Toby's POV:

It has now been about 3 hours since I found Spencer in her room, about to kill herself.

It has now been about 3 hours since my life could have changed for the worst.

It has now been about 3 hours since my life almost changed for the worst.

3 hours ago I almost lost Spencer, forever, but now here we are laying in my bed.

I cant sleep although it is 2am and I am feeling quite tired, just knowing that 3 hours ago Spencer could have died terrifies me. I doubt Spencer can sleep either but I am scared to check because if she is asleep, I don't want to wake her up.

The thought of my baby laying right next to me yet still suffering sickens me so I finally work up the strength to check to see if she is awake.

"You awake?" I whisper loud enough for her to hear if she is awake but quiet enough to not wake her up if she is asleep.

"Yea," she whispers in response, I hear the sadness in her voice.

She seems calm so I decide now is the time to ask the question that I have been wanting to ask the whole night "do you want to talk about this baby?" I ask Spencer.

"It's a really long story and I don't want to bother you," Spencer says almost shamefully as she rolls over to face me.

"Spencer I love you and nothing you do will ever bother me! Plus I need to know the story before I can help you." I tell Spencer as I pull her in closer to me.

"Okay I will tell you but it's too dark in here can we go out to the living room?" Spencer asked me as she looked around the room.

"Sure," I said as I quickly picked her up bridal style and walked her to the couch in the living room.

"Ok before I start please just let me tell my full story first with no interruptions," Spencer stated making sure she made eye contact with me.

I nodded, letting her know I would not interrupt her

"It all started when I got a bad grade on my algebra test, my family found out and told me I was a mistake and I should be more like Melissa. I handled that pretty well and I didn't start punishing myself then but when I started to lose sleep because of them, thats when it got bad. I would stay up all night crying because of what they said to me so when I had another test a few weeks after my algebra one, I got a bad grade on that one as well. My family found out and harassed me even more but I just couldn't take it so that is when I turned to cutting and not eating. I went to school the next day and me and the girls got into a fight so my first instinct was to call you. When you picked me up and offered me dinner I knew I couldn't turn you down because I knew you would know something was up, so I forced myself to eat. When I got home that night it was past my curfew and my parents were furious so my dad decided the only way to find out where I was, was to slam me up against a wall and hold my wrists as tight as he could. When I told them that I was with you they called you horrible things and they even told me I was fat, so that night I turned to purging as an escape. These events continued for about 4 months, so for 4 months my only escape was by self harm, anyways what happened today was my parents found out that I had skipped school to be with you and they were beyond furious, they were so mad that they ban me from seeing you! Toby you are the only good thing in my life so when I heard my mom say that I could never see you again, I had no reason to live! I had nothing in my life that I cared about anymore so I grabbed the sharpest knife I could find and I ran up to my room. You know what comes next."

Once Spencer had completed her story she was sobbing so hard that she was shaking, so I pulled her close and held her until she calmed down.

Spencer had calmed down about 30 minutes later so I took her calmness as an opportunity to ask her a question.

"Spencer when I pick you up, you are literally as light as a feather! How much do you weigh, if you don't mind me asking?" I asked Spencer as I squeezed her hand to try to comfort her.

"Last time I checked I weighed about 18 pounds," Spencer told me as she looked down at the couch, clearly scared to make eye contact.

"Baby you need to eat, please let me cook you something." I begged Spencer, there is no way that she could continue to live like this!

"Honestly I would love something to eat, how about some pancakes?" Spencer asked with a small grin on her face.

"Anything for you my love," I said smiling as I got up off the couch and walked into the kitchen.

About 15 minutes later the pancakes were done and I was now sitting next to Spencer waiting for her to take a bite into the pancakes. I saw the hesitation in Spencer's eyes as she raised the fork and began to put a small piece of cut up pancake into her mouth.

"You can do it baby," I said gently letting her know that I would always support her.

"This tastes amazing, thank you Toby." Spencer said sincerely as she began to quickly eat the rest of the pancake.

"Your welcome, just let me know if you want more," I told Spencer as I watched her eat the pancake, this made me smile.

A few minutes had passed and I was walking into the kitchen to get Spencer more pancakes when I heard the sound of Spencer quickly running into my room. I had no clue what was happening so I quickly followed her into my room. When I entered my room I couldn't find Spencer anywhere but I soon realized where she went when I heard vomiting sounds coming from inside of my bathroom. I rushed into the bathroom to see Spencer leaning over the toilet throwing up all of the food she had just eaten. I soon realized that this time she was not forcing the food out, it was just coming out, so I ran over to her and held her hair as the rest of her stomach emptied itself.

After Spencer was done throwing up she fell back into my arms and started to cry.

"Toby I didn't force this I swear! My stomach is just not used to the food anymore!" Spencer cried into my chest as I rocked her back and forth.

"I know baby, I know. We just need to take baby steps for now." I told her as I kissed the top of her head, in attempt to calm her down.

A/N:

Hey guys! I don't really have much to say the the end of this chapter so umm yea!

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