SerenityMorrison: yeah I had planned to have him in there for a while now. There's a little story in there…and yes Diamond's back! Lol and here's the next chapter.
MoonMama89: Diamond is going to be an interesting character to get into for a little bit before the big show starts up. And you haven't seen anything yet for unraveling. Lol
SerenityxEndymion: she's going to be coming into her own about Diamond and things she didn't know about him. Yeah I wanted some type of connection there and for some reason I liked the idea of there being an interest that never really happened so this was is for me. and no its not mean. Lol and there's more humor coming in between the two. And yes it was a pun. He was just being a cocky dick and had to throw something in there.
jessielee14; not just extra but a plan I set in motion in the very beginning. Diamond was always gonna come back and have a field day. I do have favorite authors and stories but to pick one is to difficult.
OrientalDanceGirl: you never know…and they are similar but also both very different. Rei would delude herself based on her own thoughts and barely there things, Damon has this illusion created out of two hundred years of screwing with and screwing Usagi period that he feels he's entitled. At least for this fic he is.
5 reviews that's nice, now were getting to the ending of it here. This is when things go into the final fight. That might span a few chapters in itself. I hope you all are ready for this also as I'm going to NY to get my sister back for my two off days this week, I might not be able to post on Sunday but I still want to try so if I don't this is why but if I am yey!
I will definitely be posting the following and going forward and the next story will be out a month after this last chapter is out. Please read and review! I love knowing what you all think of this!
A vampires forbidden love ch.18
Mamoru POV
I couldn't believe Damon and I were in the same boat for once/ I was still wrapping my head around it. The moment Diamond returned he was like gum on the bottom of one's shoe that wouldn't come off and he was currently on my girlfriends, sorry my mates shoe. Everyone save for Usagi, myself, the elder and Damon himself stayed away from him. Which wasn't to hard considering the size of the estate and it was understandable to.
His actions had become the thing of legend around here especially for those that had been there at that time and people were weary of him and of his actions especially since he hated vampires with a passion. He glared and stuck his nose up to nearly everyone here but Usagi whom had the fun time of deal with his pompous actions. He looked better than before. I would give him that as credit. He no longer full on zombie like or like the crypt keeper but still very emaciated in his face and hands.
You could tell he needed more blood and in my opinion a lot but he was being kept on a leash with that one. And for good reason to. I didn't honestly trust him if he were to be let loose off of his leash…so to speak. At least he was becoming more and more focused on the new creations of this time and wasn't trying to actually feed off of other vampires here…not yet anyways. I just didn't trust him.
Everything was a marvel to him and he was trying to adjust to the best of his ability but it seemed this world was a heavy thing to take in. I could never imagine being turned, killing a whole village, my betrothed's family, being rightfully imprisoned then released two hundred years later to a whole new world…literally. I gave him his props for not freaking out on everyone or having a spaz attack but I think that was also due to Usagi's present and he clung to it like the tail on a dog.
He was currently down in the basement with us but over in the gym area with her now learning more combative moves that he could use to advance his own bloodlust skills. Usagi wanted to make sure that he could help him use it to tear down at the enemies at an alarming rate. She told me that after reading about the battle of Thermopylae that if they made the battle look so damned bad that the other side lost their taste for war it would make them retreat. She was making the attempt with Diamond to accomplish that.
At least he was better than when he first got here. He'd been shoved gently in a shower in where he had to figure out the mechanics of that. Understand modern clothing as seeing him in jeans, boots and a sweater from Damon's clothing, swiped of course as Damon wouldn't give him anything, was weird for everyone around. Something told me he looked better in his period clothing but that wouldn't be happening. His hair was still shaggy but he refused to let another besides Usagi near him as she trimmed what she could and left the rest.
It was still long but held back now in a band. At least it didn't look like it had oil in it anymore. Her shampoo and conditioner doing the trick for that. He still seemed to have an issue with her clothes but accepted that the modern women looked a lot different than the clothing of women from their old time. He wasn't liking the changes and then he nearly freaked out when Usagi had to answer her cell phone in front of him.
