Sayaka Fujino always looked forward the day when Shizuru will bring home her lover, her precious half, the mother of her children, her daughter-in-law. Of course, in her mind, there was a person who perfectly feat that position: Natsuki Kruger. She always loved that bright and honest woman. Natsuki was her daughter's best and childhood friend, the only one who did not care about her name or money. She also was a hardworking person, with a kind heart, she is polite and smiled a lot. She was perfect. Sayaka only wanted those two soulmates to be together, she did not care if she was a woman. It mattered to her was her happiness, she had a good job, a nice house, a cat but not a person who shared her everyday life. Except Natsuki, but they only showed friendship even if she noticed very well there was more from both of side. Everybody realized something going on, contrary to the protagonist…
It was complicated when Shizuru was born, she did not imagine that her daughter was different from the other, the doctor called her an intersex, it was so frightening to discover her baby was not like others, she had both feminine and male genitals. She was thinking it was her fault if her child was this way, she felt guilty, she did not know if it was a wise choice not to operate her child when she was young. She wanted Shizuru to choose what she wanted to be, a man or a woman or still the way she was now. Shizuru was on her own world, she was afraid someone around her discover her secret. And there was this brunette, she followed everywhere Shizuru, she remembered when she said she will be Shizuru wife when they grow up and she directly asked Sayaka her daughter's hand, it was so cute, and the mother knew it was not childish words. Shizuru did not listen to these words but she felt for her best friend when she became maturer and quieter. She worked hard and became a successful lawyer.
"What did you do?" Sayaka growled, her daughter jumped and seemed lost.
"What do you mean by what did I do?" The tea drinker asked back, she disliked when her mother was so noisy.
"Don't play dumb, I see that you hurt my poor Natsuki. She was clearly upset."
"I did not hurt her! Never! Did you not notice it's me who are hurt?" Sayaka sighed, her daughter was so ignorant.
"Yes, why did you faint? Because of your work?" Shizuru turned her head. She was not anymore, a child, she did not need to justify herself, she crossed her arms.
"You and your father drive me crazy, exactly the same behavior, poor Natsuki."
"Poor Natsuki, poor Natsuki, if you prefer her more than me, you can go with her, aaah… mother…" The Kyoto-Ben beauty shouted when her mother pulled her ear.
"I like you both and you are annoying when you want, I love you and I consider Natsuki like my other daughter, you prefer that I hate her?" The ruby-eyed judge bit her lips.
"No, of course not. I was stupid, it just… I am tired and… it's complicated… everything is complicated…" Concerned, Sayaka sat next to her daughter, she was not the person who easily confess her feelings, she simply waited that she took her time.
"I… love her."
"I know."
"I'm in love with her mother."
"I know. I'm not blind contrary to what you think. The way you look at her, your smile, your touch and more." Sayaka insisted, she held her daughter's hand and squeezed it.
"Sometimes, I want to be normal…"
"But you are darling."
"Mother, I'm an intersex, neither a girl nor a man. I am far than normal."
"But you still Shizuru, my daughter, an excellent judge, with a good heart but your fear makes you hurt your precious person." Shizuru closed her eyes, she wanted to cry, she was fed up with her life. People thought she was happy, but she was not. Her secret killed her, she wanted to be sincere with Natsuki, nevertheless, she was so afraid to lose her or to make a mistake that made her run away. She preferred her on her side as a best friend and family than to not have her at all.
"I dream of her."
"Hmm…" Sayaka smirked. "An erotic dream like you were a teenager? Ooh Natsuki… I need you… oooh… I love you so much… ooooh… Natsuki… oooh… " Shizuru furiously blushed.
"Mother!"
"What? When I wake you up, you were embarrassed about your erection. But it's normal at your age and even now to have need. And Natsuki is an attractive woman. Did you two… have… you know… be touchy?"
"Mother! No!" Shizuru hid her burning face behind her hands.
"How it will happen when you have sex… will you faint when you see your goddess naked? Oh, right, that's already happened when you were younger."
"Stop it!"
"Ok, ok but if you continue to push her away, she won't stay to your side. She never left you, she was always there for you, she could marry someone and have her own family, but she is here, with you Shizuru. Don't push her away from you or you will regret all your life. She is the best for you." Shizuru laid on her bed, she did not want to listen more. Yes, she already knew all of this, but her fears were stronger than her love, and in this state, Natsuki deserved better than that.
"Kannin na... I have a headache, I will take a nap mother."
"Alright, I will let you alone for once, but don't forget what I say. There is one first love and you still have her, don't mess up Shizuru. I am sure Natsuki will never reject you. She is not like that. But if you continue to push her away, she will really go."
"…"