Day Seventeen-Twenty:
I'm sorry I forgot to write an entry the past few days. To be honest, I haven't even left my bed. I'm just so TIRED. I guess you would understand, since you're asleep for an eternity now. Was that rude to say? I don't know. I don't know what happens after you pass, but some have said it's just a world of black you're surrounded in. God, I sure hope you're not sitting in blackness Alec, you deserve to sing with the angels.
I bet you'd sound pretty good harmonizing with them, I've always thought you had a voice like the angels. Maybe you could be my guardian angel and sing me to sleep sometime, okay?
Anyways, back to the previous days. As I said, I've just been so tired. I haven't left my bed. All I have to accompany me is my laptop, which I don't mind. There are tons to do online. But I try my best to avoid any social networking sites. I'm just not ready to face the real world quite yet.
Maryse has stopped by quite a bit. I think she's the most worried about me out of everyone. I used to be the one who always smiled, and always brightened everyone else's day. Now that I'm no longer that person, Maryse tries to be there. She tries to make me smile, and I appreciate the effort.
I just don't know if I'll ever be able to smile again.