A/N and back to a more fitted tone :)

Metal Attraction Encounter with M.E.C.H

Dad and Bee went off on a scouting mission and i went with them, just for the fact that Jacks Mom was visiting a lot lately and personal boundaries felt lost, plus she was asking me a lot of questions and for some reason she must've thought my hair was out of place or something because she was flattening it down with her palm, which messed up my hairs character, so i really needed to get out of there before she bought me a little pink bow.

This time we were in a forest terrain it was pretty hilly and the air was muggy, as we got further up the hilly forest we came in sight of a mountain pass , We were tracking this beacon that may be of Cybertronian origin, but Dad was acting wary.

"Pretty convenient that its right there don't you think?" i said to him.

"Yes, Bumblebee, scout around the back, I'll take the more obvious route if this is a trap, you'll be our trump card." Dad then turned to me. "Remain here where you'll be out of range from danger."

I nodded, and leaned up against a tree as the two of them sped off in different directions.

I caught my breath a bit, muggy weather and hills are my two big no-no's. I tilted my head up as a nice breeze came overhead, i took in the view before me, nothing but forest for miles you could barely see the roads which were engulfed by trees. I then headed to sit on a fallen tree as i could tell they could be a while; i know i wouldn't get bored i could observe the forest for hours.

I then watched a bird nest perched on a tree in front of me, you could hear the baby birds chirping as the Mother and Father bird took turns in finding food, just little things like that gave me peace of mind, it is pretty scarred after all.

I then looked at my phone for the time, "Hmm, no signal, i guess you wouldn't get any up here." i thought.

Twenty minutes had gone by and i had to take my jacket off this air was getting me frustrated, i then looked to the mountain pass, if there was a battle surely i would've heard something by now. It was very quiet, like the calm before the storm.

Then i heard rocks tumbling, maybe a rock slide? But five minutes after that i saw a blue flash, with electricity flowing, Knockout was known to use a weapon like that, but it didn't look like the same sort of charge.

I then knew something was wrong when something tugged on my heart, like a disheartened feeling. For the first time in a long time i was able to feel what Dad was feeling, this probably means something's happened to Bee as Dad is only able to hide his own pain from me not his pain for others especially when there in dire situations.

I then jolted from the log i was sitting on, again i checked my phone for some kind of hope that they'll be a signal...nothing. I can't even contact base, I'll have to check out the situation for myself.

I was then about to run, "you can't help them now." Came a recognizable cold voice.

I whipped my head round to a tree, where a man with a stone cold face came out from, he had a dark look to him and his face occupied a few scars. "There already knocked cold, the both of them." He said casually.

"Your, your Silas aren't you?" i said recognizing the voice as only his.

"Indeed i am." He replied.

"Didn't you get what you wanted when you butchered Breakdown? You're dissecting living beings why can't you see how wrong that is." I said. I watched his footing trying to predict his movement as i tried to figure out a plan of strategy.

He then chuckled and shook his head, "You misjudge my intentions, you see in the end I want all three of you, but the main purpose of this mission was to lure them from you." He said as i had to admit i was confused as i frowned at his comment. "No see, there's this little piece of history i forgot to deal with...i saw your face as i was going through Jackson Darby's social networking page. And it burned into my mind and i had to do a little research, obviously it's been years and you have changed dramatically...but i finally found you." He said with a distasteful smile on his face.

Was he playing with me? My curiosity got the better of me so i had to ask. "What do you mean 'finally' found me?" i asked playing it cool.

"Why...after the incident at the Soccent base, you seemingly just disappeared out of sight i was never able to find you...well until now." He said a bit too pleased. That did it, i had lost my cool now and my strategy, all he had to do was mention that base and I'd instantly change course.

"And what were you doing there? Were you a soldier? A victim?" i asked not to necessarily jump to conclusions.

He then laughed. "You are naive aren't you? I'll spell it out for you." He then cleared his throat. "How's your Mother these days?" he said mockingly.

My eyes widened. "I-It was you..." i said stunned, my instantly became dry.

"Now do you see?" he said calmly.

"It was you!" i said more bitterly this time.

