Music In Our Hearts

Chapter 8: If It's Love (Part 2)

"Dawn! What... Huh?" Willow stumbled over her words as Cassie casually threw her shirt on to cover her still bare chest. Dawn

"Oh my god, Willow. Don't you knock?!" Dawn screeched.

"I live here! You... You were just going to have a friend over!"

"I have a friend over!"

"Yeah! But... A girl- wait, since when are you gay?!"

"Pretty much since always." Dawn muttered.

"What?"

"Well..."

Willow plopped down on the couch, a minor headache forming. She'd just walked in on Dawn having sex... with another girl!

"When... when did you know?"

"Um... that first time you came home with Buffy after we moved here. Everyone thought I had a crush on Xander, because I was always clumsy and awkward around him, but I was never really alone with him or you. It was always at the same time."

"Wait... You... You had a crush... on... me?" Willow's headache was gradually worsening, and Cassie frowned.

"Um... yeah." Then, Dawn noticed Cassie's scowl. "Oh, but don't worry about that, I'm over it." She said as much for Cassie's benefit as for Willow's.

"Okay." Willow moaned, her headache now past a dull ache.

"Yeah. Not so much into you anymore, Willow. Um, I don't know if you remember her or not, but... This is-"

"Cassie. Yeah, I remember. You predicted you'd die."

"Yeah. Lucky for me, Buffy knew CPR. Saved my life, and mine and Dawn's relationship." Cassie said.

"What?"

"Cassie is... my girlfriend." Dawn explained. "Has been almost since I first met her."

"What?" Willow repeated.

"Um... Buffy was worried about her, so she had me try and be her friend so I could find a way to help her. It worked. We became friends, we started talking and Cassie caught me looking at another girl's chest, so she asked if I was gay. I said yeah, and... well..." Dawn trailed off.

"I kissed her." Cassie finished. "I knew I was gay, too, but I'd never, you know, actually kissed a girl before, so I thought, hey, I'm gonna die in about a week, I'd like to try something new. So I took a chance. I kissed her, and she kissed me back, and it was like we just couldn't stop." Cassie smiled as she looked into Dawn's eyes, and saw the smile returned.

"Buffy let me invite Cassie over for a sleepover that night she went on that date with Principal Wood, and you and Tara both went out, so it was just me and Cassie. We made out a little, and one thing lead to another and..."

"Oh my god. You... you lost your virginity?"

"Yeah. It was... wait, why am I trying to talk to you about this?!"

Cassie smirked.

"God, Dawn... why... why didn't you tell anyone?!"

"Well... I didn't want Buffy to find out. And no one but Giles can keep a secret from anyone around here, and I definitely wasn't going to talk to him about it."

"Why didn't you want Buffy to know?"

Cassie rolled her eyes at the question, as if saying I've been wondering that myself.

"Because... If she knew I was gay, there's no way she'd let any girls stay the night here with me, especially when everyone else is gone. She'd be the same way with girls as she is with guys now. And... I like it when Cassie stays over. We don't always have sex, or even make out. I just... I like being around her. We like being around each other." Dawn looked down at the ground, suddenly finding her shoes very interesting.

"Dawn..." Willow sighed. "Don't you dare tell Buffy I said this."

"Said what?"

"Dawnie, Buffy's a bit... sexist."

"What?"

"Well, she's just had so much badness with guys, it's kind of made her a bit cautious around guys. She's been hurt too many times. How many boyfriends did she have before she moved to Sunnydale?"

"I don't know. I lost count at ten. There were a few more after James Kemp."

"Dawn, that's terrible."

"No, I'm serious. They all just ended up dumping her once they realised she wasn't putting out, then they started spreading rumors about how easy it was to get into her pants, and she became a whore. At least in everyone else's minds. It's one of the reasons we moved here."

"Oh. Well, see? Bad experience with men. All those guys, then came Angel. Angel turned evil after she gave herself to him, then she had to kill him, then he came back and broke her heart all over again. Then there was... Parker? I think that was his name. She gave herself to him, too, and he turned out to be one of those one-night stand guys. Then there was Scott Hope. He told everyone she was gay! Of course, that turned out to be true, but it really hurt her. Then there was Riley, and, well, you know how that worked out. The finally, there was Spike. All of that heartbreak made her not trust guys. I have a feeling she'll be more understanding when it comes to girls.