There were so many things so new to him I could only imagine how new this must have all been for him and very frustrating to but damn it…all his attention hogging was pulling her from me. I wanted to be around her. To hold her. Kiss her and every time she breathed he was right there by her side. Like an added shadow to her every movement. I understood he was untrusting of anyone else but come on! I went to give her a peck on the cheek trying to be respectful about it for him but he still looked at me like I was in the wrong.
Part of me was shocked that Damon hadn't told him about us just to screw with Diamond but I think he avoided that out of the problems it would cause and if Diamond could even handle it. He had no control unless he had her influence but that might be to much for him to take. There were to many new things right now and he was in the middle of so much. It had to be stressful so why add to that when the person in question was imprisoned for so long and is adjusting to everything in such a short amount of time.
It only got easier when she went to go to sleep at night. Then we had some chill time to ourselves but had to be quiet as 'he' was next door and could hear things. The second night was the quietest sex we ever had but we managed. The first night was her staying up with him to give him a crash course in what he needed to know regarding the war. He looked so overwhelmed I felt sorry for him. I had been there myself but he kept giving me distasteful looks.
I tried to talk to him so he could understand that we each were in his corner on this one. That I was recently put into this and I personally understood but his attitude of being better than me or anyone else here was still very pompous. Even when Usagi told him I worked in the medical field before becoming a vampire he barely glanced at me with more respect. Especially when she clarified intern and not a licensed doctor.
This guy had the persona of stick up his ass from before and it seems to have never left. He found himself still better than anyone here and my guess was it was how he was raised to be. I had a feeling that his family was upper class before everything happened and he still saw himself in that light and didn't know how very little that was true now. He held no sway here. Plus the way he looked at her all longingly made me uncomfortable.
She hadn't told him yet about me as she didn't want him to reject helping them and flip out but at the same time I didn't want him to fall under the pretense that he had a chance with her cause let's be honest here…he didn't. She and I were mated and my scent was also on her. I'm sure he smelled it to. He had to know on some level deep down that she and I were together. Even if he didn't voice it.
He probably didn't want to say it because he was to consumed with everything else that was so much more important. He only got the reminder when I was around. The scent was more identifiable with the source nearby. I looked back down at the ammo I was currently making more of as Rei and Makoto were busy on the vests. They had more than enough for the first wave of vampires but we needed as many as possible for the rest. We only had another day before the war would be at the front door.
The anniversary was looming to close for comfort and everyone was now in a state of unrest and ill at ease. Whenever the moon came out it was like a wave of silence fell over the estate and the scent in the air shifted. You could smell them out there. Gathering. Like a pack of wild wolves planning a feast. It just reminded everyone that Diamond's presence was as needed as it was on shaky grounds. "So how's it been dealing with 'training wheels' over there?" Rei asked coming up to me referring to Diamond and Usagi over with the guns.
We both looked over at him as Usagi loaded up a gun for him. He wasn't bad with them but was definitely distracted seeing how strong and powerful Usagi looked and totally at ease around the big weapons and not acting squeamish. I think in all honesty he was as attracted by her as he was repulsed that she was so good at what she did. I think he felt he would have been marrying back then a house wife and instead he discovers a weapons master instead. Not that he would ever marry her but still…his potential views.
"'Training wheels' is a little annoying but think about what Usagi has to work with. She's getting the most stressed ever. Going over what needs to be done here still and teaching him just enough and…" I stopped talking as our elder walked in to the room to see how Diamond was doing. Everyone stopped what they were doing and only pretended to still work so they could watch the situation unfold.
Diamond looked to be caring none at all for the elder. I sighed. It would be his first mistake. I just hoped that common sense would tell him when to shut up. I heard the conversation as clearly as anyone. 'So you're Diamond…' our elder said. 'Hai…and you are?' Diamond asked as if our elder were nothing to him but potentially important, 'The leader of this coven till I leave.' He made no statement about Damon taking over when he left.
Something I found interesting. I watched Diamond look around to see the rest working, 'More like a leader of monsters…and what of that Damon…the one who took my betrothed from me so long ago? He's nowhere to be seen.' Yeah he was asking for an ass kicking. I sighed wondering when the shit would hit the proverbial fan and wondering if I should step in to dissipate it or even if I could.
