tension leaving me it was a wonder I didn't turn to jelly. My whole body arched up at the feeling of his hands on me.
He trailed kissed down to my breasts and lavished them with attention that had me ready to come right then and there. I was stunned yet not so stunned that I was reacting like this. After all he wasn't my first sexual partner but considering Damon's idea of sex it wasn't so shocking. Part of me had wondered on comparison between he and Damon but Damon never lavished me with exceptional attention like this so I literally had nothing to compare this to.
I suddenly felt a bit like a fish out of water. I had never been made love to nor had I made love to anyone. With Damon it was meaningless sex that ultimately gave Damon what he wanted. This was in all honesty a whole new experience for me. My body was sure as hell reacting like it was that is. I felt myself pooling in my panties. That is until Mamoru unbuttoned and gently pulled down my dark jeans.
I shot my eyes down to find him watching me carefully. It had been a natural reaction as he was doing it with caring ease rather than simply grabbing and ripping. As if he were looking for any signs of distress or fear on my half. Something that made me feel more comfortable than ever before. I really could be myself and NOT overthink it or worry for once than what I was doing would earn displeasure from him.
Instead of letting that take over I decided to let the feelings take over my being and lifted my hips to help get my jeans off. My still wet panties stayed on through sheer will power elsewise I don't know how. For a moment I couldn't help but giggle, yes giggle, as he forgot I was still wearing my boots from before. He unzipped them before giving a good tug to both. They fell to the floor with loud thuds as he pulled the jeans from my legs.
My socks came off shortly after in one tug apiece before he looked up and gained a smile from me. He came forward and pulled my panties off to. I was still a bit embarrassed that he had my wet panties in his hands till he put them to his face and sniffed them. I could literally feel myself getting wetter before he put the panties in his back pocket of his own pants that were for some reason still on.
"Off." I ordered. Pointing to his pants. He got up and in this hypnotizing manner unbuttoned and took off his jeans. He shucked them off and was back on the bed now naked himself in an instant. I was completely naked before him and unlike being under Damon's scrutiny for my body Mamoru looked at me with lust, longing, want and love. I could see his attraction for me and it honestly made me feel better and at ease.
I reached out for him and he gently pushed my back to the bed, "Not yet…I want to taste you first." That confused me and he could clearly see that. So instead of explaining anything he backed up and spread my legs wide and bent his head down between them. I was honestly confused. Damon had sure as hell never done this and it's not like I was seeking ways to know how a woman's get pleasured being that I was a 'cleaner'.
It wasn't high on my priority list of things to do. So this was a completely new especially as he lavished my heat with sucking. His lips gently pulling in my lower lips to his mouth and slowly but periodically pulling on them releasing a wave of shocking pleasure. I gripped the bed spread in my fists not having expected this. "Mamo…" I gasped as his tongue drove in as deeply as possible into my heated core.
My hands instantly went to his head, unsure if I should keep him there for the intense pleasure or push him aware from the sensations I couldn't control. My legs were beginning to shake and I didn't know how to handle this. Like I said fish out of water here. His fingers slipping in and pumping in and out of me. Making me slicker with ease. I started to moan as the sensations were building up higher and higher. I griped his head harder, his hair between my fingers as I held him in place now. Needing to feel him as he sucked my clit into his mouth.
I let out a shocked shout of pleasure as I felt myself begin to fall over that brink of no return. My breathing was becoming labored and my body was ready to burst from the pleasure. I could see him down there working his tongue and fingers over me and in me as I panted faster and faster till I got louder. Just repeating his name cause I didn't have the presence of mind to say anything else. I couldn't think only breath and feel.
My hands only abandon his head when I came. Gripping the bedspread again as I came. I hadn't wanted his hair to get ripped out form my grip on it as that's how powerful this feeling was. My orgasm crashed through me quicker than I thought possible. My muscles losing their tension from before as I fell over the edge and into a beautiful blind ending that I knew could only come from him.
