The Diary of Young Sherlock Holmes

by GoggleLouLou

As Sherlock leaves his childhood home for the strange new world of university, he begins a personal diary which gives him an outlet to express his innermost thoughts and feelings. Will he ever stop obsessing over food? Will he find love? Or will University life prove more difficult than he first anticipated? WARNING: Eating disorder/Strong Language/Sexual references.

13. Chapter 13

Friday 13th October 1999

Dear Diary,

I can't seem to settle today. I have been resolutely ignoring American Mandy and I believe she has finally got the message. She's stopped texting me anyway. I seem to have become obsessed with the mirror once more. The more I try to eat well and ignore the desire to restrict, the more paranoid I become that I am growing uncontrollably and intolerably bigger. The mirror is taking over the role that I won't let restriction do any more: that of providing safety and control. If I can't limit my intake, I can at least be aware of every detail of my size and shape. I can know by how much I grow or shrink each day. Ideally I would like to be able to weigh myself again, and there have been a number of occasions that I've been on the verge of heading to the shop to buy myself a pair of scales, but the little voice inside telling me to stay strong and keep aiming for recovery has stopped me so far. I owe that voice a lot, come to think of it.

Sherlock Holmes

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