Our elder looked at him with contempt before saying, 'You're new here and needed so I will forgive your wayward tongue this once but please remember to place your respect and gratitude above your pride and opinions of us. We are all working together here.' It was the only warning the elder would give out respectfully before we heard what Diamond said next, 'Wayward tongue? You vile - ' Usagi stomped on his foot hard enough to elicit a stunned yelp from him, 'Diamond!' her words were sharp.
He nursed his booted foot a bit before looking at her like she betrayed him by not letting him be vocal. However she wasn't having it. 'I know this is a lot to take in but you have got to show some modicum of respect.' He looked stunned by her clearly taking the elders side. Our side in this mess. 'Seriously?' he asked her, his tone getting upset yet reserved. He didn't look ready to act out but no one was taking chances.
That's when I saw Usagi get into his face though not in a demeaning way but in a 'keep it together' way. 'He's our grand elder and gave the permissible order to release you to help us. Don't act as if you're immune to repercussions.' I could see it in his eyes of what he thought of all of this. I sighed. It didn't matter that he was one of us or that she was to or where he was and how many of us surrounded him. He would hold onto his hatred of the vampire species for the rest of his life.
I had the strangest feeling that it was all he had left to have from his old life. That prejudice that was integrated into him since probably childhood. It was all he knew. He was still mentally back in the early 1800's and would hold onto what he knew for a long time to come. Usagi's teachings did help a bit but prejudice was something that needed to be released from that individual to accept the change that's happened.
'Serenity he's a vampire!' Diamond tried, 'And so am I…" he pulled himself back a little bit from her almost as if slightly repulsed. "So are you…" he turned away and looked around briefly, "And so is EVERYONE else here so mind your tongue!' she snapped. Diamond didn't look close to listening, 'I'm grateful for your help Serenity but…' he looked at our elder then back to her.
'Their vampires they will kill regardless and feed. I'm sorry my dear but when they are done with me, hell when they are done with you as well we will be killed. There's nothing you can do about that. It's what they do my dear.' He looked to the elder, "So I will speak my mind as that's what it's there for.' He concluded. He was headstrong on this issue but it would be his downfall in the end.
I could tell Usagi was trying hard to keep herself in check against his words. Diamond's prejudice would get him killed. However when you mess with Usagi you mess with a LOT of vampires. Everyone in the room stopped what they were doing and glared at him for his words. I looked around and saw the sway she held over everyone here. I could see it in their faces, they didn't care about what he had to say about them, at least not as much as they cared about what he said to Usagi.
Their anger was clearly in a 'you insulted her?!' manner. Diamond barely saw this as his own anger and pride were blinding his vision to the anger he caused by his careless words. This time it was the elder who got into Diamond's face and he looked honestly scared. Cause let's face it, the elder could be really scary when on his bad side. He was the oldest and strongest of us and the most fearless.
I think there's a good reason why Usagi does look up to him to a certain extent. Diamond's slightly regretful face was now there. Good he needed a reality check. The elder took him in and smiled nearly as if looking at an appetizer before hitting Diamond in the neck with a similar move I'd seen Usagi use on Damon to stunt his breathing. Diamond grabbed at his throat as if to say 'you see?!' but Usagi merely closed her eyes in disappointment.
'And you will know your place here…murderer.' He began. Diamond nearly looked ready to counter it but our elder had this way of looking at you that terrified you to your very soul if you disobeyed. 'She holds far more ranking than you ever will or ever would. She's one of our best fighters and second in command here.' That shut Diamond up as he looked at her. 'She's exemplary in her skills and I have even taken her under my wing on occasion.'
He spoke very highly of her as Diamond looked at her with a new set of eyes. 'She's been a loyal soldier to us for over two hundred years and has earned a reputable place within this coven and many others several times over.' He loomed over Diamond as the lighter haired man cowered in his place, 'You should be on your knees thanking her for your very life. The very breath you take in.' Diamond looked at her.