"Yes, she was disappointed when you told her you weren't gay earlier, but it wasn't because she wanted you to be more like her. It was because she doesn't want you to go through the same things she went through with guys. The second she started going for girls, she found the one for her. She'll never admit this, but she thinks girls are just all around better than guys, and that you just can't trust any guys. Of course, Xander and Giles are the exceptions. But she doesn't really view them as guys. Giles is more like her father, and Xander's just that annoying brother type of person. You don't view your family members as guys, you view them as family. That's the only reason she trusts Giles and Xander.

"Dawn, I know you haven't asked for my advice, but I'm going to give it to you anyway. Tell her. She's worried that you're going to get your heart broken like she did. Tell her you're into girls and that you've found a steady relationship with a girl that you really enjoy. She'll probably ease up on you for it."

"And if she doesn't?"

"Then blame the whole thing on me." Willow shrugged, her headache easing up. "I'm not saying she'll let you to just go off and have sex whenever you want, and she probably won't leave you at home alone with girls as often anymore, but she might stop worrying about you like that, and you might have something to talk about with her. Have more sisterly moments with her. Talking about girls, stuff like that."

"You really think so?"

"That's my guess. I could be wrong, but I don't think I am. Another bit of advice, talk to Faith about it first. She can keep a secret better than I can, and I could really use someone to talk to about it so I don't just blurt it out to Buffy. Besides, being Buffy's girlfriend, she probably knows Buffy better than I do, so she might know how she'll react better than I can guess."

Dawn nodded. Willow stood up and started walking for the stairs.

"I'm going to bed. Buffy and Faith should be home shortly, so I wouldn't recommend you two go back to... doing that again tonight." Willow winked, and both teenage girls blushed.

No sooner did Willow disappear upstairs and her door close than Faith and Buffy walk inside the house. Cassie nudged Dawn with her elbow and nodded towards the two women.

"Dawn? Shouldn't you be in bed?" Buffy asked, looking at her watch.

"You said nine thirty. It's only nine twenty-five. I've still got five minutes. And actually, I... we, that is Cassie and I, need to talk to you about something."

"Oh? What's up?"

Dawn glanced towards Faith. I know Willow suggested talking to Faith first, but Buffy's going to be pissed if she finds out that I told someone before her. Willow, she should understand, because Willow kinda caught us in the act, but Faith?

"Oh. I get it. I'll just... give you some privacy." Faith said, disappointed as she started up the stairs.

"Okay." Buffy agreed. "Um, you wanna talk to Willow about... you know what... together or one of us?"

"Think we should do it together."

"Okay. Um, you wanna do it tonight or wait?"

"Let's do it once you're done with whatever this is." Faith motioned to Dawn and Cassie.

"Okay. Why don't you go up and tell Faith we need to talk to her?"

"Sure. Just come on up once you're done." Faith turned and headed up the stairs.

"So what's up?" Buffy asked.

"Um... maybe you should sit down."

"Okay?" Buffy did.

"Um... earlier, when I said I'm straight, not gay... what did you really think of that? I know you said you were relieved and all that, but... I don't know... It just seemed... like you were being less than honest. So... is that how you really feel?" Dawn asked.

"What does it matter? You said you're straight. Whether I approve or not, it doesn't change anything."

"Just... hypothetically. How do you actually feel?"

"Dawn... are you gay? You said you weren't earlier, but... Are you really?"

"I asked first."

"Fine. I was both relieved and disappointed. Relieved that you won't have to struggle with all the predjudice against gays, but... I don't know, I guess it would be nice to have something like that in common. Something we could talk about as sisters. But the way you're talking right now, I'm thinking maybe I have it all backwards. So again I ask, are you gay?"

Dawn sat down on the couch opposite from where Buffy sat in her chair, and Cassie sat next to her. Dawn looked at Cassie, who nodded slightly. Buffy, of course, saw the nod, and started to prepare herself.

Instead of answering verbally, Dawn leaned in and kissed Cassie in front of her older sister. There was definite tongue involved as the two girls attacked each other's mouths.

When they finally surfaced for air, Buffy's face was pale. She had tried to prepare herself, and she probably would have handled it better if Dawn had just answered with words, but instead, Dawn went with the more physical approach.

"Buffy?" Dawn asked, and Buffy realised she hadn't responded yet.

"Right. Sorry. Just... kinda in shock right now. Um... that... that just happened?" Buffy worked it like a question, as if checking to make sure she hadn't dreamed that.

