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I went to the cabinet and got a box of cereal and a blow. I then got a spoon and milk. Once I was finish I put the cereal back and the bowl and spoon in the skin. I walked over to the living room to find Carlos sill doing homework and Mrs Garcia reading a book. I walked up to her and sat down next to her. Mrs G looked up from her book then closed it.

"There's nothing wrong," I lied.

"Are you sure?" Mrs G asked.

"Yup, I think I was having a bad week."

"Is there anything I can do?"

"No, I 'm good, but thanks."

"That's what I'm here for."

"Mrs G you need to smile you look really weird without one."

"You too Logan."

"Well I am going to smile for the rest of the month."

"Me too, then."

I got up and sat down next to Carlos and put on the TV.

'There is never anything good on," I thought as I put on some random show.

I look over at Mrs G and she was reading. I then looked at Carlos and saw that he was drawing.

"Nice picture," I said pointing to it.

Both Carlos and Mrs G looked up at me.

"Dude," Carlos said to me, then looking over at his mom.

"Carlos let me see you paper," Mrs G demanded.

Carlos got up and gave his homework to his mom. Mrs G looked it over.

"Carlos this is your third strike, now your grounded. Go up to your room and only come out to show me or your dad that you finished your homework, go to the bathroom or when we call you down to eat," Mrs G said.

Carlos took back his homework ,and came back to the couch to get his things.

"Carlos I can help you finish it, if you want," I suggest.

Carlos look up at me.

"No, you did enough," Carlos said then walked away.

"Logan you know that Carlos didn't mean that he is mad that he got grounded, you had nothing to do with that," Mrs G said then went back to her book.

'Liar. Carlos getting grounded is all my faut I should have just keep my mouth shut. I could have asked if he needed help, but no I have to nice picture. What's wrong with me?'

I got up and went to 'my' room and saw Carlos sill trying to do his homework.

"I told you that I don't need your help," Carlos sapped at me.

"I'm just going to get my clothes," I said.

I walked to my suitcase backpack thing and frowned when I saw that I only had one outfit left. I grabbed it and when to the bathroom. I turned on the shower, then took of all my clothes. I got in. I let the warm water run all over my body. But I felt guilt.

'No, you did enough. I told that I don't your help.' Carlos words run in my head.

I started to look for a razor but there wasn't any. I turned off the water and got out. I got dressed bushed mt teeth and fixed my hair. I went back to 'my' room grabbed my dirty clothes and put then in my suitcase backpack thing. I took my phone and keys, then went downstairs.

"I'm going to get new clothes," I said as I walked to the door.

"Wait, what are you going to do with your dirty clothes," Mrs G asked me.

"Wash it," I said as if it was the most obvious thing.

"No you're not."

Mrs G got up and took my suitcase thing out of my hands then when down stairs. I just look at the door waiting for her to come back. Finally she came back up and gave me back my suitcase thing.

"Now you only need to do is get fresh clothes," Mrs G said smiling.

"Thank you but you didn't have to do that," I said

"But I want to."

"Okay, I maybe a little late I'm going to James' house,"

"Okay just make sure that you eat."

I was just about to leave the house when I remember my cigarettes.

'How would I get them without Carlos seeing?'

I went up stairs to see that Carlos wasn't there. I grabbed them from under the bed, then went down stairs. I went in my car and drove to my house. I pulled up in the driveway and went inside. I went up to my room and took out seven outfits and put them in the suitcase thing. I went back to my car and drove to the town's old park (no one goes there any more). I got out and sat on the bench. I took out my cigarettes and lighted one. I took a drag and looked around me. All play ground things looked at rusty. I took another drag.

'I wonder why kids stop coming here?'

I finished that cigarette, so I threw it on the floor and stepped on it. I got up and drove over to James's house. I pulled up in his driveway and out. I walked up to the door and opened it . I saw Mr Dimond on the couch watching hockey.

"Hello Logan," Mr Diamond said.

"Hello, Mr Dimond," I said.

"He's up in his room."

I went up and knocked on James' bedroom door.

"Come in," I hear James said. I opened the door and walked in. James was on his bed doing homework.

"What's with people and doing homework on Saturdays?'

"Logan would you be a dear and help me ?" James said.

"Sure why not," I said.

I walked up to the bed and sat next to James on the bed.

~ two and half hours later~

James was walking with me down stairs. When were on the floor I trip and I heard a crashing sound. When I looked up I say that a glass vase broke. James helped me up.

"I'm so sorry I can -" I started.

"Don't worry my mom can clean it up she hated it anyway." James said.

"Are you sure?"

"Yea."

"Okay."

I walked to the door.

"Bye," I said over my shoulder.

I hear James said 'Bye' when I closed the door. I got int the car and drove to 'my house'. I pulled up in the driveway and took out my suitcase I open the door I saw Papa on the couch with paper work.

"Hey there Logan," Papa said.

"Hey," I said.

"Did you eat?"

"Yes, did you?"

"Yes."

"Good."

I when up stairs and stop at 'my' room and put the suitcase thing next to the closed-door. I then made my way to the bathroom. I started to look for a razor, and when I did I broke it apart. I pulled up my sleeve and pinned the razor on my upper arm than ran it across.

'I can't do anything right. First I get Carlos grounded and he gets mad at me. Which makes sense.I bet we're not going to play hockey tomorrow because I got Carlos grounded. I then broke Mrs Diamond's vase. Got James to lie to make me feel better .'

With this thoughts in my head I keep on cutting and over lapping some cuts.

"Logan? What are you doing?!" I heard a voice.

Cliffhanger! First off sorry for not writing in some time and sorry for any spelling mistakes in any and all my chapters. Thanks for reading!