Spencer's POV:

1 week of no eating and cutting turned into 2 weeks.

2 weeks turned into 1 month.

1 month turned into 2 months

2 months turned into 3.

And now here we are, it has been 4 months since I found my escape.

Let me catch you up on what happened during these 4 months…

Me and the girls are on civil terms, although I try my hardest to keep my distance from them, I have been rather distant from Toby due to him suspecting that something is up, my family still continues to toucher and harass me, and as of now I probably have a total of 200 cuts on my thighs and wrists.

I wake up on a sunny tuesday morning and start to get ready for school but when I get up I immediately fall back down, almost passing out, this is due to being famished. When I fell down something displeased me, I heard myself fall, so I run to the bathroom to check my weight. When I hop up onto my scale I see I weight 18 pounds! That is one more pound then I did last week, I am getting fatter! In horror I jump off the scale and run over to the toilet and continuously shove my fingers down my throat, hoping this will make me lose at least 2 pounds!

After I finish purging I decided I should get ready for school so I go and throw my favorite shirt on…

I love the way that sounds 'my favorite shirt' .

I remember when I used to actually have things like favorite shirts.

I remember my innocence.

Oh silly girl, Spencer, none of these things matter anymore.

When I am almost finished getting dressed I hear my phone ring, I look at the caller ID and smile at who it is, I quickly click 'accept'.

"Hi,' I say quietly, excited to hear his voice.

"Hey baby, do you want to ditch school today and come over?" I hear the hope in Toby's voice as he asks me this question.

"I- I would love to!" I say hesitantly at first but I am glad when I finally agree.

"Great, should I come pick you up?" Toby asks me, I can hear the smile in his voice.

"Umm I am actually in my car right now so I can drive," I tell him, just to save him the trip over here.

"Okay see you soon Spence, love you!" Toby tells me.

"Love you too," I say as I hang up.

I was about to walk out the door but when I walk past a mirror I notice an almost fatal mistake, you can clearly see my ribs through my shirt! I dart back into my closet and quickly tear off that shirt and replace it when a larger shirt that Toby once left at my house, once I am completely positive that you can not notice the difference that has changed me in the past 4 months I run out the door and drive to Toby's loft.

About 5 minutes later I arrive at Toby's loft and when I walk in I smell popcorn cooking, oh no, but before I can even come up with an excuse for why I cant eat I feel Toby wrapping his arms around me.

"I've missed you," I whisper as I burry my head into the crook of Toby's neck, inhaling his scent.

"I've missed you more," he says back as he quickly swipes me off of my feet and carries me into his bedroom.

"Toby put me down right now," I yell half joking and half scared, there is no way he can find out about my little secret and he will defiantly know after he feels how light I am!

"Okay," Toby simply says as he lays me down on his bed and folds the covers over me.

"I will be right back," he informs me as he turns and walks out of his room.

Maybe he did not notice how light I was!

When Toby enters the room again I notice he has a large bowl of popcorn in one hand and a DVD of 'Aladdin' in his other hand. I squeal when I see the movie, Aladdin is one of my favorite disney movies!

"I thought you would like this," Toby says chuckling as he puts the DVD in and then joins me in bed.

When Toby lays beside me I instinctively snuggle up close to him and lay my head on his chest.

About half way through the movie I must have fallen asleep because when I wake up it is already 9 at night, my parents are going to kill me!

"Shit," I growl under my breath as I quickly get up.

"Toby I have to go, but I had a great time today, love you!" I say as I rush outside.

When I get home I walk in the door and see my parents sitting at the counter, they look furious.

Before I can even close the door my father speaks up.

"What the hell is this?" My father booms as he throws a piece of paper at me.

I look at the paper, it is a printed out email from my school notifying my parents of my absence.

"I was at Toby's house today, I'm sorry" I say quietly as I bow my head down.

"So what you are saying is that you ruined your perfect attendance record and shamed the Hastings name just for a trip to you 'good for nothing' boyfriend's house?" My father screams at me.

Before I can even answer my parents begin to leave the room but before they get out the door my mother speaks up, "I ban you from seeing Toby," she says simply as she leaves the room.

Thats when I can take no more, Toby is my reason to live, without him I should die, and that is exactly what I am going to do. I quickly grab the largest butcher's knife I can find, I grab it and I run up to my room. When I am in my room I sit at my desk and I press the record button on my phone.

"Hello I am Spencer Hastings and I am killing myself tonight, I recently got the news that I am ban from seeing my everything so I have no reason to live anymore, goodbye. Oh and Toby, baby I love you so much never forget that." That is all I manage to get out in between sobs before I run into the bathroom and fall down on the floor. I am about to plunge the knife in my chest when I hear a gasp coming from the doorway.

Toby's POV

Spencer had left about 15 minutes ago, leaving me alone to think about today.

Today was great but I really am worried about spencer, I think something is seriously wrong, when I picked her up today she literally felt like she weighed 2 pounds! I suddenly get a bad feeling so I run out the door and speed over to Spencer's house. When I arrive at the Hasting's residence I see that every light is off except for Spencer's so I quietly unlock the front door with the key Spencer gave me and I tip toe up to her room.

When I get into Spencer's room I hear sobbing coming from her bathroom so I quickly run into the room without hesitation, what I see shocks me. I see my beautiful girlfriend crouched down on the ground with a knife to her chest.

"Spencer!" I gasp as I run and knock the knife out of her hand.

A/N: Hey everyone!

I have a few exciting things to tell you:

1) I upgraded my iphone 4s and now I have the 5c Yay!

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~ Mady