I'm scared. Scared of being alone, not being enough, never being enough. It's never been easy to open up to someone and show them a side of you that you've never expected anyone to see. Sometimes it hurts to not be able to speak to anyone about what you really want to say. Sometimes it hurts to not be able to speak at all. Sometimes it hurts.

Natsu didn't seem like a bad person, quite opposite really. He was kind and understanding, he never made fun Lucy the way she always expected him to. To be fair, she walked the halls thinking that one day he'll pop out from behind the corner and tell her that everything he ever said to her was a lie. That he never wanted to be her friend, it was all just a lie to get in with Brandish and her minions. Though it never happened, not even after a day, after a week, or even after a month.

He was always kind to her and never once showed signs that would prove her suspicions correct. There were times where Natsu would make an excuse as to why he couldn't see Lucy that day, but she never thought much about it. It was a normal impulse and she just didn't expect anything from him. Lucy didn't want to hold him down from seeing other people and making other friends. After all, just because he was her only friend didn't mean she had to be his. Lucy often saw him outside of school speaking to a man with dark blue hair. They seemed like close friends from the way they acted around one another, but that was only something she could assume.

She often wished he would notice her, to motion her over and introduce her to his dark haired friend, who always seemed to be stripping out of his shirt wherever he went, and actually make her feel wanted. Lucy knew that wouldn't ever happen but it was always a nice thing to hope.

Soooo... hi. I'm back, somewhat. This is a bit of a filler chapter in a sense.

I just wanted to post something and tell everyone that yes, I am alive. I apologize for not updating often but

to be completely honest with you all, I have absolutely no idea what to do with this story.

I have no ideas and being completely fair there is no passion in my writing when I write this. I have other ideas that I'd much rather write

but that doesn't mean I'm going to abandon this book. I will update whenever I get an idea of what to do next

but I don't want anyone to get their hopes up. Sorryyyy!