I had this euphoric expression on my face I just knew it. My body had never felt anything like that before. My whole being was numbed so wonderfully that I giggled a little to myself. Then realized with shock that he was moving over me yet again only this time I felt something large and hard was pressed now intimately against me. something that I knew the relative knowledge of thanks to Damon but hadn't ever felt it that BIG before. I was actually wondering if I could accommodate him.
He saw my shock and I noticed that he couldn't help that tiny manly smirk at my reaction to his size. "Don't worry it'll fit." He joked a bit. I was honestly stunned that I had been given all that pleasure and not once did he actually have sex with me. I had to admit I was stunned by everything so far. "If you think that what I just did was the end you're in for a severe awakening cause I'm not done pleasing you yet." He said.
I looked at him and found him to be gently pushing himself inside of me. My walls began to stretch after several months of thankful inactivity. Yet now it was like they were welcoming home what was wanted and for once wasn't naturally trying to evict a dick. Pun intended. I had to admit he was not just larger but longer. I gripped into him, digging my nails as he filled me up to the brim.
His growl of trying to remain in control as I clenched around him excited me. I became accustom to his length inside of me and now I wanted to feel him as he was feeling me. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he began to gently pump his hard cock into my depths. "Oh kami!" I uttered as he began to move in more deeply. I gripped on tighter as the sensations I thought he had previously given me were amazing. That was only a fragment of what I was beginning to feel now. "Oh my…" was all I could get out.
I had never felt anything so intense nor heart pounding before. I had been in multiple battles and had slept with Damon for an extended amount of time yet I never once felt my heart rate beat as fast as it was now. Like my whole being was center around him and I didn't care. He became my world and I knew I became his. The way he looked at me, like I was a treasure to behold or the way he touched me like I was something precious to him but not in a property possessive way but in a respectful loving way.
It melted me even further and made me want to stretch out like a cat beneath his ministrations as he continued to pump himself into me. It was slow and sweet. As if he was trying hard not to go to hard or too fast and end up ending the moment too soon. I understood but I also knew our hormones would only grant us so much will power. As it was his continuous movements were making me want more from him.
I clenched my muscles around him and earned a growl in the process. His form rigid above me as if trying to keep in absolute control and it was beautiful as it was frustrating. I wanted to feel every aspect of him and for him to feel that from me to. I tried to stay at the gentle pace we were at but I couldn't stop myself from acting out. I flipped us both over with a need new to myself as I began to impale myself on him at a slightly faster rate.
I could hear his grunts of pleasure even as his hands tightened on my hips. I was sure he was trying to avoid leaving marks but I knew that would be inevitable. He urged me onward even as he gave short and deeply controlled thrusts. I looked down and found him to be trying to watch me above him as I rode him. "Usa…" he got out before I slammed down and clenched hard around his cock.
His head slammed back into the bed. Barely missed the head board behind him as his head smashed with a less than subtle thud against the pillow. His fingers dug in deeper as he said, "Fuck! Usa…" he bite his lip again as he tried to stave off from coming to soon. I wanted so much to make this last but we were inevitably coming to the conclusion of this. Or at least for this round.
His movements made me want to ride him harder and faster than before, made me want to grind into him as I was doing right now. Gaining a guttural growl from him that caused a feral growl of my own to surface. I hadn't ever felt this way before and I just knew I never would again. I looked down at him as he held my hips close to his as he thrust up hitting this spot inside of me that made me mewl like a cat in heat.
I wanted this to last as long as possible but I knew it couldn't. It was just too damned good to give up. I felt freed somehow and I know it didn't make much sense but I did. I bounced on him till I felt that pressure building again, more intense this time as he began to thrust harder and faster than before. I couldn't help but feel wanton in my actions as I leaned back and let my breasts be in full display before his eyes.
