The nurse walked in and informed the two that Sam had arrived and if Bella wanted him in this room or with the guys from the station. Paul was the one that said to bring him in and Bella only nodded in confirmation. When the nurse left Paul spoke up again. "Are you okay?" She looked at Paul like he was nuts. What kind of question was that? Of course she wasn't okay! Her father was in the hospital. Instead of saying that though she said she was fine. Because that's what you say when someone asks, no one wants to hear about how you can feel your insides tearing apart with the pain you feel or how happy you are that you can feel pain again.

Sam walked in and picked Bella up in to what was possibly the tightest hug of her live, it was nice though it felt like Sam was trying to squeeze her back together. He was murmuring in her ear that everything was going to be okay but how could he know that. Paul had said the same thing but her father could be dying for all she knew. Things were definitely not okay.

Saying things were going to be okay was like telling someone it is always darkest before the dawn and that the bad times make the good times worth living but that's not true. For Bella life sucked and right now all she knew was pain and all she could foresee in her future was pain, what good is false hope and telling her that Charlie would be okay going to help prepare her for if he isn't okay. To give false hope is perhaps the cruelest thing a person could do.

"Sam." Paul interrupted the pair and shook his head at Sam, silently signaling something. Sam let go of her and set her back in her chair. While the two boys whispered with each other looking generally pissed off Bella grabbed her glasses and switched out her contacts thankful for being able to see.

Paul, chattier now his friend was here put his phone to the side; Bella could over hear snippets of their conversation. She could only make out her name, unknown creature, the fuck did you want me to do. all from Paul. It would appear that Sam could actually keep his voice down. Bella remembered the killings in the woods, what could be out there? The fear she felts was unusual and all consuming and she started to panic making the two men across from her cease their talking.

"Bella, calm down."

"I can't that thing is out there. It could hurt you guys, it could hurt Ryker! Do you think it had something to do with this accident?" she was starting to hyperventilate when Paul wrapped his arms around her literally holding her together so she wouldn't fall apart.

"Bella it will be okay, Embry and Jared are out patrolling now and they won't get hurt. Not together. Do you remember how big I was as a wolf? They are almost as big as I am, nothing can kill us. Breathe okay? In and out." He words helped and they stood like that with Sam watching the unlikely pair with curious eyes. Then the nurse walked in for the second time.

"Sorry to interrupt sweetie but your father just woke up, the doctor is in with him now and wants to explain everything to the both of you together." She then turned to the boys "sorry gentlemen but Charlie only requested to see his daughter so you will have to stay here for the time being."

Paul let go of Bella and she followed the nurse down the corridor to a different room as she walked she thought of an Oscar Wilde quote "To live is the rarest thing in the world, most people just exist." She wondered if Charlie would live and if he survived this if what he would be doing would constitute living? She knew she wasn't but hoped to change that and hoped to help Charlie live too. He just had to live.

They stopped in front of a closed door and the nurse told Bella to brace herself. That her father may not look like himself. And then the door opened.

Charlie lay there looking grey, not just his hair but also his skin. His brown eyes were have closed and he was covered in bandages and a cast on his leg and his arm was in a sling.

A doctor Bella had never met before hovered at the end of the bed looking over Charlie's chart. When Charlie saw Bella he tried to sit up and smile but was in too much pain to do anything.

Without turning around the doctor spoke "Ah Bella welcome. Now we can begin. Charlie we did an emergency surgery to stop the bleeding from the glass that entered your abdomen and you do have a broken collarbone and femur. You will be fine but the recovery will be long and hard. Don't try to move around too much and listen to your body while you heal. I will be here through the night and the nurses and I will periodically check on you. Chief we are glad you are alive but sorry you are with us this evening. If you have any questions ask any of the staff. Bella closer to his exit date we will show you how to care for him while he is immobile. Or is there someone else who can help?" The doctor looked at her for the first time and she saw the tell tale sign of golden eyes, backtracking she ran back to the boys in the waiting area. She didn't make it all the way there before an ice-cold arm grabbed her.

"Bella stop. Your father is going to be fine-" the doctor began

"Let go of me vampire or I swear to God I'll scream."

With a shocked look on his face he let go of her arm, "You know? How, never mind doesn't matter. Listen I'm here to help okay, all I want to do is help. If you know I'm a vampire you know I eat animals not people because of my eyes. Listen Ms. Swan my name is Erik Ansell." Bella got a better look of him and saw that he was of Slavic Descent. "This is my card. I want you to call me so we can discuss this in a less open area. I'm going to assume the shape shifters in the waiting area are with you. If you must tell them about me but id appreciate to keep a low profile here. I'll do everything in my power to keep your father alive."

And with that Erik left. And she could breathe again.

Another fucking vampire, does she tell the pack? She should but maybe not here. This is a disaster. Was Erik the one doing the killings? The pack already said he wasn't the one doing the killings; she was almost back at the waiting area. When she heard Sam's voice.

"You have got to be fucking kidding me right now. What is wrong with you that you would do something like this? Paul I know you're fucked up but this? Not cool. Fix it or I will." So maybe she shouldn't tell them. Walking in both their heads snapped towards her and they growled. What the fuck.

"Bella why do you smell like a vampire?" Sam asked in a low and dangerous voice. Shit she totally did not account for the smell.

"Because I was just talking to a vampire." She said with much more confidence than she felt.

"Why?" Sam asked. Paul was just standing there glaring at her.

"He's my fathers doctor. He wants to meet all of us in a less public place. Sam he seems pretty harmless." She really hoped they wouldn't make a scene.

"Paul if you don't calm the fuck down I will send you outside. Bella if you talk to him again alone without permission I will kill him." Sam was in full alpha mode.

"You can't kill him Sam, and why the fuck do I need your permission to do something you aren't my father."

