So I have some news, big news. I will let you all decide on whether it is good or bad. This series has been an important part of my life for around two years now. I created my first google doc for the series back in May of 2016 and ever since it has played a pivotal role in my life. It has helped me fight back against my depression and it has given me motivation to pick up and start a number of things that I never would have before.
I had two main motivators for starting this series way back then. The first was that I wanted to practice creative writing so that one day I could write and create a new world of my own. I was awful at grammar(and still am), had no idea how to brainstorm, and could barely put a solid paragraph together. This series was meant to be practice for all of this and more so that one day, when I finally decided to write something new I would be prepared.
The second motivator was that I was sick of reading fanfics that were unfinished. I hated the feeling of reading 200k words only to be left with a cliffhanger that will never be finished. I wanted to write a long series that people could get lost in for a long time and at the end could be satisfied with its ending. I have not forgotten these motivators and still wish to continue achieving the both of them, however, I need to be happy again with series first.
Like I said before, when I started this series I had no experience in writing. While I don't have much now I atleast have a little more than before. When I started writing this I had no idea where the story was going, what character was going to do what, or even what the next chapter was going to be about. I simply just woke up in the morning and wrote and went to sleep thinking about the next chapter.
This has been how I have done things for pretty much the past two years and honestly it worked better than it ever should have. However, writing this series this way has only dug a hole that has continued to get deeper with each and every chapter and to be as blunt as I can be, I'm not happy with the hole I have dug.
Fanfic is a hobby and something I enjoy doing, but as I came to a finish in book 5 and looked back over what I had written with the series so far I just wasn't happy with things. There are too many parts of the series I have been wanting to go back and change or fix for years but havent for the sake of just finishing the damn thing. I have grown as a writer with each and every chapter and when I look back at some of the early chapters I cringe at what I wrote and it kills me not to go back and redo it.
I kept thinking of you, my readers, and hating that I was making you wait for the next chapter so I just continued to push myself to just finish things up. I know as a fan of fanfic how much it sucks waiting weeks on end for your magic fix. This has been an internal struggle of mind that I have been battling out in my head for over a month now: keep writing with what you have now and just finish the series as is, or go back now and do a rewrite and edit and make a much more polished and better series that you can be happier with.
It was a tough internal debate but in the end the decision for me was clear. I need to enjoy what I am doing and be proud of my work, and it was clear to me that I wasn't entirely proud of the current status of fate's four. I had too many plot holes, too many poor plots, I forgot too many things that I set up, my descriptions and settings were not good, and most importantly I could have done a much better job with my characters and world. There were so many things that I looked back on and was not happy with and It felt like a waste of time to just keep writing on and trying to avoid the problems when I could just take a little more time and fix them.
So it is with a heavy heart that I tell you this, I will be taking an extended amount of time to do a rewrite of the series, starting from the very beginning, chapter one. I will be going back and making major changes that I feel will make this series a much better read and enhance the series as a whole. I want to be happy with my work, so I am going to take as much time as I need to bring the series up to a higher level and work on it until I am satisfied. How long this will take I have no idea but I feel it is necessary for my own wellbeing to do so.
The good news is that I am still working on the series as a whole. So for those of you that have stuck around this long have no fear, Fate's Four is not getting abandoned. I would like to thank you all for your reviews and kind words so far. The hardest part of making this decision was how I thought you all might take the news. Please don't hate me too much! I promise I will give the series my all and that it will return better than ever. Thank you for your understanding and always feel free to message me or leave a review if you wish to talk, your words are always good motivation to get me pulling all nighters! Thanks again!
Ps. I also changed my profile name on the series lol so it is no longer OseRS and is now WTFFanfic. Too many people kept yelling at me for inserting myself into the series since my profile name was Ose and a character had the same last name. The profile was named after the character but that became too hard to explain a 1000 times that my name isn't ose lol.
Ps Ps. I would also love to have a beta reader to help me with this rewrite. I can only go so far on my own and having someone to bounce ideas off of and help edit would make a world of difference. IF this is something you would be seriously interested in please PM me!