I had never made love before and this so far was incredible. Then it hit me. Even if Damon had been a good lover it wouldn't have been anything like this cause there was no love. I could see the love coming from Mamoru. I could feel his emotions as clearly as my own. His actions and movements confirmed it with how he was thrusting up into me yet not too harshly. Even as I wanted it to be faster and harder I also wanted it to last and I felt him wanting the same thing yet our bodies were quickly coming towards that edge.
So when he flipped us both over and around where he was back on top I looked at him shocked before he began to thrust in again. I couldn't even fathom the thought to stop him or to flip back over as he thrust in even harder and faster than I thought was possible for a human. I breathed harder and faster feeling the signs of another orgasm approaching. I clutched at him leaving nail marks in his back and shoulders as he pushed himself into me harder and more deeply than before. I whimpered in need of more.
As if understanding the tiny little noises already he picked up the pace as I felt myself tighten around him again. I could damn near hear the blood pumping in his veins. His heart pounding against his chest as he made love to me. I felt my whole body light up on fire at the sensations he feed me. He reached down and lifted my leg bent at the knee up and over his shoulder making him sink in even deeper than I thought was possible.
NOONE had ever been that deep before…ever. I let out a choked gasp of pleasure that gain decibels the closer I got to coming. I could feel everything tighten on me even as I saw his own face become lost in the pleasure to. His own body that was beginning to give out from the pleasure provided. "Usa!" he growled out as I felt him reach between us and tease my lips below with his fingers.
My head shot back and the orgasm came crashing through me. Like a tidal wave of absolute bliss that could never be felt by anyone else ever again. I would only ever feel this from him. I couldn't help but eye his neck briefly entertaining the idea before shoving it away. That was a decision for him to make not mine. If he wanted to be a human till it was his time to go I would respect that. I wouldn't fault him for it even if I would forever wish to have him by my side for eternity…if we lived that long.
So when he said something I missed it, "Usa…" I focused on him, "Its okay…" he must have noticed me noticing him. "I…" he leaned down as he kept up the pace though a tinge slower now as he said right against the shell of my ear, "I want to be with you…Usagi…Usako…for as long as you'll have me." His words brought tears to my eyes, "You don't know what comes with being a vampire." I tried to warn.
He simply smiled and said, "As long as you're by my side I can handle anything." It must have been the sweetness in the moment otherwise I didn't know what possessed me to pull him down and let my fangs out as I gently sank my teeth into his neck. I barely even heard a grunt of pain as I felt him actually increase the pace within me. I used my own fangs to bite into my wrist to allow him to take that minute sip of blood.
It was a bold move but it was ours. He took the sip and licked his lips before smiling at me. His pace grew out of control by human standards as his hips began ramming into me so hard that you'd almost think he was a vampire already and not in the transition. So when I could feel my third orgasm crashed into me out of nowhere I flung my head back into the pillow as I saw him do earlier when he came. Now I knew that intense feeling of ecstasy as he was giving it to me right now without any limitations for my body.
"Oh Mamo…" I could barely get words out as my back was still bowing from the force of the orgasm he delivered my body. His own hips were jerking themselves into me as he began such a hammering pace I was starting to question who was vampire and who wasn't. I held on tightly to him as I could feel myself coming crashing back down to earth. My whole body felt like goo and I had never been happier. I couldn't fathom thought processing as I was sitting on the most pleasure filled cloud and I didn't have the care nor the will power to leave.
I felt the heat of his own release as he spilled into me. it was like a huge sensory overload I was going to be experiencing tonight. His roar of ecstasy was only trumped by my cry of pleasure as I came once more from just feeling him cum inside of me. The heat blazing through areas that felt like they'd never been touched. My one leg locked around his waist as the other was still over his shoulder.
The hell had to have been hitting him on each bounce but it was like it didn't bother him one bit as he kept going until every last drop of him was in me. We came together in blissful harmony and I couldn't have dreamed of a better moment in time. He fell on top of me in an exhausted state before saying, "I think my brain melted." I smiled in humor but was to tired to even give a chuckle so I simply kissed him lightly.
