Chapter 7: The Lonely Days
(General POV)
The Pierce and Lopez household kept themselves busy as they wait for any update about Brittany's condition. It has been two weeks since she went into coma (again). Brittany's brother and sister were having a hard time concentrating on their schoolwork because of what happened to their big sister. Julian and Katherine Pierce took turns staying in the hospital even bringing some of their work there. The Lopez's were just the same since the two families have bonded over a matter of one month. Although Alberto is still recovering from his accident, he manages to help his children at the house since her wife Alma is always at the hospital making sure that she and her staff are all hands on deck monitoring Brittany. Santana's brother and sister, Alejandro and Isabella were also affected because their friends Daniel and Sophia were really worried. While Santana on the other hand, had shut herself mostly in her room and doesn't talk much. Her friends have noticed the change in Santana's life but when they learned about Brittany's condition, they understood why and respected it. Mainly for two reasons, one because they are friends and two because they also don't want her to release her alter ego Snixx (who only comes out during a deep emotional situation…such as this one). The students at Palmer High avoid eye contact with Santana because they were scared to feel he wrath; even the teachers have stayed away. Even if she has been missing some of her Cheerio and Glee Club practices, Principal Sue and Mr. Schuester understood. Santana was like on autopilot and her family and friends are really worried. Her mom kept telling her to get back on the things she loves doing to distract her from thinking about Brittany. Even if Santana doesn't tell her mom about her feelings towards the girl, her mother already knows. Something like mother's instinct; Alma knows her daughter too well that she didn't need to be told.
(Santana's POV)
September 30, 2015
I miss her. I miss her so much. I just want to see her smile again. I just want to be able to talk to her again. I've stopped attending my Cheerio practices even if I'm the head cheerleader, I was glad Coach Sue understood; but really I don't find the reason to cheer anymore. Cheering makes people happy but in my case I can't even cheer myself in this situation; because the one person I wanted to cheer on is fighting for her life. I really don't know what's going to happen but I really, really wish Brittany wakes up.
I have been spending my time writing / talking to my diary. It's the only thing that lets me express how I feel because I am afraid that if I start to an actual person, I will break down and cry. I am trying to think positive about the situation; that Brittany will wake up soon, that we will be able to talk to her again. I have been ignoring everyone and I know it's scaring them out. I don't normally ignore people; heck I haven't even been in contact with my best friend Dani because I know she's busy enough to worry because the only person I wanted to talk to right now is Brittany.
It's the middle of the week and I feel tired already even if I don't have extracurricular activities as of the moment. But when I saw my friends heading to the choir room, I thought: why not join them. I waited until they were all inside and Mr. Schuester had already started saying something about the assignment this week, something about dealing with sadness, as usual Rachel was the first to present a song so I thought why not have them taste a little of Snixx for a while. She was in the middle of her song when I opened the door and walked inside.
"Seriously Rachel, aren't you tired of hearing yourself? I mean god, you're too loud and so annoying" I said as I entered the room and all of them were shocked to see me. Nobody spoke for a while so I went to my normal seat which is the one at the back.
It was Mr. Schuester who broke the silence in the room. "It's nice to see you back Santana" and I just shrugged. With that everyone cheered and I just had to roll my eyes at them. Mr. Schuester then continued discussing what he wanted for the lesson, got bored right away so I raised my hand and he called me.
"Is there anything you want to say Santana?" he asked.
I stood up and went in front of the glee club, "I just thought I'd grace y'all with my beautiful voice"
They were shocked but Mr. Schue approved so I told the band the song and they started playing.
When tomorrow comes
I'll be on my own
Feeling frightened of
The things that I don't know
When tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
And though the road is long
I look up to the sky
And In the dark I found, I stop and I won't fly
And I sing along, I sing along, then I sing along
I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night
Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes
I can't lie, it's a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night
Cause you're my flash light
You're my flash light, you're my flash light
I see the shadows long beneath the mountain top
I'm not the afraid when the rain won't stop
Cause you light the way
You light the way, you light the way
I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night
Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes
Can't lie, it's a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night
Cause you're my flash light
You're my flash light light light, you're my flash light light light You're my flash light light light light light ohhh
I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night
Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes (shinin in my eyes)
Can't lie, it's a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight (you're my flashlight)
You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night
Cause you're my flash light
You're my flash light, you're my flash light
You're my flash light light light
You're my flash light light light
You're my flashlight
When I finished the song they were all clapping their hands but I was crying and I don't understand why. The first one to hug me was Mercedes then after a while they all joined and engulfed me with a group hug (it's something that we do in glee club when one member is feeling sad). When everyone pulled away, I gathered my some strength for me to speak.
"I'm really sorry for ignoring everyone and treating y'all like crap during the past weeks. I… I just don't know what to do. I mean, you all know Brittany's condition right? It's just hard to accept for me that she's not getting any better." I said to them and they all looked at me as if wanting to say something. So I continued. "Fine, I guess I'll let you all know…I like Brittany" and with that they smiled and we group hugged again.
(Brittany's POV)
I wanted to go back to my body and wake up from this deep slumber but every time I try to do so, it's just not working. I tried calling for my grandmother but she didn't respond. I'm going out of my mind trying to figure out what I should do. I mean, I really wanted to go back to the real world because it's getting really lonely here. Plus the fact that Santana just confessed her feelings towards me, it sucks that I can't do the same to her, well, not yet because I'm stuck in limbo. I have to find a way to go back or else I'll stay here forever. I hear Santana's voice calling for me and as much as I wanted to answer her I can't. It gets really frustrating you know, but I guess I have to suck it up. Screaming to nothing doesn't really help coz no one's listening. I want to go back so bad; I just wish I knew how.