Jude was sitting in a chair off near a window watching Taylor carefully as she smiled at Abby on stage singing. Taylor turned and faced him, "What's up Jude?" Jude shrugged, "Nothing. Thanks for bringing me." He smiled even though his older sister could tell he was clearly distracted, "Jude come on, talk to me. Do you want to go home?" Taylor pleaded.
Jude shook his head and tried to focus on the conversation so he would get the attention away from him. Jude had been out of his mind for a few days and it had begun to worry everyone in the house. It had been a week since Stef and Lena's wedding and almost three days since Jude had began to go silent. Stef, Lena and even Callie had agreed it would be good for Jude to go out with Taylor for the night to try and get him to talk but she didn't seem to be getting through to him.
"Jude? Stef and Lena are starting to get worried." Taylor simply stated. Jude looked up at her, "Can I tell you later?" Taylor nodded, "Why don't we go home, no one will be there everyone's out tonight." Jude nodded as he slowly stood up and walked out the door.
"Okay buddy what's up?" Taylor fell onto her bed as Jude stood in the doorway. Jude just stood there frozen, fighting with himself if he should tell his sister what had been going on in his head. He didn't want Callie to be mad, and he didn't want Stef and Lena to decide not to keep him and Callie. "Jude." Taylor's voice broke him from his thoughts.
"You can't tell anyone." Jude whispered before looking down and taking a deep breath. "I...I...I don't think I like girls." He whispered with a tear rolling down his cheek. Taylor slowly took Jude's chin in her head and lifted his head, wiping away the tear. "Taylor, what if Stef and Lena don't love me anymore? I don't want them to send me away. Or what if Jesus and Brandon don't want to be my brothers? And Callie's gonna be so mad at me!" Jude cried. Taylor pulled her younger brother into a hug. "Jude, why did you choose to tell me?" Taylor asked softly as Jude began to control his sobs.
"I...I..You, you know, I trust you Taylor. And you know what its like." Jude whispered wiping tears away from his face. He didn't know how to explain to Taylor that he knew no matter what Taylor and he would stick together for so many reasons. "I'm scared Taylor. I don't know what this means, I'm supposed to like girls and I'm confused." Jude admitted. "And I don't want to leave."
Taylor pulled her brother in for a hug again and released him forcing him to look her in the eyes, "Jude, I like girls, and I'm "supposed" to like boys, Lena and Stef kept me, and look at them, they're gay themselves." Taylor explained this all slowly trying to read Jude to make sure she didn't say anything wrong. "Jude, I love you, and Mariana will always love you, as will Brandon and Jesus, we're your older siblings we just want you to be happy. Stef and Lena are our moms now, they won't get rid of us, as for Callie, does she hate Stef or Lena? Or even me? She's going to love you even if you like boys instead of girls." The words easily slipped out of Taylor's mouth even if a part of her believed Callie would react badly to Jude being gay.
Jude nodded and smiled slightly, "Okay." He sniffled, "Well I like boys, are you sure that everyone's going to be okay with that?" Jude questioned again. There had been times before when he had be hit by his foster parents for not acting the way boys were supposed to and for not being manly enough. He wanted to make sure he wasn't going to screw up this time.
Taylor sighed, "Uh, Jude. I didn't say everyone was going to be with it. Everyone in this house will, we all love you no matter what. But because I know what you're getting yourself into I'm going to warn you now, people in our school they're really stupid sometimes and they're going to try and hurt you. There's a lot of people like them in this world but that's no reason to hide who you are. I will hurt any of them who try and say a word to you about who you are and I'll take any punishment I am given, maybe another detention like last time maybe they'll kick me out of school but I will fight for you. And so won't everyone in this house, so we all love you who you are. Embrace you." Taylor smiled at the ground as she finished her speech, she was still trying to decide if she was going to talk to Stef and Lena or if she was going to keep Jude's secret. "Are you sure that you don't want to tell Stef and Lena? Or maybe Jesus, Mariana, Brandon or Callie?"
Jude shook his head, "I don't want to tell Callie." He whispered, "And not anyone else yet. I don't want to tell any of them, I only trusted you for now Taylor." Taylor nodded, she understood not wanting everyone to know who you were when you had been hurt because of it before. Taylor took a small breath before speaking again, "So who's the boy?" Jude gave her a quizzical look and Taylor laughed, "Who's the lucky boy who you have a crush on? Come on you have to tell me!" Jude just smiled and shook his head no.
