For those who are worried, it will be ShizNat in the end.

Shizuru jumped from her bed, she was sweating a lot and she strongly breathed. What was that? A dream? A nightmare? A memory? She did not know…everything was mixed in her mind. She tried to get up from her bed, she was so weak, her stomach was hurting too, she moaned in pain. The treatment was a torture. She could not run to the toilet. She began to crawl on her bed, and then fell to the ground, she screamed in pain.

Her hands vigorously were shaking like her mind. She did not know what reality, or the consequence of her sickness is. She needed to find the truth.

She called the only person who is obliged to be honest with her, her own mother.

One hour later.

Sayaka almost ran to see her daughter, Shizuru was in alarmed state, she was sobbing and saying nonsense words. That she deserved to die, she was a bad person, that's she had to finish with everything, nobody will care if a monster like her died.

Sayaka frankly knocked the door and hoped that she was not too late. It took few minutes for Shizuru to open. Sayaka put her hand on her mouth. She did not see her daughter for a week, and now, she was totally a different person. She was so skinny; her skin was pale and her eyes so thin. She was no longer paying attention to her physical appearance. She wore an old long shirt. She did not comb her messy hair…she seemed to have less than before…

"Is Natsuki my wife?" Viola said.

"What are you talking about?" Sayaka asked worried. She was more afraid that her daughter fainted. She seemed so weak…

"I don't know if I am becoming crazy, but I have some sort of flask-back, I don't if they are real or not, but you need to tell me the truth. I need to know, or I don't know what I will do." Viola's mother held her daughter's hand and squeezed it. She helped her to sit on the couch.

"Is it your brain tumor? Is there a complication? Do you want to go to the hospital?" Shizuru was shocked about the answer she received. How did she know? Her mother sniffed.

"What?I don't have a brain-"

"Don't try to deny it Shizuru! I know you are sick even if you are trying to hide it all these weeks. Natsuki also knows it. You can't fool us anymore. You already fainted and went to the emergency room and the doctor tells us the truth when he made a checkup. You can't hide it anymore." Shizuru touched her burning head. It was as if it will explode. She weakly stood up and searched on her purse her medicine. Sayaka saw everything, she went to bring water and gave it to her daughter. Shizuru was crying. It was not because of the pain but what she dreamed.

"I almost raped Natsuki… I was so angry and for no reason… How could she stay near me? I disgusted myself!"

"It's not true, you will never do that to her."

"How could you be so sure? I don't even know if you are here or not, or you are a fruit of my imagination. That thing in my head destroyed everything! My sanity! My life! Me and more importantly my Natsuki! Perhaps I did it! It's horrible! I am horrible! I hurt her… I hurt her so much… I want to protect her, but I did not realize it was from myself…" The judge lowered her head, she hit herself with her fists, again and again and again. She preferred to die than hurting her precious person, the love of her life. Sickness or not, she will never forgive herself if everything was reality. Sayaka caught her daughter's wrists. She could not bear to see her this way. She had to tell the truth, even if her doctor advised against it. But missing a big part off her life was probably worse to Shizuru.

"No, you are not married to Natsuki but yes, you divorce her few months ago…" The red-eyed beauty hiccupped. So Natsuki was hers and she knew about her male part condition and she still wanted her? She did not even remember their wedding. Their life together, how they start to dating…it was as if she lost all her important moment, her past life. It was horrible. Everything was erased.

"Few months ago? How many months?"

"…"

"HOW MANY MONTHS!" Shizuru angryly shouted.

"Five months."

"Five months? How could it be possible? I don't even remember… Did I cheat her? Is that why we divorce? How could you do that? I love her so much… I could sacrifice everything for her… she is my everything… my air, my heart and soul. She accepted who I am when I can't entirely love myself, and she did. She makes me normal and unique." Sayaka cried, it was exactly the vow she pronounced during the wedding, but the red-eyed beauty did not realize herself.

"No, never, you only have her on your heart… but I suppose when you discover about your brain tumor, you were afraid that she pities you or she will take care of you… you are a proud and stubborn woman. You did not want to be weak in front of the person you love. You stay away from her, you said that you don't love her anymore and you want a divorce and you love somebody else, that other woman who doesn't even exist… but all this was a lie from your part. You only care about her and nobody else. You told me everything when you got drunk after you sign the paper divorce. You only hurt her when you push her away. And I assure you that you never hit her or try to assault her, never. Also, you know Natsuki, she won't stay with you now if you did."

"I am not sure mother, when I witness what I did, I did not even recognize myself. It was as if someone takes my place and I could not do anything to prevent that tragedy. So why she stays on my side? I hurt her so much! I deserve to be alone and not have her! I should not live and fight. I am done." The judge threw all the pills on the floor, she will stop her treatment. She will stop everything. She wanted to fight for Natsuki, but now, it is better to stop it.

"What are you doing Shizuru? What do you mean by you should stop and stop living and fighting! It's nonsense!" Sayaka roared.

"Leave my home and leave me alone!" Viola went to her room and slammed the door, she locked herself. She sat against the door and cry.