There were always those situations that made you think "I'll do this and I'll do that." I'd have gone over in my head how i would bring that perpetrator down and bring him forward. But then when that time comes you instantly loose all sense of logic or training and go purely by emotion.

I couldn't keep calm now...my face felt boiling and I'd clenched my fist so tight my nails were making my palms bleed, my heart raced and my breathing became heavy as i blindly charged at the man.

"You, Bast-aaard!" i screamed in anguish at him, i didn't know what came over me, maybe instinct i don't know but it was defiantly a different person, someone i didn't like, someone dripping with hate. Instead of my normal style of fighting i just went all out animal on him, about to leap onto his face like our distant cousins.

It was instantly my downfall as Silas with full force punched me in the stomach instantly bringing me to my knees.

"Urgh..." i coughed with blood.

"You are such a kid...when you decide to fight me seriously, abandon all emotion, acclaim selflessness and then maybe you can name yourself an actual opponent for me." He said.

I coughed again as i had gotten a wake up call and again asked questions. "B-But w-why?" i managed to get out with my face on the floor.

"Testing out new weaponry of course, it was near around that time I'd had gotten bored of this...balanced order that our society had been living in. With its...laws and so called peace." He laughed bitterly. "Peace...in this world the term of under government control. I felt like a tool, and so decided to make my own kind of order." He grinned again.

I breathed heavily as i tried to regain as much strength as possible as Silas rambled.

"I knew my way around base, and where they kept there...failed weapons, is there term for weapons that destroy more than one person." He said mockingly. "Those fools weren't capable of ambition just trying to retain the... peace. To me it was a waste and decided to take them as my own...when they seemingly got rid of them. I knew of a few other men who felt as i did they helped me in...Modifying these weapons, see how destructive we can really make them, and test them out." He continued. "And well, I'm sure you know the rest." He said calmly.

"You...you killed hundreds of people j-just for an experiment?" i spat.

"No good testing on just a building...it's got to pay in blood." He said coldly.

I felt sick for his lack of humanity, how could such people exist? I-I really am naive.

"Of course." Silas then said. "It was a complete failure...if you were able to survive." He then pondered. "Next time no one will be spared, thanks to your metal friends." He smiled.

He then kicked me in the face as i lay face down; i then tried to pull my face up to face him.

"And so ends our little tale and i have to get rid of some ancient history." He then pulled out a gun and pointed it at me. "But..." he said lowering his weapon and getting out his radio. "How about a parting gift?"

He then spoke into it. "Is the big subject still immobilized?"

"Yes Silas." Came a voice.

"Good" he smiled. "Await my command." Then he turned his radio off, he then knelt down next to my face. "I think you know where I'm going with this, your final hope that keeps your sanity...you call him your Father?" he said mockingly. "Well, allow me to break that sanity...you need him don't you? And yet something tells me you don't tell him that much, trying to be tough girl are we?" He said in a way you would talk to babies.

"If you put a s-scratch on even his p-paint job..." I wheezed bitterly holding my stomach with my face down.

"You'll what? Fight me like a wild animal again. You have a long way to go before you can make your stand with me." He said with bitter truth, as he kicked me in the stomach again.

"P-Please..." i gasped clawing the ground.

"Hmm?" Silas said.

"you can torture me, you can put me through agonizing pain, even kill me...b-but that amount of pain can't even compare with the pain I'd feel if i lost them, especially him..." i said revealing my face to him as it streamed with tears. "i-its different with them, its not like losing a human being..."

Silas then threw his foot down on my head and held it there, my mouth in contact with the floor, "Your pathetic it's not even laughable." He said coldly. He then reached for his radio again.

My anger rose again as i seized the opportunity to grab his foot that was holding my head down and i didn't take any chances, not while Bee and Dads life hanged in the balance, so i crushed his foot with my hand sneering.

"Arghhhhhhhh!" he yelled clutching what was left of his foot, he then fell on his back.

I then threw myself on his torso "Ahhh!" i yelled as i begun to throw some harsh punches in his face, working my way around his face and torso.

