A/N: Sorry for the wait you guys… I've just hit a wall in my head. Got writers block a little. I just suddenly thought about this and had to write it up. It's late as hell here but I had to get it out of my system. I've been feeling a little down myself, especially with mother's day coming up. Anyway, if anything in this upsets you, I apologize. I'm here to talk. Anyway, enjoy and thanks for reading.

Depression

"What happed this weekend was a mistake. I regret everything."

Edd stared blankly at his test. Fifteen minutes had passed since he was first given it; he hadn't even bothered writing his name. His back ached from being slammed up against the lockers just during class exchange a little bit ago. The expression Kevin wore burned into his mind. He swallowed the lump in his throat. What had happened?

Nazz and the red head had been walking in the halls, his arm wrapped securely around the blond. Edd had seen it with his eyes, his ears heard about the new number one couple. When he finally got Kevin alone, he immediately confronted the other. Kevin had reacted so… differently.

Edd's grip on his pencil tightened, he couldn't think straight. The thought of the gingers warm lips being on another person caused so much jealousy to well up in him. Edd frowned and scratched his name on the paper. He then began to scribble down the answers, his eyes narrowing on each paper. For once in his life, he didn't care if he got a hundred percent on a test.

The bell finally rang and Edd stood, walking over to the teacher to give him the paper. Hugging his messenger bag close to him, he left the building, ignoring the excitement in other students' voices. Going back to the house he was staying in was the last place he wanted to go. Biting his lip, he looked up at the Barr's house. Looking across the street, he then looked at his house. Crossing the street, he grabbed the spare key they hid in the flower pot. Unlocking the door, he stepped inside and closed it behind him. "I'll be perfectly fine here alone…"

That was the case, he was alone… just like usual. Why did everyone he loved seem to disappear from his life? Taking his shoes off, he pulled his slippers on. Trudging his way to his room, he walked over to his bed and collapsed. His breathing slowing, he laid there, his eyes just staring at the wall across from him. Suddenly closing them tight, he tried his hardest not to cry. "Crying gets you nowhere Eddward." He reminded himself softly.

He didn't know how long it was he laid there before he heard a soft buzzing from his bag. Sitting up, he grabbed his bag and dug his hand around. Felling the cellular device, he flipped it open and stiffened. It was Kevin.

Where are you? Mom's worried.

Edd swallowed hard, his fingers trembling slightly. "You really have nerve texting me after what happened…" He muttered before typing, 'A friends.' He wrapped his arms around his knees and hugged them. 'I'll be back later.' He then quickly typed, his heart racing. What was he doing? He immediately flipped it back open when it vibrated.

Okay.

Edd stared at the message for a long moment, wondering how he should react. Should he just shrug it off and think good riddance? Maybe cry, such a short message. "He's probably with Nazz anyway…" The ravenette grumbled under his breath. His frown reformed, he didn't want to see Kevin ever again. His hands tugged at his hat, his expression frustrated. "When did I even start accepting romance into my life?" He asked himself.

Edd slowly stood and made his way down to the kitchen. It being almost empty, he had few choices on what to eat. Getting a can of mixed fruit, he poured it into a bowl and took a seat. The sound of silence surrounded him as he ate a spoonful. Swallowing it down, his stomach didn't like it too much. His hunger was slowly diminishing.

How in the world had once guy brought Edd's mood so down? "It was just a kiss; it didn't even have to mean he liked you. Many countries welcome people with a kiss." He told himself. "Who cares if he softly spoke such nice things into your ear?" He held his flushed cheeks and groaned. "For a genius, you're an idiot for falling in love with someone who hated you when you were kids." He sighed softly, "Why am I talking to myself? Am I really that lonely?"

Standing up, he pushed his chair back in and placed the bowl of fruits into the fridge. He could eat that for breakfast tomorrow if he was hungry. Going back up to his room, he got comfortable in his bed. It felt strange without having Jim here but he wouldn't take the chance going to go get the cactus.

Closing his eyes, he slipped into unconsciousness. What felt like mere minutes, were actually hours as his alarm went off on his phone. "Curses…" He groaned and tiredly got up. Going to the bathroom, he began his usual routine, the one he had done every day at this house when it was just him. He prepared his own meal, sat in silence and left for school at the same time he always did. He didn't leave early like usual just because a shirtless red head came and sat by him every morning.

School was the same as usual except that he had to quickly do his homework he had completely forgotten about. Each class ran as slow as they had yesterday and the day before. The lectures sounded the same; each class gave out assignments like they usually did. The same students complained about the work, their groans and moans not affecting the teacher a bit. Edd just did as he always did and got everything done like he should.

Lunch was quiet; Edd didn't bother telling Eddy that his new scamming plots would backfire on him. He didn't bother looking over at the football teams table. He didn't bother giving Kevin a second glance. He just ate the mysterious meal the lunch ladies had slopped down on his tray. Even when they went to English, he didn't even react to hearing Nazz giggle at whatever Kevin was saying. He ignored Kevin's glanced, forcing himself to think the ginger was looking at the posters on the wall behind him.

Three teachers had already asked him if he was alright, asking if he needed to go to the councilor of if he wanted to talk. There was nothing to talk about though, he was sad and no one could possibly make him feel better. No one could stop the tears that wanted to fall every time Kevin popped up into his mind.

What was the term people used for people who felt this way? Depressed? Was he depressed? No, he was just tired. Tired of everything. Tired of life. He wasn't depressed; he had no reason to be. He had caring friends; he was loved by his parents he never saw. He was fine. That's what he told everyone and they seemed to believe it, not daring to ask again. Maybe if they did though... maybe it would have changed something... anything.

Walking back home and back to school, the process only repeated. Everyday ran slower and slower, his hundred percents turned to nineties, and then eighties. After a slow week had passed, Edd couldn't help but think if this was all really worth it. Being home alone, no one could stop him from doing what he wanted. All week, not one word from his parents. Eddy and Ed didn't really have much to say to him either.

Staring at the small, rusted blade, he sat on his bed, hugging his knees. The same thoughts flooded his mind; no one will miss you. You are alone. You'll be happier dead. Why not? Tears stung at his eyes, the vision of the blade becoming blurry. He looked up when his phone buzzed loudly. Standing up, he made slow steps towards his dresser where his phone rested. Flipping his phone open, even through the tears, he could clearly see what it said and who it was from.

Come home already Dork.

A/N: So sorry for the sad chapter you guys, I thought this would be a good one though. Edd finally hit rock bottom, now he just has to slowly crawl his way back up so he can be in the arms of his red headed ginger. I hope I didn't depress you all too much. Tell me all your thoughts in a review. Love you all~~