Disclaimer: I do not Big Time Rush

Chapter 5 : Found you

I looked up and saw my alarm, 6:00am.

'I can't go to school, i'm in too much pain,` I thought.

I got out of bed (in pain) to the bathroom and went in the shower, I turned on the warm water. I took my my razor and pinned below my ribs.

'Dirty. Hoe. Slut. Worthless. Dirty.` (The words keeped on repeating).

When I was done I counted 20 cuts. I then lift the razor to my wrist,(for the first time)

'Weak.`

With that I cut , it was the deepest I ever did. I got out shower, clean and bandaged my wrist first but blood was sill coming out. I then cleaned and bandage my side (no blood was coming out). I went to my room and put on jeans,a long sleeve shirts ,and sneakers. I looked over at my alarm it said 6:30am. I went down stairs, in a lot of pain. I went outside and just walked. I wanted to clear my mind and get use to pain (again). Atfer a little bit I looked at my phone it said 7:00am. Now I had to decide if I was or wasn't going to school.

'If I don't Kendall, Carlos ,and James would have a panic attack. If I do go to school I would be in pain. How could I change the bandages? What if the boold get on my clothes. I would have to go to hockey practice. The guys could also see my wrist.

I started to feel light headed.

'Maybe i'm losing too much blood.`

That was when I fell. I tryed to get up but pain was running eveywhere in my body.

"Logan can you get up for me?" a voice said.

I looked up and saw Danny. I got to my feet. Danny was watching me. I had trouble standing, Danny grabbed my waist. I put my head on his shoulder, we then started walking.

"Logan why did you leave?" Danny said me.

"What do you mean?" I asked back.

"When I woke you were gone, I looked around the house for you."

"Oh I need to clear my head."

"I thought so."

"Wait how did you know I was in bed with you?"

"About the third or fourth time I realized it was you and not Sara."

"Oh."

"By the way Logan your not going to school today."

"That's ok," I said as we walked in to the house.

Sorry that it was short and a (little) suckish. Thanks for reading!