It was 10 am. Natsuki was inside a bar. She ordered a drink and sighed. It was such a mess her relationship with Shizuru, she needed to stay away from her, her heart was so broken, again, again and again.
"Already drinking this early in the morning, isn't it bad for you?" The lawyer sipped a bit of her drink and shrugged.
"It's my day off. I can do what I want. You are not the police. And I am an grow up adult. How did you know I was there?" Kruger asked, she watched Shizuru's mother sitting in her side, she ordered the same drink as Natsuki.
"I know you so well Natsuki, you are like my second daughter, so what happened with my daughter? Don't say anything, I won't believe you."
"For Shizuru… I am a black widow…" Sayaka frowned for two reasons, the drink was not alcohol, it was simply an apple juice, and it was a good thing… and the comment was strange.
"What do you mean by… a black window? I don't understand you…"
"That's I want to have sex with her to have a baby and next, eat her that how I understand her hidden fears, she is afraid of me."
"What? She said that… that brat!" Fujino mother snapped.
"No, yes… kind of… yesterday, I tell her I want a baby, I know in my soul I want one. I said I was ready to have an insemination if I could not have my first option, she was speechless and surprised. But I love children, I always do."
"I know sweetie, I see you with your cousin, it's so cute. You will be a good mother, you are so kind."
"Thank you, and I am no longer young, thirty-three years old and soon more… I tell her I know her secret, her hidden particularity, the way she was born… with that extra part, I asked to be the other parent of my child, our child."
"Really?" Sayaka was so happy about this news, she hugged Natsuki. She will finally be a grandmother, one of her dreams will be true but she realized it was not how it supposed to be.
"She fainted when you asked her? That's the reason she was at the hospital and you were annoyed?" Kruger bit her lower lips, it was so humiliating. She simply shook her head. But she did not expect what happened next, Mrs. Fujno heartily laughed.
"Gosh, this girl is like her father. I pity you Natsuki. My husband Yuno, when I told him I was pregnant of Shizuru, he also faint. Genetics… and stupidity… he said he was so happy, and all the emotions he could not contain." Kruger did not smile, she was tired with all this situation. She pinched her nose.
"I don't know, I'm not sure it's not the same circumstance, I could not tell her what happen was really true, she was so shocked I know about her penis… I tried to be a good friend, to listen to her, to be always to her side, I waited all theses years she confesses that she is an intersex. I let some clue that I don't care, I never judge people, but she stays silent. She doesn't love like I do. I'm done waiting for her. I tried all these years to be by her side, I never had a serious relationship because I was in love with her, I tried to listen to her, to help her with her … relationship… the girls she liked even if it hurt me. The worst, it was that she did not trust me with her secret, I did my best to be compassionate, I tell her I will accept everything from her, I said I love her, she is perfect for me, even if she had flaws, and she had like any other human being, I will always love her and she did not understand my words or she turn a blind eye.
"She loves you, I know for sure." Sayaka tried to reason Natsuki.
"Saya, I know she likes me, but not love me the way I do, I was with men and women to make her jealous, to make her look at my side, she even pushed me to that man… I wanted to confess my love for her, I already did it, but she did not understand me, she pushes me away or joked… I'm fed up, I give up, it hurt me so much… all this time and … and… I don't want to stay this way… I am sorry, but I need to break free from her…" Natsuki began to sob, Sayaka hugged Natsuki, she was hurt to see her this way, her daughter was stubborn, she will lose forever this perfect person. She did not want to intervene, but she had no choice if let the situation continued, the two will be separate forever. Shizuru needed to see that she can't live without Natsuki, and if she continued to push her away, she can't have the right to complain or depress. She was not the only one to suffer.