I was still in my husband's embrace for quite awhile after Cordelia walked out on us.It was quiet until I heard yelling coming from my sister and SLAP in the other room. I lifted my head from Claude's lean but muscular chest in order to hear what was going on. Then , I heard ayato crying out .
I let go of Claude and quickly walked out the door to the sight of ayato on the the floor with a big red and somewhat brown mark on his left cheek and tears running down his face .
Once, I saw that my motherly side kicked in and picked him up and cradled him against my breast and laid his head on my shoulder.
I didn't understand why she would do that to her own child.I would give anything to have what she has right now. CHILDREN.
I was expecting twins around the same time Cordelia was expecting her triplets, but I went to labor way to early.
My personal doctor told me that was highly dangerous even for a demon child,that the majority of their fate is death.The reason why was because both were to small and frail to be out of my womb but I had no choice.
Since after them,I would not be able to have anymore children.
Before I conceived, Claude and I tried multiple times but nothing happened until I was told by my doctor because of the way my uterus is in a dangerous lop-sided position, it causes the fetus to die instantly or were to suffer a miscarriage a week or three later.
Apparently with them , I was lucky to have them alive for awhile, but when the time came for them to come out.They were stillborn when I gave birth to them,I cried over the death of my two little girls. That was the reason why didn't go visit my sister when she gave birth to her sons.
I was in Depression for a long time even Claude could not get me out of that state.Over the death of my children and of the thought that Claude would leave me for another woman to bear him children because that what happened to my mother, my real father abandoned her,because she couldn't have anymore children after me .
But she then later on , she remarried the demon lord and he had a newborn daughter, Cordelia, her mother passed away from a disease called Endzeit after she was born.
But Claude tried to calm me down so many times, but when I did, it was only because I was tired of crying my eyes out and then would pass out a minute later on his chest. Asleep.
When, I got up from the ground with ayato in my embrace. I walked back into the living quarters where Claude was and sat next to him.
I put full attention on ayato who was still sobbing into my shoulder, luckily his legs were small enough for me to wrap around my waist . I gently lifted his head up and wiped his tears away. He laid his head back down so I sung him a lullaby even though it was meant for a girl but, it worked .
He fell asleep after ,I sung it to him, so to keep him warm and co,I wrapped my cape around his small body and left him on my torso and I played with his bright red, silky hair.
But later on, I have to see on how she treats her other two boys, because just looking at ayato, he is living a life that no child should endure. DESPAIR. Of not having a unconditional love of a parent.
No child should feel like how I did,when I was young.
ABANDONED
