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Anakin was at a loss as to what to do in order to get his wife to talk him again. He would do almost anything if she would just look at him, which was something she had not done in two days. The only time she had spoken was to ask him what he was going to do with the bodies and when he informed her he planned to dump them on the nearest planet, or just set them out in to empty space, she had told him that she wanted to have a small funeral service for them. He really had not argued with her because things were tense right now between them. He would let his wife hold a small funeral for the space pirates in the hopes that by doing so she would finally forgive him.

The former Jedi was not going to apologize for his actions because the truth was he wasn't sorry. He had done what was necessary in order to keep his family safe and that is nothing to be sorry for. If he had to do the entire thing over again he would do it exactly the same way. Padme needed to realize that the galaxy was a dangerous place and if you wanted to live, sometimes you needed to do things you may not completely agree with.

Anakin had learned a very long time ago how dangerous this galaxy could be. Having spent most of his childhood on Tatooine as a slave, he understood that life was pain and if you wanted to survive you needed to develop a thick skin or else you would end up like some of the women and children on Tatooine who had not been strong enough to handle the life of a slave and ended up nothing more than bone as they wandered the desert searching for a freedom that would never come. It was kill or be killed these days and he would be damned before he let himself or any member of his family be killed. He'd already lost his mother and he would not suffer another loss like that. He wouldn't be able to handle it without completely losing his mind. Padme and his child were Anakin's only real ties to his humanity and without them he would have no reason to hang on to what little humanity he had left.

He found Padme in their bedchamber sitting on the bed. She wasn't doing anything other than just sitting there looking down at her hands. It was obvious she was lost in thought. He toyed with the idea of leaving her be, but he realized that he needed to speak with her. His plan had been to open up completely about what happened to his mother and why he had reacted as strongly as he had when the space pirate had threatened her. Hopefully after hearing what he had to say she would forgive him, or at the very least if forgiveness was not in the cards, maybe she would at least be able to understand to a certain degree.

"Weeks before my mother died, I was having terrible nightmares about it. I could feel her pain though I had no idea what was causing it." He came to sit down next to her as he spoke. "You went with me when I went back to my home planet to find out how she was. It was when I was watching you because someone was trying to kill you. As it turns out my mother had been sold to a farmer who actually freed her and married her. Anyways, when we finally found them I was told she had been taken by Tuskan Raiders, who are much like space pirates in a way, they take, pillage, and kill without regard. Lars told me point blank that she dead, but I did not believe him because I could feel her presence through the force. I told you to stay while I went to find her."

Padme set her hand over his when he paused for a few seconds and it gave him the strength needed to continue. "When I found her she was still alive, but just barely. She had been beaten among other things and yet she managed to hang on. You once told me it was because she wanted to see me one last time and I like to think that is true. The only peace I get is knowing that she died in my arms knowing she was loved. After she died I was ruled by my rage. I wanted to make the ones who took her hurt as badly as I happened to be hurting and so I killed them, I killed them all. It wasn't just the men either, I slaughtered the women and the children as well. To my way of thinking if they wanted to act like animals then they would die like them as well."

There was another short pause and this time Padme decided to speak. "I am sorry you had to deal with all of that Anakin I really am. Nobody deserves to feel such loss, but why are you telling me this now?"

His eyes closed briefly. "When that thug held the blaster to your head, it was like my mother all over again. You were going to die and there was nothing I would be able to do about it. You have no idea what I felt like knowing this. I cannot even explain it properly. The only thing I can say in my defense is that I lost control because I love you. I could not stand the thought of losing yet another person that I care about. When you told me to let him go, I knew that it was something I could not do. He would have contacted whoever it was that hired him and more would come. It is not possible for me to take back what I did and if I am going to be honest with you, I would not want to take it back. I am sorry though that you were forced to see me lose control in such a manner. I am not perfect Padme and I will be the first to admit that, but I couldn't lose you, I wouldn't be able to carry on if you were taken from me. I won't lose you like I lost my mother, I can't."

Tears started to leak down his cheeks at thoughts of his mother filled his head. Padme wrapped her arms around him and pulled her husband close against her chest. She had never seen him this upset before and while she still did not completely accept what he did but she understood better than she had before. "Oh Ani, nothing is going to happen to me I promise you. It's okay to miss your mother and it is okay to be afraid, it is a part of being human."

TBC…

AN: There were so many ways I could have gone with this chapter, but I liked this way the best. I would love to hear your thoughts on this chapter and what you all thought about it. I need to show that Anakin is still very much human and not a monster though he does have his dark side, but he has his reasons behind everything that he does.

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