Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush

I'm laying on my bed staring at the ceiling, with my iPod on my stomach and my ear buds in ear.

"Logan! Logan! James and Kendall are sleeping over so we can go to hockey practice then will walk to school tomorrow!" Carlos yelled to me, over powering the music.

"When are they coming?" I yelled back pulled my ear buds out my ears.

"In like a minute so down here."

"Okay clam down."

I turned off my iPod and got out of bed, then wrapped in the ear buds wires around the iPod, put in on the bed.

"Logan come on we're here!" Kendall yell to me.

I went down the stairs.

"Where's James?" I asked.

"Bathroom," Carlos said.

"Ok let's go boys," James said.

"We can't, well I can't," Carlos said.

"Why not?"

"I got grounded."

"Well we can finish our homework ." Kendall suggested.

"I bet Logan already finished his," James said walking over to the couch.

"Yea," I said

Then Kendall's phone started to ring. I looked over at Carlos and saw that he was looking at me too. I could tell Carlos was still a little upset from earlier so I smiled at him.

"Logie can you do a favor for me?" Kendall asked.

"Depends what is it?" I asked back.

"Can you pick Katie up and take her home?"

"Sure."

I went upstairs to 'my' room and dropped on my stomach then grabbed my pack of smokes and lighter from under the bed, put them in my pocket. I got up took my key from the desk, then went down.

"Kendall were's Katie?" I asked Kendall.

"School," Kendall said.

"Why?" Carlos asked.

"Some school projet," Kendall said.

"Oh by the way I'm be gone for a little after I drop Katie off," I said walking near the door.

"Why?" Carlos said with worry.

"I'm just going to go out and clear my head," I said smiling.

"Thanks again Logan," Kendall said.

I walked out the door, then got in my car and drove to the school. When I got there I saw Katie talking to a boy. I parked near but not to far from Katie. Katie must have seen me because she wave to the boy before she walked/run to the car. Katie opened the door and got in.

"Hey Katie," I greeted her.

"Hey Logan." Katie greeted back.

"How was you day?"

"It was ok. My only wish would be that we didn't have to do our projet on a week-end."

"We?"

"Mmmmm... yea that boy you saw me with,"

I turned to see that Katie was bushing.

"Is the Katie Knight bushing over a boy?" I teased her.

"Shut up," Katie said.

"You know because I'm nice I will not tell Kendall."

"Oh my god, thank you Logie. Thank you."

"Yea yea. If Kendall asks I never knew, got it?"

"Yes sir."

The rest of the ride we just listen to the radio. I dropped her off and waited till she got in safe. I then drove off to the park. I got out the car then when and sat on the bench. I took out my of cigarettes pack and lighter I took one cigarette the put the pack away. I then lighted the cigarette that I had out, and put the lighter away. I lighted the cigarette, then took a drag.

"Hey you know that's bad for you," a voice from behind me said.

I turned around and saw a 18 or 19-year-old. He was wearing a red polo, jeans, and red sneaker, black jacket with his hands in his pants pocket had brownish hair.

"Why do you care?" I asked the guy.

"Well a pretty boy like you shouldn't be doing something like that," The guy said siting down next to me.

"Yea I know," I said then took a drag "you want one?"

"Hell no."

"Well why not?"

"It's nasty."

"Oh so you had one before but didn't like it."

"No no that where you're wrong and you put it out?"

I threw the cigarettes o the ground then stepped on it.

"Better?" I asked him.

"Yes and you shouldn't smoke. Not only is it bad for you but aren't you a little to young?" He asked me.

"I am young by a few months and I know that smoking is bad for you. Want to tell me something new?"

"No I'll tell why smoking is bad for you."

"Okay go ahead."

"It hurts your lungs, cause yellow teeth, bad breath and it's a main cause in cancer."

"Would it help you if I said I started a few days ago?"

"Are you lying to me?"

"No why"

"You smoked like you been doing it for years."

"No guess it's just a gift."

"A very bad one."

"Can I ask you a question?"

"If it what's my name you're not going to get it."

"Lucky for you it's not. Why do you care so much about me smoking?"

"My dad died from lung cancer because he smoked too much," he told me.

"I'm sorry," I said.

"No it's ok, I mean it's not like he was the best dad and now I have a step dad."

"How 'bout your mom?"

"Lovely and they both love me so."

"That's very good to hear."

"How 'bout you?"

"Well you see my mom died when I was almost 9 and then my dad threw him self in his work."

"What does he do?"

"A lawyer."

"Ahhh. Hey gave me you phone."

"Gave me yours."

He then took out his phone and I took out mine. I put in my number and name then gave it back to the guy and he gave me my phone back. I looked down saw his number and name. Matt.

"Well then I'll see you later, Logan and you better not be smoking." Matt said as he got up and walked away.

"See you later Matt, and I make no promises," I yelled after him.

I sat here looking up at the sky with a smile on my face.

Beep. Beep.

I looked at my phone. 1 unread text message from Matt. My smile got a little bigger.

Wanted to make sure that this is you Logan -m

Yea its me Matt -l

I just want to said that I'm Gay and if you don't like that delete this number now -m

That would make me a hypocrite -l

Your GAY?! -m

No I'm bisexual -l

Ohhhh -m

Yea -l

Does your family know? -m

Nope not at all -l

Why not? -m

My dad would most likely try to beat me to death -l

'No he would beat me to death not try,` I thought.

That sucks I know what you mean my dad tried to hit me when he found out, but he was stopped -m

Yea I bet my dad trying to hit me would suck to -l

'I would love if my dad was stop,`

Does you friends know? -m

No -l

You think they would push you away? -m

No not at all they're like my family we all love and support another -l

That's really good so why not tell them? -m

Not something that big -l

LIES. Your scared -m

And if I am? -l

I'm going to help you through it -m

Thanks -l

Sorry but got to go baby sister doesn't want to sleep -m

K bye and good luck with that -l

Bye and thanks -m

'Now I have two people I can talk to,`

I laid back a little and looked up at the sky.

Sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes. Yes Matt may stay and I sorry any Carlogan fans! Happy saint patrick's day! Thanks for reading!