"I am your alpha. And I can kill whomever the fuck I want princess. You will listen to me or you will not be part of the pack." He was towering over her. She gasped at the threat and ran out of the room ignoring the yelling behind her. She went back to her father's now empty room. She stood at the door for a moment watching him sleep then sat down and held his non-injured hand and wept. Every thing was falling apart. Again.

How was she supposed to survive this, Charlie would be fine but only if he made it through tonight. What if she asked Erik to change him? No she couldn't do that, not to Charlie she couldn't force a life of killing on to a man that devoted his life to protecting people. She agreed with Rosalie, no one should have this life forced upon them.

What was she going to do about the pack? Obviously she couldn't lose them but could she write off Erik. He was obviously here for a reason and could she risk pissing him off when he was the doctor attending her father? She couldn't assume he would hurt Charlie out of spite but she couldn't assume he wouldn't. When will life be normal again? What the fuck is normal? How can she trust the pack if they could so easily dismiss her? Where would she go if Charlie died? Where would she go if she was rejected from everyone she knew again? How could she survive that?

A nurse came in with a blanket for Bella saying that visiting hours were over but to feel free to stay with the Chief as long as she wanted. Which was good cause there is no way in hell she was going back out to Sam and Paul.

She slowly drifted to sleep dreaming about wolves and the forest and rain. It was a light sleep but it was the best sleep she had had in a long while.

When she woke up Erik was observing a sleeping Charlie at an alarming speed. Noticing her wake up he briefly paused. "You're father has developed a fever we need to bring this down or it could cause serious complications. We are doing everything we can." And with that he walked out. Bella wondered what time it was, how long she had spent sleeping instead of being with her father.

She sat there watching Charlie all grey and cold, while she was sleeping they put him on a machine to help his breathing, she remembered how alone and empty she had felt and wondered how her father must be feeling. She had heard that sometimes people could hear you if they were in a coma or asleep but that seemed like propaganda to her. Things people say to make it easier to watch someone else suffer. Life isn't easy and neither is suffering, why do people feel compelled to tell lies just so they feel like a more decent person. What a load of absolute bullshit.

She sat there watching Charlie going over the past couple days with the pack and how much Charlie had missed being fishing and how much she had missed being a fucking moron. It hurt, and she was kind of glad that it hurt; because if it hurt it meant it was real, that it mattered, and that she was capable of caring.

There was a knock at the door, Bella turned her head and saw Sam standing there she looked away from him with his harsh words still fresh in her mind. He walked in uninvited and stood behind her. "Bella-" he started but she cut him off.

"Don't. Just don't." she ducked her head so he wouldn't see the tears, which was stupid because he could probably smell them being a werewolf and all but perhaps he would allow her her dignity.

They sat there in the dark hospital room both together yet unspeakably alone.

Sam put a hand on her shoulder after an hour and looked as if he was about to say something when he was interrupted but the beeping.

Here is the thing about hospitals, there is always beeping. It is annoying but the slow steady beeps meant that everything was stable; to a family member it was a reminder that their loved one was just asleep. That was good beeping.

The beeping that had interrupted Sam was not that. It was rapid and loud and felt like gunshots into Bella's gut. Erik ran in with a plethora of nurses who started to assess what was going on and fix what ever was happening.

Sam grabbed Bella as the beeping continued to shoot at her and she watched her what could be her fathers last moments. The steely heat of Sam's arms kept her from running to her father's side and for that moment she hated Sam. Crying out for her father Erik looked into her eyes for a split second asking the question that he knew the answer to. She would never allow her father to become a vampire.

And with that Bella heard the beep that no one ever wants to hear in the hospital, the long loud echoing noise that could only be turned off by turning off the machine.

"Time of death 05:47" Erik grimly announced not making eye contact with Bella or Sam.

It was over.

Death is cruel Bella thought. Charlie was a cop for Christ sake; he should have died either at a rip old age with grandchildren and a wife beside him or in the line of duty with honor. A car accident are you fucking kidding me? That wasn't how it was supposed to happen. He wasn't supposed to die. Erik had said he would be fine, Erik a fucking doctor for god knows how many years had told her Charlie would make it. Sam had held her back from being with her father in his time of need and Paul and the rest of the pack had fucked off.

She couldn't even remember his last words.

Aren't those supposed to mean something?

Why is it the world just keeps spinning when it is falling apart?

She had watched them wheel her father to the morgue so they could find the cause of death, but that didn't matter to her. Not really. He was gone. Erik had tried to talk to her but Sam threatened him away, Bella was still to frozen to thank or yell at Sam.

She just sat there in the room where her father had last existed thinking about her last moments with him and wondering why it all had to end. Why the alternative to death seemed much worse than actually dying and how she could have been so completely and utterly selfish and how she completely wasted the last months she had had with her father.

Sam picked Bella up to take her out of the room so that the nurses could clean it for the next person and that is when Bella unfroze and started to scream.

At the time she had no idea she had been screaming just that she couldn't leave this place, she couldn't walk out of this room and accept that Charlie had died that he wouldn't be bringing home fish or watching the game. That she wouldn't be cooking for him or mocking him and Billy for being old women. She couldn't accept that when she left this hospital she would have actually lost everything this time.

She fought away from Sam and ran into un-expecting but open arms.

Hey kittens.

So I MOVED. That's been busy but because I'm in a new town I have like no friends so you know what that means…WAY MORE TIME TO WRITE, which is exciting but I also haven't had the god send that is WiFi for ages and to be honest I died a little inside every day I was without it. But now I'm back in a schedule kind of so bare with me cause this is going to be good. I hope. Okay I'm done.

That's all from me folks I wont see you and you wont see me but we will read each others words in the forms of authors notes and reviews J

-Ty