The Heartbreak
(Chapter 4)
Kagome did not move from the spot she eventually fell asleep in after she was done crying. Kagome felt like part of her heart was missing, it hurt and she felt like the world was caving in on her. I'm guessing this is the mating bond taking effect, Kagome thought to herself.
"Kagome…?" Shippo whispered "Yes Shippo." Kagome said quietly "Are you alright?" Kagome's eyes felt dry and itchy "I'm getting there. Do you need something?" Shippo let out a deep breath "Inuyasha has been running around all morning trying to get things to make you feel better." Kagome eyes flashed with surprise at what Shippo had just told her
"What do you mean getting stuff to make me feel better?" Kagome asked the questioning coming off her voice "Like your favorite food and a new pretty kimono and other things like that." Shippo grabbed Kagome's hand and yanked "Come on Kagome get up." Kagome reluctantly got to her feet and followed Shippo outside
"Sister." Ginta said coming over to Kagome, she remember how mad he had been at her yesterday and braced herself for more yelling and anger. Instead of yelling at her he pulled her into a tight hug, "I'm sorry for yesterday I wasn't myself." Kagome hugged him tighter and when they pulled away Ginta held out his hand "What's this?" Kagome asked holding out her own hand, Ginta dropped two jewel shards into Kagome's hands "Koga would want you to have them." Was all he said then he walked away
Kagome stared down at Koga's jewel shards that use to be in his legs. She felt tears welling up in her eyes. Why did he have to die? I promise you Koga I will avenge your death, Kagome thought to herself whipping the tears off her cheeks.
"Kagome!" Inuyasha called "Come join us!" Kagome looked over at her friends that were gathered by the crystal clear river. Kagome's heart made a vow at that moment looking at all her friends she will not let another one die. Kagome slowly walked to her friends, Kaede walked up to her.
"You are hurting." Kaede said looking sideways at Kagome "How can you tell?" Kagome joked "It's written all over ye face and no one blames ye Kagome. Ye were mated to Koga and losing your mate messes with your heart, because of the bond the mating brings. But hear ye this. Ye are not alone we are all here for you." Kaede gave Kagome's hand a squeeze and they walked the rest of the way to their comrades.
"Kagome look at these kimonos Inuyasha and Miruko brought back for us." Sango said with a smile, she was holding up two very pretty kimonos. The one she was holding out to Kagome was a deep blue with silver lines going through it, and Sango kept the pink and green mixed kimono for herself. Sango grabbed Kagome's hand and started leading her back toward the hut to change into their kimonos.
Sango turned around and started to get changed, Kagome started to untie her kimono but then stopped and sank to her knees fresh tears spilling over her eyes. She saw vision of her a Koga in the cavern laughing and him so alive. She saw the vision of Koga giving her the kimono she was wearing now and more tears came. Kagome wrapped her arms around herself and sobbed.
"Kagome!" Sango fell to her knees in front of Kagome a slowly rubbed her back "Its ok Kagome. Everything will be ok." To her surprise Kagome started to yell "Nothing is ok! Nothing will ever be ok! My mate is dead and I'm the one who killed him!" Kagome's body started to shake "Koga is dead because of me. Everyone I care about dies because of me!" Kagome's breath was starting to become shallow and more panicked
"Kagome please calm down." Sango said lightly "You didn't kill Koga, Naraku did. Naraku gave you no choice on who to save. It was either Inuyasha or Koga; Naraku is a cold hearted monster for doing this to you." Kagome looked into Sango's eyes and Sango could see all the self-hatred that lied there "If I tried hard enough I would have been able to save both." Kagome's eyes flashed and she stood up striding out of the hut and into the forest.