Our elder grabbed at his head to make him keep looking at her, 'She's the one who got Damon to spare your life all those years ago. Had it been me you wouldn't have been shown an ounce of leniency.' Diamond swallowed…hard. 'You would have been skinned alive and ripped apart just like some of your victims were.' That I hadn't known about. 'hai, I know what you did to some of the men there. The ones who looked like my son.' Diamond looked like he pales considerably before his anger rose again.
'So for someone who says their grateful I don't see it when you talk down to her and myself like were beneath you. It's uncouth and utterly disrespectful. Now when you do get your breath back go back to training. There is still much to be done though if I could I would definitely send you to get a lesson in manners. Yours are simply ghastly. Now you will learn your place here or once this war is over I will make sure your sent back into your hell for the rest of your life.' The elder left as Diamond seethed at him.
"And this is the guy she was once betrothed to…?" I muttered more to myself. "Yup…though she said she never really loved him like that. She was just really good friends with him. Their parents were trying to pull them together and she accepted it but in her heart of hearts she wasn't into it." Rei then looked to me, "Don't worry, she's still all yours." I was a tad stunned by that as she walked away and had the decency to look back down at my work. So when Usagi came up behind me and said, "How's work going?" I was a little startled.
"Good I was just making some more bullets. I don't want to have to rely solely on him for all of this." I explained. "Good cause I'm limiting him in the blood supply till we get to the fight so he can go all out in their destruction." She said. Smart idea to limit him. He'll be strong enough to take them on and blood thirsty enough to wipe out anyone that comes into his path. "So where's Damon?" I asked.
I hadn't seen much of him since we got back with Diamond. It was as if he wanted nothing to do with the progress of what was going on with Diamond and frankly I think it was better he stayed away. Diamond hated him with a passion. I had my issues with Damon myself but it seemed Diamond's was rooted so deeply I didn't think he'd ever let it go. He seemed to be the type to hold grudges and for an immortal being that would be a very long time.
"In the office. He and Malachite are going over strategies for the battle." It seemed like Damon finally got his head back into the game…or so it seemed. I wasn't a hundred percent convinced and neither was Usagi. I could see it in her eyes so when Damon came down towards us with Malachite in tow they both looked distantly at Diamond. "How's his progress going?" Damon asked with a 'wish he wasn't here' attitude.
Everyone felt like it but we needed him so we did what we had to do. "Well so far. I'm limiting his blood supply to keep him active yet hungry but not to hungry. I don't want to chance him trying to feed off of someone." Usagi said. It made complete sense even Damon agreed with it before Diamond went back around the corner. He put the big gun down as if in distain and took up a 9mm instead. "He might prefer something smaller…" I muttered.
"He can prefer my boot in his ass if he keeps acting a fool around here." Damon snipped. I couldn't help but agree though. Diamond seemed to be a common ground for us to hate on together, "Yeah he's got a few things to learn, being respectful is definitely up there. Even I would never dare say something negative against your father." I told him. Even Damon had the right to give the 'damn straight' look on his face.
"He must have a death wish to have done that." Damon smirked on that one, "At least he didn't try to attack him. Though it would be interesting to watch his eyes bug out when your father would wrap his hand around his throat." I visualized that as Damon said, "Father would hiss at him see the fear then snap. I can almost picture it now." I chuckled as even he chuckled at the visual we got.
It was a bit disturbing but we both didn't like Diamond being here so it was the closest I was to having a civilized moment right now. We watched as Diamond tried to load the gun up and ended up trying to load the clip in upside down. "Right side up…" I muttered not that he could hear me. We both watched in humorous agony as he tried and failed several times before turning the clip right side up. "There he goes." Damon chuckled as I did. He looked to me.
"And that prick is the one who is supposed to be our Hail Mary." He muttered in merriment and agony of frustration. As if he was enjoying watching the spectacle but didn't like that we were on this common ground. It was like we were forced to agree on something but we ourselves didn't want to agree. It was convoluted. He looked back at me and as if by magic remembered who he was talking with and turned his head away.