Every punch thrown made me angrier, the thoughts of 'kill' came to mind with every blow my fist bathed in his blood as i couldn't stop myself i then noticed the gun besides him as i stopped throwing punches, i then reached for it as i looked it over like a curious animal then i shoved it deep into his skull, i breathed heavily and aggressively as there was no hesitation in pointing the gun...then he said something that made me think of my own humanity.

"N-No p-please." He said under the bruises, swollen parts and blood. He was trying to shield himself with his shaking hands, clearly I'd done more then what he had expected.

He...was asking for mercy. It was a genuine plea as i know the art of lying myself.

I held the gun there as he cringed in fear, i looked at him...and he looked at me as if he were looking at his worst fear, from my position he looked so...small, then to the side of me with how muggy this place was i saw my reflection in a small puddle, what Silas saw from where he was lying.

I shamed myself as i destroyed the gun in my hand i shut my eyes briefly as i shook my head and then i locked eyes with Silas... all the people he killed, never giving them mercy and now he is the one asking for it?

...fear, a man can do the most terrible things in life but still have a fear of their own demise.

I stood up slowly as i had a blank look on my face, eyes sore from tears, then i suddenly realized something as i grabbed Silas's radio and shoved it in his face. "Call them. Tell them to let them go." I firmly said as i put the radio next to his mouth.

"Silas to Mech, do you copy?" he said as confidence rose in his voice with a tinge of bitterness.

What came back was long silence and that's all i needed.

"You can't keep a hold of Breakdown or Arcee, i had my doubts you'd be able to keep both Dad and Bumblebee down...but it was close and i shouldn't have thought to underestimate you." I said to him looking him over. "Even in your current state."

Knowing Dad was free i decided to look for him before Mech agents come looking for their leader. Silas was silent for once, maybe his ego was damaged or i had noticed he still had somewhat of a human nature to him.

I then jogged off in the direction of the mountain pass then a sharp pain hit me as i instantly slowed down to a walk, the pain from my stomach was still pretty sore as i held it.

"You're not going to kill me?" came a confident sounding Silas though he still sounded breathless, "I'm right here, and you won't kill me." he even laughed knowing now i wouldn't kill him. "Is this to make yourself look better? Well I'll tell you this, your human, like me, an animal, like me, stop lying to yourself in thinking you have some sense of honor, you wanted to kill me i saw that blood lust in your eyes there like mine"

i let my eyes wander to his words, "Killing you in cold blood will do nothing, it would change nothing, neither will it allow me to move on...and it won't bring my mother back." I said solemnly.

"how cliche." he scoffed, I then walked away from him content on leaving him...but i couldn't, not really.

I sighed and looked over my shoulder. Silas was in bad shape, worse than my own, he was wheezing and holding his torso i know the damage i did to him couldn't kill him but still...i...i had to help him...he is a monster in his own right and i could never forgive him...i just can't.

I walked over to his weak husk that lay there, thoughts battling in my mind...but i had to help him...he was still human and a human in pain. I then bent down and put his arm around my shoulder and helped him to his feet. I just had to grin and bear my own pain.

"W-What are you doing?" Silas asked bitterly. "You don't kill me, now instead you're helping me to not slowly bleed to death...how intriguing maybe it's to cease your guilt of the fact the blood that flows from my body is by your hand." He said still trying to mentally injure me.

"Your injuries aren't enough to kill you, so you can stop with the mental guilt tactic." I said as i saw in the distance Dad approach my position if there were ever a heavenly light this was mine, I had totally forgotten all about Silas's presence as i saw that big rig come our way, i was so happy to see him, but...no Bumblebee.

Silas's voice then interrupted that thought "you are entertaining I'll give you that...but your still a child, morals are all good to an extent but what happens when the day comes when you have to decide that killing me is your only option...after all, the human race, your friends, the 'Autobots' are all on M.E.C.H's list."

I was merely silent.

Silas smiled yet again. "And when we finally seize this power." He then had this dark, sinister look in his eyes. "I will make you regret it in having me live!"

It took seconds for dad to reach us as he transformed the fastest I'd ever seen. "Ellen are you alright?" he asked me, it was so nice to hear his voice.

