Disclaimer : I don't own Big Time Rush

I was sitting against the wall on 'my' bed, Carlos was doing the same.

"Carlos what are you looking at?" I asked him.

"Why was dad talking to you in his study?" Carlos asked.

"We just need to talk."

"About what?"

"Just things Carlos."

"So you not going to tell me?"

"I will one day just not today."

"Come on,"

"Where are we going?"

"Really?"

"What I did nothing wrong."

"Whatever."

Carlos then laid on his back putting on his ear phones.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

I looked over and saw the caller I.D on my phone. Dad. I shakely picked up my phone and answered the call.

"Dad?" I asked not believing that he would call.

"Logan, oh how I missed you." Danny said.

"Really?"

'Am I asleep, because Danny never sounds this sweet.` I thought.

"Yes. Oh I missed my slut so," Danny said.

"Oh," I responded.

'How would I really think that he was sweet?`

"I can't wait till next week," Danny said.

"Yea but dad," I said not knowing what to say.

"What?! Do you not want me! Well?!"

"No I want you. I want to so bad, I can't wait next week."

I could feel the lump in the back of my throat.

"Good 'cause you're my dirty little whore. You're my slut, my cock sucker, you're mine and only mine," Danny said in a harsh voice.

"Yup I'm yours and only yours," I said with pain in every word.

"I'll see you Tuesday."

"Bye dad."

"Bye sweetheart."

I felt sick to my stomach like I always do.

'I need my razor.`

I got up but then saw Carlos laying I remembered that Carlos would want me to go to him. I walked up to his bed took out his ear phones. Carlos opened his eyes sat up, then suddenly I'm in Carols' arms being held.

"Shhh Logie It's okay everything's going to be okay shh, shh,"Carlos whispered in my ear, wiping away my tear that I finally let go of.

I just cried harder. I then tried to get out of Carlos's arms, but he just held on tighter.

"Carlos please let me go, I need to do it," I begged.

Carlos must have knew what I meant to cut, because he held me rubbed circles in my back.

"No Logan you're stronger than that ," Carlos whispered in my ear.

"No I'm not," I whimpered.

"Yes you are, Logan just stay here with me."

"Okay."

~The next morning~

"Boys wake up. Come on wake up."

I opened my eyes and saw that I was still in Carlos' arms, and a disappointed Papa looking at me. Papa walked out the room. I got out of Carlos's arms and went to the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and saw that my face had tear stains. I washed my face and went down stairs. I was that Mrs G wasn't here, and neither was Carlos so he was still sleeping. I walked into the kitchen and saw Papa just sitting there.

"Logan sit with me," Papa said.

So I did.

'Please not another talk.`

"Logan I know that it may be weird talking to me, but I really think you should." Papa said to me.

"I have no clue of what you are talking about." I said.

"Why were you sleeping with Carlos?"

"What?"

"Logan it's just that-"

"Wait do you think that I like him that way or something?"

"No I know that you will never like Carlos are the other guys that way, there like your brother."

"True, but then what's wrong with me sleeping with Carlos?"

"Logan I have no problem with that, it was that you had a tear-stained face."

"Papa don't worry Carlos took care of it, of me I'm all good,' I lied.

"Okay then, I better be going to work now then." Papa said getting up and walking out the back door.

I got up to make eggs when I heard stomping, someone coming down the stairs, Carlos.

"Logie can you cook me some?" Carlos said from behind me.

"Yea sure," I said.

"Logan don't we have to go to school?"

"No it's closed today."

"Yay!"

I made the eggs and sat down with Carlos. I started to eat, but when I looked up I saw that Carlos didn't.

"What's wrong?" I said Carlos.

"I'm proud of you," Carlos said.

"Why?"

"You came to me and not the razor."

"Yea, but I wanted to go to it."

"But you didn't, and that's what I really care about. Your fighting back," Carlos said then started to eat.

~ 2 hours later and outside~

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Logan come to the old park -m

Why? -l

Just cause -m

Ok be there in a bit -l

I got up and when in side. I saw Papa on the couch.

"I'm going out," I said.

Papa looked at me then nodded. I grabbed my keys then left.

Sorry for any and all selling and grammar mistakes.

Ps. Remember that Matt is Gay! And Logan is Bi! That must mean love and dram and I promise there will be.

Thanks for reading!