I couldn't help but agree with him though, "Yeah…he seems to be adjusting a little bit better than I thought he would but he has that hostility towards everyone." Which was true he was even a bit hostile towards me but I think that was because Usagi favored me for obvious reasons and he was clueless to it. Maybe she should tell him about us…that way he doesn't fall under and illusion of them after the war is over.
"He's a prick that needs to be rid of once the war is over. I said imprisonment for all time and I meant it for what he did." Damon stated, his tone that of wanting to lock him back up. Once again I agreed, "Yeah…though I think in this case its not because of what he had done, that was horrific but being that its been over 200 years I think he's atoned for it…for his victims…however…" as Damon was looking at me like I was nuts for considering his time as enough for him.
"He's way to damned dangerous to be let out into the wild. You yourself are dangerous but you have control over yourself when presented with the challenge. He doesn't. That right there makes him in absolute need of imprisonment for all time. He seems to be the type that can't be contained…not for long." It was obvious I didn't trust Diamond but I understood his necessity in this war.
I remember how Diamond came out of that well. He was hungry and his only stop gab measure was Usagi. She couldn't be there for forever for him. She didn't want to obviously. I looked up at Damon to find him agreeing with me but still holding up his own dislike but for now we were on common but shaky ground. It would only be a matter of time before that common ground was gone and we were at war again.
"He is a weapon yes…" we both looked to Usagi, "I hate that we have to use him. I hate that he has to be here. The things he did…" she looked to Damon on that one as he raised his head up a bit, "Those things are still relevant or else it wouldn't also be why we're using him in this war. We have a job to do and tough choices to make. We don't like them, we don't want to use them and we certainly don't want them to backfire on us…" her words getting slightly louder but only due to her passion clear in her voice.
"But we do what we have to do to survive." Malachite even looked at her now, "This is and as much as we hate to voice it, the possible extinction of our kind were dealing with." She said the words others were unwilling to even think about. "This isn't some random Lycan battle. They want to finish off what was started long before most of us were around and we are doing what we have to do to make sure that THAT doesn't happen."
She sounded so much like a leader with her words and so strong that several others in the area that heard her nodded their heads and held them a little bit higher…in respect of her. It also made Damon dart his eyes around to notice the respect she was commanding around us as well. He didn't seem to favor it, "Nice and tough words but we still need a follow through. Diamond needs to deliver or else this coven's failure will be entirely upon you…I'll see to that." He then walked away.
She seemed to deflate a tiny bit but then Malachite said, "Pay him no heed. He's just sore you had an actual idea in saving us. He still can't come up with an alternate solution to the problem." Ahh so that's what he was doing. Trying to best Usagi…again. I couldn't help but let my snappy comeback out, "Ah so…that's what he's been doing. Using his way of 'helping to find an alternative solution' which I'm all for, become a pissing contest to best Usagi. Great." I saw the snarl come to Malachite's face.
"Either way any solution that will work without needing to use Diamond is something needed." Usagi took the neutral path in that conversation. Again the traits of an actual leader and not of some dickwad trying to best his second when he should have no ego issues at all when it comes to that. "Of course. Usagi." He didn't pay me any heed as he walked away to, "You like pissing those two off huh?" she commented. I shrugged my shoulders, "No actually…" I looked back at her and her mirthy smile.
"I'm just starting to see something happen and this war will conclude it all. Diamond is a risk but he is also necessary. I hope Damon finds an alternative solution, I hope he does." it was the truth, "But to use that as a means to do better than you won't work." She looked at me oddly, "Damon is the leader here not me." She said. I pulled her in closer and whispered into her ear, "And yet you command more influence than he does lately." Before she could respond to that Diamond came over to us. Great.
"I think my training for today is over with. I don't like these semi-auto things." He indicated to the larger guns. I rolled my eyes, "Why not?" I asked. Diamond looked to me and said, "I know your talking but why? You're not a part of this conversation." I guess since the elder verbally handed him his ass he needs to take his anger out on someone. "You came over here interrupting our conversation, ergo, I am a part of it." I snapped back.
