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Natsuki was sighing, she looked at her phone. Ten missing calls, all from Shizuru… yes, she was avoiding her from her. It was not easy to give false excuses and to forget. She read the message instead.
-Hey, Natsuki…are you busy today? Do you want to eat something tonight? It's for me.
-Please answer me even if it's a no… I won't mind you…
-Did I do something wrong? Why are you avoiding me? Is it because of me reaction about your baby? I am sorry, I was shocked, but I am happy for you. I care for you…
-I miss you, please… don't let me…
"-Damn it! Why are you doing that to me Shizuru! What did I wrong? Except loving you? It was probably my worst mistake in my life. I hate you! You make me so pathetic…" Kruger threw her phone on the floor, she could not bear anymore. There were too much in her heart, suffering, pain, anger…
She was fed up to play this horrible little game… she struggled with the lies and truths and she was lost. If she was honest, it could be having worst consequence, but when she continued to lie, it was slowly killing her sanity. So, she had to choose her or herself… and she was stupid as usual.
She was fighting alone and in silence. She wanted to leave everything behind her. She touched her tummy, she hoped Shizuru would come back to her sense, so she won't continue to lie.
But due to her sickness, it made her so vulnerable and she could have seizures in any moment. Yes, Natsuki knew about the brain tumor, she knew it few weeks ago. Again, her best friend lost her memories, and more. They lost so much.
Of course, she could not disclose their moments together, their real relationship, her doctor warned about her serious condition, a shock could have prejudiced on Viola's health. And it happened.
Because they fought about her need to have a baby, Shizuru snapped, saying she was not sure to be fertile and if it was the case, she won't let her child have a parent like her, and it will be unbearable if her own children were like her. She was living in a difficult position every day, she was not a woman nor a man. She could not have a normal school day, she always hid herself, afraid we discover her abnormality. And they broke up even if they were married for one year. And when they fought, Natsuki discovered her wife cheated with some random woman on a bar, the brunette was heartbroken, and she left their house, she could not bear anymore, she wanted to leave her forever, after, they signed the paper for their divorce, they could have separate ways but the hospital called few days later and the news about the brain tumor was revealed.
Today, she was a prisoner in the past, she wanted to escape from a terrible fate that was linked to the judge. The latter seemed to forget everything that bothered her, their marriage, her need to have a family, her cheating… their constant arguing… why it was so easier for her? She had to fake everything when she was with her. Unlike her 'friend', she could not get rid of painful memories, they kept tormenting her daily.
The brunette clenched her fists.
No, that selfish woman did not change even if she looked like the person she felt in love years ago, kind, preoccupied with her well-been, that she only loved her.
Viola was always busy with her work, she was always outside with some meeting, the lawyer with green-eyed was neglected for several months, not a single attention, only solitude. And when her wife came back home, she did not care about her. She was living with a perfect stranger…
Kruger watched her gold ring, she did not want to make the same mistakes again, she had to turn the page. Shizuru was horrible the last time they fight, she threw her ring on the toilet and left while she was crying. She won't fall on her trap. Sickness or not, she will be only at her side like a friend, but when she is cured, she will disappear. Of course, her mother-in-law knew everything. She tried to make them make up, nevertheless, it was useless. Something was broken, and to fix it… was impossible…
Natsuki remembered when she said to Shizuru how she will react if she had a baby, and she wanted her to have an abortion. It was that moment she realized she did not want to live anymore with that person. And the cheating part was the last straw. No, the baby she had was from Shizuru, it was only her child. They slept together because of a drunk mistake. She will keep that secret from that stranger. She could not forgive her…
"Natsuki. It's me Shizuru. Could you open the door? I know you are here, I saw the light and your coworker said that you are at home." The named heard a knock on her door and a little voice, she did not know if she should hate or care about her ex-wife. Now, she had to wear a mask, as if nothing happened between them, that they were the only best friend. Who would be imagining it will be her to fake her smile? Who played someone that she was not anymore?