Dislaimer : I don't own Big Time Rush

Chapter 8: Are you okay?

I pulled up to the diveway grabbed my pack of cigarettes and lighter put them in my pocket and went inside. No one was there. I went to my room that I was sharing with Carlos. I took a shower. I hid my cigarettes and lighter under the bed then when to sleep.

"Logan, wake up son," I hear a vioce. "Come on wake up," it say again.

When I open my eyes I saw Papa. Guit came over, but I don't know why.

"I'm up," I said.

With that Papa left the room with a frown.

"Why isn't he smiling like he always is?` I thought.

I got up and saw that Carlos wasn't in bed.

'Okay that's werid that boy is never up early on the week-end.`

I went down staris to look for Carlos and saw that he was doing homework. I'm betting the one from yesterday. I saw that Mrs Garcia was on the couch also fowning. Not one bit of happness on her face.

"Logan, can you come here?" Papa yelled from the kitten.

I made my way over and saw that he was siting down,

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Logan sit down," Pap told me.

I did as I was told.

"Logan, me and Emily(Mrs Garcia) are worryed about you," Papa told me .

"Wait, why?" I asked.

"Well the whole week you were here you were a little bit sad."

"Ohh. Yea I was a little sad, but i'm better now."

"Are you really?"

"Yea."

"Logan you know you can come and talk to me about anything right?"

"Yea but there is nothing to talk about."

"Well how about why you were sad this whole week?" Papa suggested.

"Well... I don't really know." I was telling the truth.

'I'm telling the truth right?` I asked myself.

"Logan you know i'm a cop,right?" Papa asked

"Yea," I said

"Then why lie to me?"

"It's just that... Nevermind."

"Logan, I here for you and I wouldn't juge."

'Yes you would,` I thought.

"Papa i'll come you you when I really need you. And now I don't" I said trying to get out this conversation.

"You promies?" Papa asked.

"Yes," I lied.

The truth is I would love to tell Papa everything but i'm to weak to. I'm too scared that he'll see me differnt. That everyone will see me differnt. And I work too hard to hide it, so I can get scared and tell everyone my secrets.

"Wait is this way Mrs Garcia fowning too?" I asked Papa.

"Yea."

"I should tell her that i'm ok," I said as I got up.

"Wait eat something first," Papa told me.

Yea i know that was short but the last chapter was Logan needing help and this chapter is the start of poeple noticing it. Thanks for reading!