Diamond disliked this immensely, "I came to hold a private discussion with Serenity, the proper thing to do would be to leave us." He was trying to assert control here and that wasn't happening, "Diamond, if you needed to talk to me in private then state it but don't assume that just because you come to speak with me that its automatically private." He seemed to concede this before saying, "Then please walk with me." She sighed and left but not before mouthing to me 'sorry, I'll talk with him'. I nodded.
Usagi POV
I knew this had to be hard for him to handle and take. A whole new world was literally what he was dealing with right now and getting stressed over but there was nothing we could do about that. I was trying so hard to help him out with adjusting to the small things in this world but I had forgotten how much of a pompous arrogant man he was it had been so long. Either that or I didn't know him as well as I thought I had.
It made me question a lot more about what I did know back then and what I know now. His arrogance was something I wondered on if history had been different. If things hadn't happened the way they had. I mean would we have been happy together as a married couple or would we have been miserable in our marriage and stuck in it for the sake of our families? I had the strangest feeling that I wouldn't have been happy but merely living.
Which then made me think on how I had been during my time with Damon…merely existing as I was before Mamoru showed up. But there was no Mamoru of that time and even if there had been would we have been fortunate enough to meet and fall in love as we have now? These were all unanswerable questions. I hated that I had to go through all of that pain and suffering I did to get here but being with Mamoru…I'd go through it all again just to have the chance to have him by my side…in love as we are.
I can't say I'd do the same for Diamond…did that make me a bad person…? "That little twat." Diamond spat. "As if he has the right to argue back with me. Does he NOT know who I am or of my family?" he was definitely bitter on it. "No…and even if he did it wouldn't matter." I began as he stopped. We stepped into the tea room of the estate. It was far removed from that of the basement and closer to the exit out back giving us a lovely view of the shaded sun, enabling us to still see it.
I closed the doors to it to muffle the sounds of what I knew would be an argument between us. I had been trying to avoid that but I guess not. "Why not?" Diamond asked. I looked at him, "Because your family line has been dead for over a hundred years. The name is in nothing more than a few sheets of historical papers in a few libraries that are around the area of where we got you from. There's nothing more." That's when something hit me, "I know there's a lot going on right now but why haven't you asked about your family?" he looked to me.
"We were never as close as we made ourselves appear to be. Father saw me as deluded in my wants out of life. I saw him as an old man that needed to see that he wasn't taking advantage of what our family name could do for us." This gave me a new perspective of him. "He's right." He shot a glare at me, "You're father was right, you can glare all you want but it's true. There are no more glory days to live off of. The way things work now is almost backwards yet the same." It was hard to explain to him.
"Listen the bottom line is you can't keep up this attitude that your better than everyone." I had to nip this in the bud. "But I am." He really and truly believed it, "Serenity we are." He grasped my hands as if in desperation to get me to understand, "We are so much better than those vile creatures. They think that just because they live in a new estate and have a bit of yen that their better than us." He sneered at his own words.
His look back at them through the glass doors was that of anger and hate. Suddenly I felt offended and angered that he held such hatred for us. Despite being in an estate full of them he still held this aspect as if he were untouchable and the problem was he wasn't. Diamond was not the man I thought he was…he was a pompous asshole that I had at one point been betrothed to but now seeing him like this…he wasn't the man I believed him to be. His hatred made him appear undignified and frankly a dick.
"They're…despicable and loathsome creatures. Their garbage Serenity. Not worthy of our time." I saw the look of disgust that crossed his features and it made my stomach turn, "Not to mention to have you doing such un-lady like things is dreadful." I had to bit my lip on that one. He was being sexist right now but there was a lot of that during the 1800's so I knew where it came from, "Diamond…" I tried to reason with him.
I removed his hands from mine, they suddenly seemed like they were holding me down. Like he wanted me to be something I wasn't anymore. I wasn't that young girl he once knew. I wasn't the woman he thought I was. The girl I once was is still there in me, I am still her but I'm so much more than that now and I don't think he'll ever accept it or who I really am now. He's got this image in his head that's unrealistic.