"Yeah." Dawn answered, taking interest in her shoes again.

"Um... okay... This is... just going to take some getting used to. That's all." Buffy sighed, and Dawn couldn't tell if Buffy was wigging out or trying to control her excitement.

"You okay with this?" Dawn asked.

"Um... so... you... Cassie... involved?"

"Yeah, Dawn's my girlfriend." Cassie spoke for the first time since Buffy and Faith walked in.

"Okay... Um... so... have... you two... you know...?"

"Had sex?" Cassie asked.

Buffy just nodded, flinching.

"No." Dawn blurted, and Cassie agreed. Let's not hit her with more than two major bombshells tonight, shall we?

"Are you lying to me?" Buffy asked, suspicious.

"No." Dawn didn't hesitate. "I'm a virgin."

"I don't believe you."

Dawn sighed.

"Okay, yes. Cassie and I have had sex. Several times. We're like rabbits going at it."

"Okay! Enough imagery! Not surprised that you two are active, but ewww! I don't want to know any details!"

Dawn smirked. At least Buffy wasn't totally freaking out.

"So... you're... okay? With... this?"

"Yeah." Buffy said after a moment's hesitation. "Yeah, I'm good. Totally. Absolutely no wigging over here. Okay, maybe a little, but I just found out my sister has already had sex with a girl, and is in an actual relationship with said girl, and I'm only just now finding out."

"Sorry."

"Nah... It's okay. Not like I haven't done that. Hell, I kept Faith and me a secret for five years, even though everyone apparently already knew."

"It was kind of obvious."

"Right. Well... Um... I... I gotta go talk to Faith and Willow about something so... Just... no having sex... um... Just... go to bed, we'll talk more in the morning."

"Okay. Um... you'd probably better go, Cassie." Dawn said, and started walking the girl to the door.

"Wait,she doesn't have to go. It's kind of late out, anyway. Cassie, why don't you stay the night tonight, and I'll take you home tomorrow?"

"Wait, seriously?" Dawn asked, not daring to hope.

"Yeah. You two go ahead and head on up to bed. Dawn, have you had your shower?"

"No."

"Then get one, and get to bed. No having sex, and if you end up making out, just keep the noise down, please?" Buffy cringed as she said it.

"What?!" Dawn couldn't be more surprised. What the hell did this doppelganger do with her sister?!

"Well... You heard me. Don't make me change my mind, okay?"

"It's because Cassie's a girl, isn't it?"

"Okay, yeah. I admit it. I kind of have issues with guys. Plus, I know Cassie." Buffy turned to the mostly blonde girl. "I know you. I trust you. Just... don't take things too far... Just... not with me just down the hall, please."

Cassie nodded, excited.

"Um... Cassie, if you want, you can get a shower, too, just... no sharing with Dawn. Separate showers. Definitely separate."

"Nah, I'm good. I'll get one at home tomorrow." Cassie said. "I'm kind of tired right now, I just wanna go to bed."

"I don't even want to know what you're implying." Buffy replied.

"What?" Dawn asked innocently.

"Oh god."

"Hey Dawn, she sounds kind of like you do when-"

"Oh for God's sake! Please, don't make me regret letting you stay!" Buffy almost screamed, interrupting Cassie, who smirked back.

"Alright, good night, Buffy." Dawn said, and she and Cassie held hands all the way upstairs, and Buffy went up to Willow's room.

"So what was that about?" Faith asked when Buffy entered Willow's room. Willow and Faith were both sitting on the bed, waiting nervously for Buffy.

"Turns out my little sister's gay. And having sex with Cassie."

"Holy shit. Didn't expect that one." Faith nearly choked on the breath she was taking.

"Yes! I am completely surprised about it as well!" Willow said nervously.

"Willow?" Buffy asked.

"Okay, fine! I confess! I walked in on them having sex on the couch!"

"Oh god!" Buffy groaned. "Faith, I'm thinking tonight might not be the best night to talk about it."

"Well, I think maybe we should talk about it at least. Let her think about it for a while before answerin'."

"Okay. You wanna ask her, or should I?"

"You do it. You've known her longer."

"What's going on?" Willow asked, and Buffy closed the door.

"Um... Faith and I were talking earlier... and... well... we were wondering... well, actually, we've been together for five years now, and we've done a lot of... oh crap, Faith could you?"

"Fine. B and I like to get kinky once in a while." Faith said, and Willow paled.