"I'm fine, but Silas..." i said motioning to my side. Dad glared at him but then had a look of...surprise on his face as he looked over his injuries; making the man glare back...he had the nerve, but he was silent from then on, then the sound of helicopters can be heard as a large group of them surrounded us.

"Surrender or we'll open fire." A Mech agent announced.

I thought i might go for a bluff. "You forget i have your leader in my custody!" I called out before putting a hand around his mouth. "In my current mental state, you can't predict what I'll do!" i growled.

Silas then started making muffled cries as he knew i was bluffing though i winced in pain to how much force i had to use in my arms, Dad then transformed as i went over to his cab with Silas closely besides me. I dived into the passenger seat as i let go of Silas, Dad wasted no time in speeding off. Obviously Silas had given the order to open fire but the trees made good cover and it was hard to get an aim on us, i looked in the rear mirror as Mech retreated with Silas...i guess they do care for their leader.

I was flying off the seat; forest getaway isn't the best kind of getaway and my stomach was giving me discomfort, then my heart raced again as Bee wasn't with us. "Dad where's Bee?" i panicked.

"He is fine, far in front of us away from danger" he explained, he then spoke softly. "Just be still, it is over now." He said noticing the state i was in not to mention he saw the state Silas was in too...I'm glad he didn't see me in that blind rage.

I was a mess, i was covered in dirt, my hands mixed with dry blood and fresh blood from my stinging left knuckle, along with my face, i was so tired from the rage and tears, and so sore i wanted to sleep but my aching stomach kept me from doing so.

Then i put my hand to my face, it was wet...with fresh tears, i didn't know i was even crying.

I leaned my head on Dads window as i saw Bee drive alongside us as we came onto a road, he gave a small honk to let me know of his well being, i made a small smile and continued to stare out the window...today i had made an enemy and like it or not with our history together this made me more determined to stop him, i don't want any other families falling victim to him.

He had made me think about what he said; would there really be a time where i would have to kill in order for another to survive? This question has crossed my mind before but i have never been able to answer it, i had hoped it would never come. Then i looked at my hands, killing sails nearly came to pass, but was allowing him to live the right choice after all? Urgh, i don't know anymore.

"Dad?"

"Yes?"

"Is...Killing ever justified?" i asked doubting my comments from before.

Dad was silent for a while before answering, "Do you ask this because of what you fear you might have done to Silas?" he said.

i cringed slightly as he basically knew that i was the source, "He killed my Mom, i can't help but feel regret in having him live." I said sadly.

"Your Mother wouldn't have wanted you to murder another human being for the sake of revenge." He said.

"Still i..."

"Ellen have you ever heard the saying 'an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind'?" he said cutting me off.

I nodded.

"Justice is not about seeking revenge it is about getting the truth; Silas will get his due punishment sooner or later...for he has chosen his path and in the end his worst enemy...is his self." Dad said.

I sighed still thinking about the subject. "But i was really bent on killing him; if he hadn't pleaded for mercy i don't think I'd be able to stop myself." I said.

"I believe you would've even without his pleads." Dad said hopeful.

"I hope your right about me, and i hope never to be in that situation again to find out." I said grimly.

"You went back to aid him." Dad said.

"Well, you know, couldn't just leave him there, could i?" i argued.

"You could have, like many have done so before, but you showed him mercy in helping him." Dad retaliated.

"It's not a big deal." I sighed.

"It is in my optics." He stated firmly. "You have grown Ellen...a bit too quickly for my liking." He said softly.

Dads made comments like this before, but for some reason i started crying again, i rubbed my face with my sleeve. "Oh, why can't i stop crying?" i sobbed.

"Maybe there's something you wish to discuss?" Dad suggested.

I then stopped rubbing my eyes as i remembered something. "Yes. Yes there is. But you need to transform first." I stated.

Immediately he stopped slamming the brakes. "Whoa!" i said holding my stomach. "Yo! I'm in serious pain here!" i yelled, i then got out of his cab slowly as he transformed in the middle of the road.

