Alana POV.

I blush as Blake catches my blue eyes, blue on hazel.

I quickly shake my head guilt washing over my body, I can't like a guy who has some girlfriend!

Plus Sadie is gorgeous and kind, I really want to be friends with her and making eyes at her boyfriend isn't going to help.

My heart feels so low and heavy, my body feels numb and empty.

I'm the most selfish girl in the world, I had Blake then I lost him and now Sadie has him I can't stand in the way of true love.

But that doesn't stop me from wishing Blake and Sadie weren't together. I'm so horrible I should be happy for them!

What am I going to do?

I feel tears sting my bright baby blue eyes, why do I always fall for the wrong guy.

My dad was a screw up too Xavier, that's all I know his name is Xavier he use to beat my mum! Then Mum left and met my step-dad then came along my two half-sisters Silver and Princess.

From the moment I was convinced I must of been destined for failure being born into a abusive family, my mum resents me because of my dad, apparently I have his expressions sometimes.

I don't mean to! I DON'T WANT HIM TO BE MY DAD! But I can't change who I am. Trust me if could I would.

Why would I want to be some blonde ditz? I'm never going to get into collage I'm just some stupid girl who knows nothing.

I quickly rush to the bathroom, I feel tears falling down my face rapidly.

The bell rings for class.

I turn the tap on and wash my face before applying foundation, eyebrow pencil, blusher and mascara.

I grab my backpack and walk to science, I open the door.

"Sorry" I mutter before rushing to my seat.

"Are you okay?" Blake asks giving me butterflies.

"Fine" I say curtly before flicking my hair "Thanks for asking" I mumble.

The lesson is a blur, a painfully long blur.

The bell goes making me sigh loudly in relief, I collect my book and grab my backpack quickly leaving class.

I feel someone grab my arm making me turn around.

"I know your not okay"

I raise my eyebrows giving my ex boyfriend an icy glare "How do you know?! And why do you care?!"

"Alana You were my first that's special to me, your special to me!"

I scoff tears welling up "Yeah I'm so special that you CHEATED On me!"

"I was stupid back! I've changed" Blake defends his vibrant hazel orbs on my blue ones.

"Yes you have" I say before my voice going wobbly "And that's my problem"

"What do you mean?"

I laugh before taking a shaky breathe "I still have feelings for you"

Blake glares at me "You have no right telling me that you have feelings for me! I'm with someone ELSE and I'm HAPPY!"

I nod tears falling down my face "I know and I love Sadie, I'm really sorry" I say before running down the hallway tears dripping down my face.

I hiccup between tears "I'm an idiot" I sink down the brick wall sobbing clutching my bag.

I stand up pacing around.

What am I going to do?!

I just lost two friends; Sadie and Blake.

"I didn't mean to yell" A voice says making me wipe my cheeks and turn around.

"Your right I have no right telling you that"

"So why did you?" He asks coming closer.

"Because you were the only good thing in my life before we broke up"

Blake shakes his head "Alana I love Sadie!"

I nod feeling a lump in my throat "I understand, I'll just leave you guys alone"

"I want you to be in my life"

I shake my head fresh tears brimming "I can't...It's too painful"

"I understand, but if you ever need someone I'm here"

I nod "Thank you"

"See ya round"

I nod taking in a sharp breath "I never told you something"

Blake frowns "What?"

I shake my head letting out a strangled sob "You'll hate me forever"

"Tell me" He says softly.

"I-I was pregnant...when we...we..we're together" I sink to the floor sobbing "I...l-lost t-the b-baby"

Blakes face darkens "HOW COULD YOU?! I LOST MY BABY! AND YOU DID NOTHING!" He roars making me flinch.

"I'm so sorry" I say my voice broken.

"Never talk to me again!" He says coldly storming away, he punches a locker hardly the noise makes me wince.

I rock myself sobbing "I'm a terrible person, I deserve to die...I should die" I grab my backpack and quickly run out of school, I catch my self on a lamppost sobbing loudly.

I slowly edge towards the Lake, I use to go here when I was a kid with Blake and Lexi.

I let out another sob before taking of my shoes and dropping my backpack, I move a little closer. Each minute before inhaling a deep breath closing my eyes and walking into the lake.

I scream as the ice cold water makes contact with my body, I thrash around before closing my eyes. I feel my lungs burn.

I NEED TO BREATH!

I feel my body growing weaker, my pulse slowly fading I can hear my own heart beating loudly along with the water.

I just hope I'm going to heaven even though I'm such a terrible person. I don't deserve heaven, I'm just like my dad a evil MONSTER!

AN short but dramatic.

Alana is Xaviers daughter.

Will someone save Alana?

And she was pregnant but lost the baby.