I don't know if I can deal with any more today. First, there was that mess at practice, with Don mouthing off like he did. Then there was the major blow-out, with Don. He was so mad, and now, I'll be very much surprised if he ever talks to me again. Funny thing is, he hates himself even more, and I finally caught on to that. He hates himself a lot more, a whole lot more. That hurts.

I thought I was doing my family a favor by staying away. Now, now I know I was only trying to help myself. And now, Raph is going on a trip! Why? I was sent to learn to become a better leader. What does Splinter want Raph to learn? Even more importantly, will he be tempted to do what I tried to do? Would our strained family survive the blow if he does?