Toby's POV:

"Me and the girls got into a fight, and I- I really n-need you right n-now" these are the words that made me drop everything and rush over to pick up Spencer, hearing her cry breaks my heart.

When I arrive at the school I see Spencer and I immediately rush over and hug her.

"Thank you for coming," she whimpers into my chest.

"Anything for you my love," I reply as I pick her up and set her in my truck.

As soon as Spencer gets in the car and we start to drive, Spencer falls asleep, of course we arrive to my house about 5 minutes later but she looked so peaceful, so I pick her up and bring her inside.

When I get inside, I lay Spencer down on my bed and gently take her shoes off before actually laying her under the covers, after I do this I get in the bed next to her. After about a minute of being in the bed I feel spencer cuddle up closer to me and start mumbling unknown words under her breath, I smile due to how adorable this is.

I must have fallen asleep about 30 minutes into Spencer's nap, but now it has been almost 3 hours and when I finally awake I am surprised by the fact that Spencer is still asleep. Spencer usually will sleep for about an hour but thats it, she usually is awake by now.

It is getting late so I decide to make us dinner but when I am out in the kitchen, I start to think of spencer…

She has been acting really weird lately, but maybe it is just that time of the month for her.

My thoughts are interrupted by someone wrapping their arms around my waist.

"Hello," I hear Spencer say, the sleepiness in her voice is still very apparent.

"Hey sweetie, want some dinner?" I ask her, once I ask this question I swear I see her eyes widen and she wakes up more.

Spencer's POV:

"Want some dinner?" This is the question that absolutely terrified me, if I eat I will be even fatter but if I let Toby know something is up he will never let it go!

That is when I have an idea…

"Umm sure," I finally agree as I look behind him to see pancakes being made, I secretly curse myself for accepting his offer, pancakes will be sure to make me gain a pound!

"Do you want to watch a movie?" Toby asks, interrupting my demonic thoughts, I look at the time and see it is 7:00, my eyes widen.

" I would love to, but I have to be home by 8:00 tonight or my parents will flip" I say truthfully, knowing that if I get home even 1 minute late there would be trouble in the Hasting's household. I shiver at the thought of even being called a Hasting's it is such a shameful name, why can't I just get married to Toby and be a Cavanaugh?

"Hey Toby, do you think we will get married one day?" I accidentally ask, damn daydreaming is dangerous, it makes me say the stupidest things!

" I know we will get married one day Spence," Toby says as he gently grabs both of my hands and looks me in the eyes, making me smile a little.

"There is that smile that I have missed so much," Toby says basically pointing out the fact that I have been acting odd lately.

"Yup here it is," I reply as I kiss him on the lips.

A few minutes pass and we are still kissing but that is interrupted by a burning sound coming from the stove.

Toby turns around and chuckles before saying "well it looks like we are going to have burnt pancakes."

I giggle as Toby takes the burnt pancakes off the oven and sets them on the table along with butter and maple syrup.

"Wow these pancakes look great!" I exclaim sarcastically as we both sit down and start making our plates.

After I take my first few bites of the pancake I feel my stomach knot up as if saying 'have fun now but your demons will return later' this almost makes me run to the bathroom and empty my stomach this very second but the show must go on, so I continue to eat the pancakes.

"Thank you for today Toby," I say as I lean in to hug him after I put my plate in the sink.

"Are you sure you got enough to eat baby? You only ate half of a pancake." Toby points out with concern in his voice.

"Yea I'm sure," I say as I lean my head on his chest.

After a few minutes of staying in that position I decide it is time to leave so sadly I tear away.

"I love you," I say as I walk out the door.

"Love you too Spence," I hear Toby call out to me.

When I arrive at my house it is 8:30, I walk in the door shaking knowing that both of my parents are home.

I have made it halfway to the stairs, without being noticed, when I feel someone grab my wrist.

"Why are you home so late?" I hear my father growl as I turn around to face him.

"Dad please let me go, you are hurting me!" I whimper as his grip on my wrist becomes tighter.

"I asked where you were, now answer me!" my father barks as he slams me up against the wall, knocking the breath out of me.

"I was having dinner at Toby's place," I admit to my father, feeling ashamed that I had eaten.

"Wow I am surprised you can fit any food in that fat stomach of yours," my father exclaims as he lets me go.

When I get to my room, the first thing that I do is grab my razor blades and run to the bathroom. Once I get in the bathroom, I pull my shirt up to reveal my stomach, and I start cutting my stomach. I have made about 25 cuts on my stomach before I stop and crawl over to the toilet, when I reach it I stick my fingers down my throat and release that night's dinner.

Maybe one day I can actually be skinny.

A/N:

Hey everyone, sorry for the short break I haven't had that much time to write this week.

Anyways I hope you are enjoying my story, and I hope you know that I am not taking this story lightly!

I know self harm is very dangerous and one of the reasons that I am writing this story is to prove that fact!

Anyways please review!

Thanks,

Mady