He gave me simple little kisses along my neck as he even kissed but didn't bite at my throat as he simply ran his tongue over the skin there. Part of me wondered if he'd give me a hickie but didn't dwell on it as my own brain was feeling melted. "Before I'm too tired to think straight…" I was still trying to catch my breath as he spoke. Both of us breathing heavily as if we just got out of a huge battle but I guess when you have spectacular love making its easy to lose track of one's self.
"He has no idea what the hell he had…fucking prick...he never deserved you and he never will cause you are simply perfect." I didn't have the heart to tell him I was FAR from perfect as I held his head in my hands. I held onto him as we were for the duration of the afterglow. When he and I were decidedly moving again once he pulled out I laid him on his back and snapped his neck. I hated the sound it made, hate that it was part of the process but it was his decision and one that I had no control over.
I curled into his side for the night and pulled the blankets up over us as I drifted off to sleep. I knew it was a risk but there were other vampires outside as cover to so I knew nothing excessive could happen before sun up. I had to admit as well that this was the first time ever that after sex I had this happy content feeling of happiness and a rush of euphoric love that I knew came from him. "Mamo – chan…" I murmured as I fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning to Mamoru shifting in his sleep. Using my own abilities I blurred to the kitchen to get a glass of water and into the bathroom cabinet for headache relief before setting it down on his side of the bed. He woke up the moment I sat back on the bed still nude as he looked around the room. Like he was trying to recall what happened last night. Like he woke up from a drunken slumber. I remember vividly how it was so when he went for the water and medicine I watched him very carefully.
When he merely moaned out at first it made me wonder how the transition went. I had never turned anyone before. What if it was a big mistake? What if he was going to be like Diamond and his bloodlust would overpower him? Suddenly I felt like I made a huge mistake in turning him. How could I have done so knowing that it could turn out with him becoming like him all those years ago.
I tried to avoid flipping out till I knew for sure but being that I just realized the possible stupidity of giving into his wishes and turning him may have signed his death certificate to the point where I would have to kill him now and face the truth that I wasn't meant to be happy with someone wonderful like Mamoru. That he was doomed the moment we met and that the man I have fallen for was now someone I'd have to kill…that alone would destroy me but to also face the wrath of Damon and his father for letting it happen was hitting me hard.
I had to force the tears down so that he wouldn't freak out upon seeing me looking like I killed someone I loved. "Mamoru…?" I questioned, I hesitated in even touching him till he held out a hand, "Hang on I just feel like crap right now. Did you get the blinding head ache pains?" he asked, "Hai…I did. It lasted for a little while. What works best, at least for me was hot tea with enough blood in it to quell the headaches till they were gone." I explained.
"Yeah…this honestly feels like the worst hangover in the history of – never mind I take that back." He looked back at me and said, "Warm authentic Japanese sake." That sentence alone made him look ready to retch on the bed. "That was the worst hangover in history. Oh I think I had to take off work for three days after that one." I couldn't help but laugh. My giggles had him giving me an annoyed expression before he jumped me.
Pinned me down and began to tickle me. I giggled and asked, "I thought you had a headache?" he smirked, "I do but its not so bad that I can't get even with you for laughing. That was a bad fucking hangover." But the way he said it had me cackling in laughter now. How is it two minutes ago I was dreading the results of last night and now I'm giggling like a school girl?! I listened as he continued, "Damn that one was so bad the next day, as I was at a friends for the night it was just that bad…" I nodded.
"I went for a bowl of cereal something simple and easy to make and didn't realize until after the second bowl that it was dog chow." I howled in laughter. In a way that I hadn't laughed in what felt like eons. "How does that even happen?" I felt tears pricking at my eyes as I asked him this as he decidedly settled himself half on top of me, "It's called drinking half the bar…haven't done that since then." He mustered before rolling over and drinking the water and taking the pills in one swallow.
