I know, that is a very very tiny one chapter, you could call it a chappie if you like ;) i just wanted to get you into Elena's head and I wanted it to be brief! So read it or chew it, whatever! But again it is important, tiny but important, here you go…

Chapter 9: He who is with no sin, judge her!

Life is just a bunch of choices. And the choices we make control everything, our present, our future and our destiny. Our choices define who we are, I believe in that. It doesn't mean that good people only make good choices; we all make mistakes after all.

But then, there comes a moment in your life, you find yourself standing in a crossroad. It is either one path or the other one, there is no third door. And there is no going back.

In that defining moment of my life, I find myself choosing to take both paths. Even though I know it can't end well, that I will be hurting people that I care about. And I by no means am considering myself the innocent victim of that story.

I am showered and dressed in a nightgown. The stuff won't be here tonight. It is Friday. I lay in my bed eyes wide open unable to sleep, again. I have been staring at the ceiling for hours now.

I know who I am.

I get up and head for the kitchen to prepare dinner.

My name is Elena Grey. I run a company in the age of twenty-three.

I hear the door opens. It must be Christian back from work. I beat the eggs harder.

I am married to a sweet rich businessman and I love him.

I feel Christian coming behind me. He wraps his arms around me like he always does.

I am having an affair with a blue-eyed surgeon who gets under my skin and I can't shake him.

Christian starts kissing my neck.

They are both good men.

I lean into his arms and tilt my neck giving him better access.

I am hurting them both, playing them both.

He nibbles on a secret spot behind my ear he knows too well.

There is no winner in this game.

I moan and I am not faking it.

I am not a good person. I am the villain of my own story.

So far that chapter was supposed to include a flashback of Elena/Chris first night together but then I thought of how much writing smut actually takes out of me! and I decides that as long as not EVERYONE wants it and it is not important for the storyline (as you know by hints in this chapter that Chris just fucked Elena in their kitchen!) then I am not obliged to write any non-Delena smut, that is besides the little DE fangirl inside me scolding me for letting anyone but Damon touches Elena's..uh…purse?

The cool people who loved the spn reference, guess what? There will be lots of that in this story, I love this show! *Deangirl*

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