RICKY'S POV:

I lay in Brax's embrace that night, staring at the ceiling, not being able to sleep. Turning to look at him, he was fast asleep. Turning my head to the other side, I picked up my phone and saw the time was 4:30am. Gently unravelling his arms from around me, I climbed out of bed and made my way into the kitchen, turning on the tap to sort myself a glass of water…

"Could you not sleep either?" Bianca's voice questioned

"God" I whispered, jumping noticeably as I flicked the light on

"Sorry" she replied, smiling at me apologetically "you okay? Things seemed a bit fraught between you and Brax tonight…"

"I was hoping people wouldn't notice" I admitted, sighing heavily as I sat down at the kitchen table

"Do you want to talk about it?" she inquired, raising an eyebrow at me

"Only if you promise not to tell Heath anything we discuss?" I asked "at least not yet"

"What's going on?" she questioned worriedly as I sat down at the table too

"Almost two years ago I fell pregnant with Brax's baby" I informed her "and at 3 months I miscarried. I know I probably should've told you when you told me, but it was something Brax and I were dealing with on our own"

"I understand" she replied "so why is this bothering you now? Has something happened?"

I nodded my head, signalling yes… "We said after Adam's trial that we'd try for another baby, and we did, and I'm pregnant"

"Congratulations" she proclaimed

"I'm scared" I admitted "actually, that's not the right word. Terrified, more like"

"Why?" she asked, raising an eyebrow at me in intrigue

"I miscarried due to stress" I explained "and what with everything going on now what with Casey's guardianship application, I'm scared it'll happen again"

"I understand, I do" she informed me "but what're you gonna do? Spend every day for the next nine months worrying about whether you're going to lose this baby?"

"If I have to, yeah" I admitted

"Then that's just going to stress you out even more, isn't it?" she questioned, raising an eyebrow at me "Ricky, pregnancy is a time that is meant to be enjoyed and savoured, not worried about and something that scares you to your wits end every single day. Besides, you've got Brax by your side and he'd do anything for you"

"Just like Heath would do anything for you" I informed her

"We are pretty lucky, aren't we?" she inquired

"Yeah, we are" I replied, smiling at her warmly "thanks, B"

"Anytime" she stated "now go back to your room and cuddle up to your man, and I'm going to do the same with mine"

Nodding my head, I stood up and made my way to the sink, placing my now empty glass in it. Turning to her as she made her way to the sink too, I hugged her tightly… "Thank you"

"You're welcome" she replied

Awe, what a nice chapter, even if I do say so myself!