I had to stop it from becoming something more. "There is no THEY Diamond, it's WE…" for starters. He looked down at me as I finally pulled my hands away from him. I felt like I needed to break that connection. It felt like I was holding onto a part of the past that had been gone for a long time and I was just now realizing it, "Secondly I am one of them and have been for a long ass time." He even looked upset that I cursed.
I rolled my eyes at the idiocy I would have had to deal with had events in time been changed. I wasn't so sure I could hold my tongue for much longer. "We've fought together. Stood side by side together. And despite Damon's dickness he's still the next leader of this coven when his father leaves. Whether you like that or the situation or anyone here or not you're treading on dangerous grounds and it needs to end and end now." He looked back through the doors to see passing vampires.
"They're waiting for me to fall off the wagon aren't they?" he sneered, glancing through the glass doors that lead to the rest of the estate. Seeing other vampires pass by but paying him no heed. "No…not exactly." He looked back to me, "Their waiting to see what you can do when faced against our common enemy. We just wish we didn't have to." I told him, "Listen just stop it with the attitude." I remarked.
"And your words towards me were unnecessary." I actually did feel a sting of pain at his words from earlier. "My words to you were that of what we did know back then. Women didn't hold much sway and honestly I don't see how you do…however I must admit to hear everything you've done is a bit astonishing." He didn't look at me with pride though, more so with eyes that seemed disinterested. Like he knew what I could do but was unsure if it was something to accept or to disregard.
"So are you telling me I cannot voice myself?" he asked, as if he were being punished and in truth he was, "In the age old verbiage, 'if you can't say something nice, don't say it at all'." I stepped up next to him, "I cannot excuse your comments much more. I understand that you hate us." He looked ready to protest it, "If you hate them then you hate a part of me to." He sighed, "I used to hate me to…" he shifted his stance towards me. As if shocked I was voicing some of his own feelings even though he was trying avoid that.
"I hated that I could feel everything they did but soon enough I learned to control it. To live with it and to take the pleasures of it where and when I could. The vampirism is a part of who I am now and to hear your callus words it hurts. Now while I do understand where it comes from, I also know that there is so much you don't know. So much that keeps you from seeing what we can do and the good we've done to keep the war from entering the human world." He looked away on that one and stepped away from me.
"You talk about them as if you care about them." He glanced back at me, "I do…except for Damon but we all do. We work together. We've always done what we can to keep this from - " He cut me off, "The human world…" I nodded, "The very world you were once a part of." I nodded again, "And now we work to protect it and keep all of this from slipping into it. We want to save the people, not destroy them." He looked so lost and conflicted.
"Why so you can have forever more people to hunt?" he was starting to mix his old thinking with how it worked today and that wasn't accurate, not for this. "Not like we used to no. We've evolved with the change in times. We work more to eliminate the Lycan's to save people. They used to be fewer in number but thanks to this looming death date we have more now than ever before." I explain.
"It's like I explained before with the hospitals." I said, "Right where you met Mamoru…" he muttered, "Hai…" I wasn't sure how to detail Mamoru out here. "And he accepted you for who you are?" I nodded. "It was an adjustment but he accepted and decided to help us out in the war efforts." I know he didn't want to hear anything good come of it but it was the truth. "Do you care for him?" his expression was one of slight anger and rejection.
"Hai…as he does for me." I explained. "Are you two…" the question lingered around it…the unspoken words. I didn't want to say anything that could make him become more upset so I simply said, "That's not important right now. What is, is this war." I had to re-direct the issue here. "And we cannot have prejudices come up and take priority in this." He rolled his eyes at me, "You defend them. You take their side. You work with them. Sleep with them." He spat the last part out at me. I was getting pissed off now.
"Your point?" I snapped sarcastically. Feeling defensive I folded my arms in front of me, "I am your first love. You're once betrothed. I sacrificed my humanity for you and your family." I looked at him as if he were mad, "Seriously? You're trying to take credit for what I had to do?!" now I was pissed. "Listen here you ungrateful dickweed." I poked his chest in emphasis for every point I had to make.