"Here…" I held out my wrist, "Just drink a little to help ease back the headache cause those won't cure it." He looked hesitant at it, "Just a little bit it won't do anything to me." I promised. I could tell he didn't like the idea but conceded as he needed to function and those pills would only take the edge off. For this headache he needed more than the edge off. "What happens now?" he asked.
Truth was I didn't know what happened next. Other than… "We need to keep this from Damon and I'll send Rei out to the Lycan's for the next few weeks while I watch over you." I guess it came out sounding more untrusting than I realized as he looked confused and an almost hurt. "I just meant that since your new to being a vampire now I can teach you things you should learn about yourself now." I explained.
It was true just not the full truth. It was lingering in the back of my mind of the potential and I needed to be by his side to make sure we didn't have another Diamond on our hands. "Usako…" I looked over at him and saw a resolute expression on his face, "I know you worry considering not every transformation is successful…" I felt like a heel now. Of course he knew and here I was treating it like he had no clue.
"Gomen…I just…" he put his fingers to my lips. "As long as I'm with you and you're by my side I know that the bloodlust will be manageable." As if to prove his point he took my proffered wrist and kissed the skin there before touching my face and with a look alone asked to drink straight from the tap. Somehow I just knew I could trust him and wouldn't ever even think about questioning him.
Is this what love did? Made you have such utmost faith in someone you let them do things you wouldn't let anyone else do…normally? "I'm not Diamond…I'm Mamoru…" he said in a way of reminding me and in a way of expressing that my worries were unfound but that he understood why I held my previous reservations. He'd right he wasn't and while its not a hundred percent fool proof the control he's been showing so far has me feeling more confident and assured in what he can do.
Putting my trust and faith in this man that I had and let's be frank fallen in love with and I couldn't find it in me to say no to him possibly ever again. I allowed him to pull my head to the side as he let the vampire within come out only enough to elongate his fangs and bite in my tender flesh. I merely winced from the punctures made as he took a few small gulps of blood and released my neck with ease.
I saw his eyes turning and wanting more but then I saw the reign of control he enforced and made the fangs go back. Something that made me look at him with new respect. Perhaps he wasn't going to end up like Diamond after all. I almost felt a sense of renewed hope. My earlier fears not completely quelled but not as they once were. I had to admit that was some control he had. "How do you feel now?" I asked.
He breathed in deeply before responding, "Better…" his hand reached out and held mine to him as if I were giving him strength now. It felt intimate in a new way I had yet to experience before him. "Everything feels so heightened." He noted. I signed in remembrance of my first time becoming a vampire… "Feels like you're world's in color all of a sudden." He looked at me, "Like your world was black and white before and now you get to see the colors of it." He nodded in agreement.
I looked out the window, "Renewed eyes and a new perspective…it can be exhilarating as it can be frightening when its within your first few months. Things are so new yet still the same. It can almost be like a sensory overload is taking place and you aren't sure what to do with it." I explained. "Yeah…how was yours?" he asked. "After things settled." He amended recalling the time frame after my families demise.
"I threw my efforts into training. All of my energy went into it. I became so focused I had to be pulled away by Damon to complete my obligations to him." I looked away at that. He reached over and pulled my chin over to face him, "Its okay…I get what type of situation you were in but your also not in that anymore." I looked to him, "What do you mean?" I asked, bewildered now, "Isn't your deal with him rendered null and void now?" I had to think on that.
It was technically yet I continued to do so as I hadn't thought about it like that. I spent so long obeying his every command on and off the battlefield that I hardly had time to blink let alone think past it. "I guess it is…but he won't see it that way." I knew that much for a fact, "Damon sees it how he wants to. He wouldn't let any of us go unless it was through death." I muttered irritated. "Usako…" I glanced over at him.
Mamoru POV
How do I explain to her that she's free to do as she chooses as the deal she had made is technically no IS voided out and that it was voided when her family died? Damon was smart I'll give him that. He never even gave her a chance to breathe alone or think alone without his influence over her. He molded her to how he wanted her to be so she'd never question him or his orders and yet she still somehow retained who she was as a person.
