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"You did this; you killed our kids exactly like you did the younglings at the Jedi temple." Anakin realized he was dreaming the moment the tiny bodies of all the children he had killed appeared at his feet, their dead eyes wide as they looked up at him in fear. Padme, at least the Padme in his nightmare, was kneeling next to two of the dead bodies and it took Anakin a second to see the bodies belonged to Luke and Leia. "Are you happy now? Is this what you wanted? Are you all powerful like you wanted to be? Is that power worth the lives of our children?"
More than anything the former Jedi wished he could force himself to wake up and yet no matter how hard he tried, he remained trapped in this nightmare. The bodies of all the dead children filled his vision and he was unable to look away. He could smell their rotting flesh, the coppery scent of the blood he had spilled, and the salty tears he wished he could shed for them. Deep down he knew nothing he ever did, no matter how many good deeds he tried to do on a daily basis, he would never be able to make up for what he had done. Anakin could rationalize it in his own mind by telling himself there had not been another way, but deep down he knew it was not the truth and while he could lie to himself, it was harder to convince everyone else the same thing. In the end there was no excuse for what he had done and eventually he would have to pay for what he'd done and he could only hope Padme and the twins wouldn't be punished for his mistakes as well.
Suddenly his nightmare changed slightly as he was now in a cemetery on the planet of Tatooine and he was in the middle of the desert surrounded by graves with the names of the people he cared about on little holo-projects which showed not only the names, date of birth, and date of death, but it also had the most recent photo the person had taken before their death projecting from the device so it appeared as if a ghost of the deceased was guarding their grave. It was actually quite eery even seeing it in a dream instead of reality; though this was a nightmare and so Anakin figured it was supposed to be kind of creepy. The worst part though, the worst part was seeing his wife and children's graves side by side. It was almost as if he was living his worst nightmare in a nightmare.
"I warned you." Obi-Wan stepped out of the shadows slowly. "I always knew you would destroy Padme in the end. You end up being the death of all those people you claim to care about. First it was your mother, you weren't strong enough to protect her. She needed you and you weren't there Anakin. You are the reason your mother is dead and you will be the reason Padme, Leia, and Luke lose their lives. Death is the only thing you are good at; death is what you were chosen for."
"All I ever did was love you." Padme, in ghost form, appeared out of nowhere and in front of her husband. She reached out to touch his cheek only to have her transparent hand go right through him. "I gave up so much to be with you Ani and you broke my heart time and time again. Do you have any idea what a broken heart feels like? Do you have any idea of the pain you inflict on those around you? I would rather be dead than be married to a monster like you. Death is what you are, death is all you will ever be. You wanted to be all powerful and now that you are, you will have to live your life alone without a family or love. You cannot have both Anakin, and it is clear you already made your choice."
Reaching out, the former queen of Naboo let her ghost hand go in to his chest cavity as she squeezed his heart tightly to the point he wanted to scream out and beg for mercy even though he knew this was all a horrible dream. The pain steadily grew worse and eventually Anakin could no longer hold in his desire to scream the pain away. This may all be a dream, but the pain was very real and eventually the pain got so bad it actually woke him up from his nightmare, which in his mind was a good thing even though it really did hurt beyond anything he had felt before, but pain was easier to deal with than being trapped in that nightmare. Anakin was pretty sure he wouldn't be able to go back to sleep any time soon and since Palpatine was gone for a few days, he figured maybe he would try to talk to Obi-Wan. After all, there had been a time not so long ago when he could tell the older man anything and right now he needed someone to talk to and his options were pretty limited so his old mentor was his only choice. He could just try going back to sleep and yet something told him that would not work in this case.
With a sigh he got out of bed and slipped on a shirt. He wondered if this dream had some sort of warning in it or if it was just due to all the stress he was currently dealing with. He sured hoped that it was not a sign of things to come because honestly he had enough to worry about. It could also be a trick; perhaps Palpatine had planted the thoughts in his head like he did with the dreams of Padme dying. Dream implanting was not really a Jedi trait, though they could do it if they so desired, but since Palpatine was a Sith and not a Jedi, it was very likely he had been planting nightmares in Anakin's head while he slept. Hopefully his old teacher may have some ideas how how the 'Chosen One' could block out these dreams with the Sith Lord finding out.
TBC...
AN: I hope you all liked this chapter and I am sorry it took so long to post, but the doctors found out something about toxins in my brain from my disease and I have moments when I regress and sometimes it lasts a week. I will try to update whenever I am not having a regression moment, but please bear with me.
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