Chapter 2: Hurt
A day has passed since that epic fail of a confession, And what's worst is that I don't know how to face him.
I fixed my red ribbon my hands shaking as I looked at myself in the mirror. Ugh.
Grabbing my bag I head off to go to school.
I observed students filling in. I just can't do this, I should I have just stayed at home!
Stealthy I crept towards our classroom, hoping that I wouldn't run into him...
Opening the sliding door, biggest surprise. There he was in front of me, looking at me with the same expression I have(probably) plastered on my face.
I ignored him and walked inside, ignoring everyone.
Sitting down, I began thinking about what would've happen if I let him finish talking.
Romantic images were popping into my head one by one, "Arghh! I hate this life!"
I noticed that everyone was looking at me weirdly. Yeah just great. I really hate this, Heck I'm already out of character now. Really great. I love this.
Sitting down(once again)Ichijou-who I was still avoiding sat beside me. And soon the teacher went in And the class went on without me talking to him.
This time I did it right, being able to leave our classroom early.
I'm such a genius! Hmm maybe I should ask Tsugumi to go with me to the mall? Yeah I should do that. I need a break from this series of misfortune. I smiled as I punched my fist to the air enthusiastically.
Fumbling through my bag I realize that my phone wasn't in there. What a mood wrecker. I frowned.
This day's been great, I see the guy I'm avoiding first in the morning, I get embarrassed in front of the whole class, and now I forget my phone on my desk! What's next? Me seeing Ichijou confess to somebody? Stomping my foot, I made my way towards our classroom, noticing that there was someone inside.
I'm seriously gonna die early with this drastic chan-
"Ichijo, Don't you think Chitoge-chan is acting weird?"
This voice. Kosaki-chan?
"I know, it's because...it's because she told me she was in love with me."
I could hear Kosaki-chan gasping softly.
"I-i see! So w-what did you answer...back?"
Why does she sound like she's almost on the verge of tears? I asked myself. What's going on?
"E-eh... I didn't actually answer back. But I-I don't know, I can't understand my feelings towards her. Besides..."
I was shocked, so he didn't feel that way about me...he didn't like me back. I stood straight yet trembling at the sudden news.
"Be-besides what. Ichijou-kun?"
Falling to the ground as I couldn't take it at all, I curled up into a ball. Stupid me, Why did I even expect? Just because I have a key as well doesn't mean I've got a chance to make him fall for me right? Besides, I know he hates my guts. Deep down inside.
It was awhile before he answered back. For me it felt like centuries as I waited for that continuation.
And a minute passed and I heard it loud and clear.
I felt my heart being crushed to pieces, Tears fell as I wiped it frantically.
The words he had said kept replaying in my mind as my tears fall nons-stop. I can't take this any more, please just stop talking! Please...
"Be-Besides! I'm in love with you!"
There was no chance for me at all despite having a key, because from the start. Kosaki was taking the lead. Stupid me.
I used all my strength to stand up without a noise.
And so I walked away for the second time.
But before I was far from the classroom I heard something more heart-breaking. And it felt like I just died- that how much I tried my best for him to notice him. In the end it was futile- It was just useless...
"I-I love you too! Ichijou-kun, From the very beginning!"
I wanted to scream at how unfair it was. But I just couldn't she was my friend. I should be happy for her, Not like this. I shouldn't be hating her. Why can't I be happy for them!?
And I continued on walking away, occasionally wiping the tears every now and then.
I tried to smile a little but it all turned into a sad frown.
I guess I'll try to be happy for them! That's right! That's what friend's do right?
Placing my hand on my aching chest, I thought to myself.
But that's not what I want to do...deep inside. I'm not even convinced myself about 'being happy for them' Then what about me? Do I deserve to suffer?
And so I went home again just like yesterday. Eyes swollen. Heart-broken.
To be continued...
A/N
Sorry if it's short TT_TT Wahhhh I feel sorry for Chitoge TT^TT I'm a bad author... Anyways, The next chapter is still a sad one :( ready your tissues ;-; please correct my grammar if I'm wrong because I appreciate opinions on how to make my fanfiction better ^_^ RxR please :)