Taylor and Jude went downstairs to check Taylor's phone for messages, "Hmmm. Sorry Jude looks like you're stuck with me for the night. Stef texted me saying her and Lena wouldn't be home tonight and all the other kids are at friends houses. Are you alright with that?" Taylor asked Jude looking up from her phone. Jude smiled, "This is gonna be awesome!" He cheered. Taylor smiled and nodded in agreement. "Mind if I call Abby over to cook? Otherwise we may be eating only burnt toast for dinner." Taylor's joke made Jude giggle and run into the living room to find a movie to watch during dinner.
"Hey baby." Taylor greeted Abby as she entered through the back door. "Hello love." Abby replied in greeting. Abby pulled Taylor into a quick kiss before she noticed Jude standing in the dining room doorway grinning from ear to ear. "Hey you, what's up little dude?" Abby smiled walking over to ruffle Jude's hair. Jude shrugged and pulled Abby out to see what he had been his choice for the movie. When Abby returned with the young boy in tow the two explained to Taylor that they had chosen chicken parm for dinner. "Abby said she could cook it." Jude explained. Leaving Abby in the kitchen to cook Jude and Taylor left for the living room.
"What's up Jude?" Taylor asked when he sat down next to her. Jude just snuggled into her shoulder and whispered, barely loud enough to hear, that he wanted to tell Abby. "Okay, whenever you want. And I promise she'll still love you little dude." Jude nodded, "I know that's why I want to tell her."
"Abby?" Jude's small voice made Abby look back towards the kitchen from the window she was looking out, "Yes Jude? Dinner's almost ready." Jude nodded, "Abby, I wanted to tell you because Taylor already knows, I like boys. I'm gay." Abby smiled and hugged the young boy, "Thank you Jude, I was terrified telling people my first time. And I still love you." Jude hugged her back delighted at the record of people who still accepted him. "Dinner time yet?" He asked eargly. Abby nodded, "Yeah it's dinner."
Jude ate his dinner plus Taylor's portion before falling asleep on the living room floor during his movie. Taylor lifted her head off of Abby's shoulder and turned to face her, "Thank you. Jude was terrified earlier when he came out to me. He was afraid no one was going to love him anymore. When you told him that you still loved him it meant everything to him. But there's one thing. He doesn't want me to tell the twins or Brandon. Or Stef and Lena. Or even Callie. He doesn't want them to know but I thought Stef and Lena should know I mean when people start harassing him at school they're gonna need to know why." Abby nodded, "It's up to him to come out but maybe you can hint to them just to be prepared? That way you keep your promise to Jude but keep your head?" Taylor nodded placing her head back on Abby's shoulder.
"Taylor?" Jude's small voice broke the easy silence that had taken over the living room a few hours after he had fallen asleep. "Yes Jude?" Taylor replied sleeply. Jude rolled over to face Abby and Taylor, "You said you had a song that you liked to sing that reminded you of everyone in the house, well what's mine?" Jude asked curiously. Taylor sighed, "Well I haven't changed them lately but for a really long time your song was called temporary home." Jude nodded, "Sing for me?"
Little boy, six years old
A little too used to being alone
Another new mom and dad
Another school, another house that will never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face
This is my temporary home, it's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know
This is my temporary home
Young mom, on her own
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go
She's looking for a job, looking for a way out
'Cause a halfway house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl
"Someday we'll find our place here in this world"
This is our temporary home, it's not where we belong
Windows and rooms that we're passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where we're going
I'm not afraid because I know
This is our temporary home
Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers
"Don't cry for me, I'll see you all someday"
He looks up and says
"I can see God's face"
This is my temporary home, it's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passing through
This was just a stop on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know
This was my temporary home
This is our temporary home
"But you don't have a temporary home anymore." Abby whispered allowing Jude to crawl in between her and Taylor. "Now you have a home. With people love you for who you are." Jude smiled and nodded at Abby before falling asleep with his head in Taylors lap. Taylor yawned and sleepily looked over to Abby, "Thank you. For making him feel so accepted." Jude turned his head and with his eyes still closed whispered, "Thank you."
Authors note:
Hey everyone hope you liked this update! Thank you for all your reviews and I tried to fix the paragraphing but I know it still needs a lot of work! Please review your thoughts on this chapter. Do you think Taylor should tell someone in the house about Jude coming out to her? What about Taylor's engagement? How are Stef and Lena going to accept that? Another chapter soon and as always Thanks!