"Hai, I was betrothed to you but you were NOT my first love." He looked stunned by that, "And no neither was Mamoru…that honor went to a man that was murderer in front of me." I prevented the fresh wave of tears from spilling out but just barely. "I was the one who sacrificed everything I had to save the rest of my family." Then I angrily chuckled, "Not that it made a difference at the end of the day…" remembering what happened.
I hated this now more than ever. I hadn't thought about it but I was standing alone in the room with the man that literally murdered my family. Damon may have turned him but it was he in the end that took their lives from existence. He was the weapon and Damon was the unknowing cause of it but he was the one that ripped them apart. I closed my eyes and pulled them away from him to avoid seeing what the images in my head were showing me.
"Why? Damon did something to them didn't he? Your family." I turned to see him, "No…he kept his promise to me." I explained, but the anger in my eyes was solely directed at him. He looked stunned by that, "It was you…" he looked at me strangely. "Nani?" he asked, "You don't remember?" I asked. I saw the confusion in his eyes at my words. He must have no memory…a black out.
And now I had to tell him what he did to my family. Talk about reopening old wounds. "You went back there that night. Before the village slaughter you went to my family's home and you ripped them apart." He looked stunned then he began pacing around before grabbed his head as if beginning to recall the memories he had. "You left nothing more than bloodied body parts behind." I told him.
Part of me feeling satisfied seeing the distraught look on his face. He looked like a drunk recalling the night before and regretting every bit of it. "I…oh kami – sama…" he started, "I went to tell them where you were and there was still blood your mother was cleaning off the floor from both me and your father." He turned his head away and closed his eyes, "I tried to ignore the pull…" it was as if he was lost in the memory of it.
"Your mother came to me, asked if I was okay…I…" he rose his head to see me, "Gomen asai…" she went first. "I don't remember much after that…the screams, the shouts…their a blur in my head…" I put a hand to my mouth to stiff the whimper that threatened to escape. "I remember your father going for the gun and a loud bang…then I was in the village and I…" that's when I saw the change in him. In his eyes. The bloodlust was so strong within him, "I killed them all." He realized.
"This is what I became for you." I narrowed my eyes at him, "You think I don't know that you tried to protect me and my family? I hold that as a mark against me for the rest of my time. But in the end I'M the one that gave myself to Damon to save them. I'M the one that had to deal with him all these years. You may have been alone in darkness but you weren't subject to Damon and what he did to me…" he tried to talk but I cut him off.
"You have no idea of my level of mental, emotional or physical pain that I went through with him. The things I had to do…the things he did to me…" tears were welling up but I was to angry to let them slip still. "So don't you DARE try to make it seem as if you're the only victim here. Don't make yourself out to be a martyr or a hero…" I nearly shouted. "That type of title belongs only to my parents that tried to save us that night." As useless as it was.
"They died trying to help." Diamond looked at me with contempt now. "So when I threw myself in the way of you getting taken…that meant nothing to you?" he addressed, "No, it meant that I would forever hold the guilt in my heart that someone I cared for got hurt because of me." A single tear fell, "I would forever remember what happened that night and the nights that lead up to this with anger and the need to help others since I couldn't help the lot of you." I told him. He touched my face to wipe the tear away.
"I hated this at first…but I grew to love them as if they were my family. They grew on me, they cared for me and they trained with me." I may have avoided them for the longest time but there were several members here that I would give my life for and whom would do the same for me, in a heartbeat. "Yeah the training…my love you should have been my wife, to be at home pregnant with our - " I cut him off.
"I was always adventurous Diamond. Though now I'm beginning to wonder if you would have accepted that." I was unsure of it, "My dear there are things that are unbecoming of a woman…" I stopped him once again, "Back then maybe…now…not even close. You need to seriously stop talking like that or else you're going to piss me royally off." It was my only warning to him on the matter at hand.
"My point being is that this is not your world…its theirs." He indicated as if I didn't understand what was going on. My frustration level was hitting its all-time peak. I wanted to throttle him for his words and how disrespectful he was being. "I'm going to say this once so listen up, you need to realize that things weren't as they once were. Get with the program cause in a day's time were going to be in the fight of our lifetime!" that's when Mamoru came in as if he'd run here and spoke in a dire tone, "We have another problem."