However, she became so caught up in the war over time and whatever travels she went through, the fights won and lost and in protecting others that either got caught up in the war or simply fought by her side that she never had a chance to devil into how she could refute him. Let alone if he would let her I had a sickening feeling that once she figured it out that if she did he would have kicked her out and she'd have nothing as she explained before.
Usako didn't have anything to her name and he knew it. He took advantage of her for so long and because he and the coven were all she knew she stayed. It was almost like a case of Stockholm syndrome. Only in her case she knew what was going on but made a deal to save her family. If she could have she would have run away a long time ago and I doubt we would have met…though you never know.
As it is no one can predict the future and as it stands I don't think she would have moved to far from where she lived as a human. She'd have wanted to stay connected to her family. Just like I did by staying in Japan. I could have run away to the states but I choose to stay here and do good by others so that I could possibly keep a child from going through the same trauma she and I both went through even if it was on different levels.
Even though she explained that he required her consent I wondered how true that would still ring if she rejected him or told him to fuck off so she could be with me. He was still a stronger and faster vampire than she was. He could kill her if he wanted to. Though I doubt he'd have the balls to do it. First off somewhere deep down inside I believe he did hold a love for her. He was just to much of a selfish prick to ever acknowledge it or accept it.
Secondly I truly believe his father would do some serious damage to him if he ever came close to killing her or did kill her. His father held something of a father affection towards her. So when it came to her Damon had to hold back or face his father and something told me hell would have to freeze over before he defied his father and caused her harm to that degree. He wouldn't chance ruining his seat on the counsel.
His father knew she had worked hard all her life and for the lifetimes of many others as well, so now she was presented with the option of not having to be with Damon it was like showing her the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow…she was thrown by it. I don't think she ever considered being able to be rid of him or being able to be happy. It was a whole new exciting and scary feeling and she was going through it now.
Then out of nowhere she smiled, "Since were doing this I will refute him and see what he says. I wish I had thought of this earlier but no use in crying over it now…" I understood that, "We just still have to keep it away from Damon that you're turned. If he does go after you it will be an advantage to have." I had to smile as she was thinking of every tactical thing to keep me safe even now that I was just like her.
"Nani?" she asked. I leaned over and kissed her, "Nothing, your just…" I looked over her features, committing them to memory just to be safe but otherwise because I knew I was in love and I didn't care. "I know you'll disagree with me but…" she covered my lips with her fingers, "Don't say perfect. I'm far from it." She corrected. I chuckled, "You're an incredible and extraordinary woman. All I know is with you I look into the morning rays of dawn with new found hope and happiness. Nothing can take that from me."
She began to cry a little, "Nothing can take this from us…" she agreed as she grasped onto my hand, "We still have to keep this from him. I honestly don't see adding drama to this war issue as being something needed. We keep it close to the vest." She put her other hand to her heart to indicate what she meant. "If you get the okay to come live at the estate I'll arrange for extra guards on duty." I understood what she meant.
She didn't trust Damon not to make an attempt with me on his turf. "Even with everything going on?" I asked her, "I just don't trust him but I do trust his father. He's a reasonable elder. He'll keep you safe till the war is over with." She just couldn't guarantee afterwards, "I'm going to talk to him…see if I can get him to prevent Damon from ever coming after you." It would have to be a private conversation to do that without Damon having a bitch fit. "Don't worry…besides we do have more pressing things to be concerned with." I explained.
She agreed. We still had a war to get through and a source to find. Once we could figure out who 'cock sucker' was we could get closer and possibly find out where they were running their operations from. If that was the case the vampires could take the fight to them and end it. Then afterwards Usako and I could…we could be together and hopefully without another 'cock sucker' to be a 'cock blocker'. I smirked on that as I pulled her to me. We laid in bed for a while and enjoyed just basking in the afterglow.