"Uh, what happened to keeping a low profile?" i pointed out.

"There are no life signals around for miles, no human life signals." He said. "Now...what did you want to say?" I smiled Dad stops all manner of law itself just to listen to me.

"Put your hand down, you need to pick me up." I said.

He did just that as i stood in his hand, he lifted his hand up as i came face to face with him. I then started to cry again but i wasn't sad i was happy; i then did my best to wrap my arms around his neck.

"i-i just w-wanted to s-say that i...love-love you. I just wanted y-you to know that, okay? i k-know i don't say it as often as i should so p-please forgive me, y-your one of the best things that's ever h-happened to me and I'm so lucky to have you!" i sobbed loudly into his chest as my stomach started to hurt again but i didn't care, i then felt his hand cup over my body as i continued to cry.

"Silly girl." Dad simply said before putting his other hand around me.

i tilted my head upwards as i made slight sniffing sounds, "M-My stomach hurts."

"Then i fell down the cliff, and the rubble came down on top of me." Bumblebee said. "So Mech forgot all about me , but i was still online. I was in there for a while until i managed to get myself out. When i found Optimus he was on the ground stunned i think, guarded by many Mech agents, but they seemed restless."

When we got back to base Bumblebee was telling his side of the story, June freaked when she saw the state i was in, as she applied medical treatment i had to tell her a different kind of reason for the blood and mud, so she wouldn't lecture Dad.

"So then i acted as a distraction for the Mech agents, when Optimus came around we swatted them off easily." Bumblebee finished.

"Sounds like you did awesomely Bee!" Raf exclaimed.

"And i missed it! Again!" Miko huffed "then again wait till you here what happened here" she added sneakily.

"Ellen why did you go with them in the first place?" June said with her hands on her hips.

"Well i..." June then started patting my hair down again. "For that very reason." I thought.

"Oh Ellen, you should grow your hair, you'll look lovely with a pony tail." June said.

I felt a cringe come on but repressed it. "E-Er n-no thanks Nurse Darby i like my hair the way it is, practical." I put on my best smile.

"Ellen please don't be so formal, call me June." She smiled.

"O-Okay, e-erm June." I smiled too with a slight blush, i felt mollycoddled.

"Don't do anything extreme for a few days, okay? Just focus on your school work." She told me.

"Okay I'll try, thanks June." I said before slowly making my upstairs to be with the others. When June went other to Dad, miko used this opportunity to shuffle up to me.

"You fell down a hill?" she laughed mockingly. "Now tell me what really happened."

I sighed. "Don't take offense but i don't really feel up to talking about it at the moment Miko, but maybe another time okay?" Miko then slouched over the bars disappointed, i knew she was doing the guilt trip thing but I'll play along anyway.

I sighed and leaned over the railing with her. "I got into a, how you would say 'smack down' with Silas?" I said.

Forgetting Miko was as subtle as a train wreck, i instantly regret the comment. "Wowwwww! Did you kick him in mans greatest flaw? I bet you kicked his ass. Any decent photo shots? Is he like 100 years old? Did he turn out to be a woman, even though he spoke with a man's voice but he could've just been a woman with a man's voice?"

Miko's many questions began to fade away as i thought again about the choices you make in dire situations, i just hope i can make the right ones, and not regret them for the rest of my life. Jack then put a friendly arm around my shoulder, a reminder to me that i really shouldn't think about it too much...at the moment anyway i still have my youth after all and i cant waste it thinking about what may or may not happen, as the saying goes the past is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift...that's why it is called the present, though i have no idea why I'm quoting to myself.

"Ellen! Since you've totally lost all interest in my questions, i challenge you to an arm wrestling competition! No cheating!" Miko exclaimed literally jumping me from my thoughts.

I sighed in a jested manner. "Again? Dude, you have to let it go I'm American, I'm mysterious get over it." i jested.

"Get over yourself." she mocked.

i briefly looked over Jack as he shrugged, "Gotta go defend my place as dominant human again." I joked.

A/N next chapter 'Rock bottom' thinking along the lines of 'Megatron' and 'Ellen' but not sure yet. :) please R+R