"Um... okay? Why do you think I should know that?"

"Because we want to try somethin' new out. Somethin' we've never done before. Wanted to know if you wanted to join us once."

"Wait, what?!" Now Willow was the one choking on her breath.

"A threesome. Want you to be a part of it. Really, I think we could just pick someone up at a bar and bring her home, but B thinks it should be someone we already know, and the only girls we know are you, Dawn, Tara and Anya. Anya's straight, and with Xander, Dawn is Buffy's sister so, very ew, so that leaves you and Tara." Faith explained. Luckily, Faith was very used to being blunt like that.

"Umm... you're my best friend, Wills... I... I just think it should be you..." Buffy said, unable to meet Willow's eyes. Willow's breath was harsh, and not because of arousal. Her face was almost as red as her hair, and she was now sweating uncontrollably.

"Wait... you... you guys... threesome... me?" Willow asked, extremely confused and nervous and embarassed.

"Yeah." Faith said, scooting slightly away from Willow, trying to give her her space.

Dawn got out of the shower, wrapped herself in a towel and headed to her room, to find Cassie already in pajamas and in her bed.

"Hey there, gorgeous." Cassie grinned as Dawn walked in.

"Ditto." Dawn returned the grin.

"Come on. Get in bed." Cassie moved the covers to the side so Dawn could crawl in.

Dawn dropped the towel, and Cassie moaned slightly at the sight of her naked body.

Dawn started for her pajama drawer, but Cassie called her away.

"No. Don't. Just get in." Cassie patted the bed.

"Wait... with... with no clothes?"

"Yeah. Just get in."

Dawn hesitantly walked over and got in bed beside Cassie, who removed her own pajamas, so the two were completely naked in bed together.

Cassie grabbed Dawn by the waist and pulled her flesh against herself, draping one leg over the smaller girl's hip and kissing her passionately.

"God." Dawn moaned as she felt Cassie's sex against her own. "Buffy said no sex tonight. She's already letting us stay in the same bed together, right now I'm really not wanting to push her buttons. I don't want the generous Buffy to go away."

"Don't worry. Buffy did say we can make out, though. Just as long as we keep it quiet. No sex, I promise."

Dawn nodded and kissed Cassie again.

"I love you, Cass." Dawn said when they pulled apart for a moment, and they both gasped.

"Did you just...?"

"I... it slipped out..."

"I... I love you, too." They both grinned at the words, and kissed more passionately than before. Suddenly, they heard music around them, and at first thought that Buffy was turning on the radio to drown out the sounds of her and Faith getting together, but then Dawn felt the urge to sing.

"When everybody else is getting out of bed, I'm usually getting in it. I'm not in it to win it, and there's a thousand ways you can spin it."

"My feet have been on the floor, flat like an idle singer." Cassie joined in. "Remember Winger, I digress. I confess you are the best thing in my life."

"But I'm afraid, when I hear stories about husband and wife, there's no happy ending, no Henry Lee, but you are the greatest thing about me.

"If it's love, and we decide that it's forever, no one else can do it better."

"If it's love, and we're two birds of a feather, then the rest is just whenever."

"And if I'm addicted to loving you, and you're addicted to my love, too, we can be them two birds of a feather that flock together. Love, love."

"Got to have something to keep us together, love. Love."

"That's enough for me."

"Took a loan on a house I own, can't be a bee queen without a bee throne. I wanna buy you everything except cologne, 'cause it's poison."

"We can travel to Spain where the rain falls mainly on the plain. Sounds insane, 'cause it is. We can laugh, we can sing. Have ten kids and give them everything."

"Hold our cell phones up in the air and just be glad that we made it here alive. On this spinning ball in the middle of space. I love you from your toes to your face.

"If it's love, and we decide that it's forever, no one else can do it better."

"If it's love, and we're two birds of a feather, then the rest is just whenever."

"And if I'm addicted to loving you, and you're addicted to my love, too, we can be them two birds of a feather that flock together. Love, love."

"Got to have something to keep us together, love. Love."

"That's enough for me.

"You can move in, I don't care where you've been, 'cause everybody has a past."

"When we're older, we'll do it all over again. When everybody else is getting out of bed, I'm usually getting in it. I'm not in it to win it. I'm in it for you."

"If it's love, and we decide that it's forever, no one else can do it better."

"If it's love, and we're two birds of a feather, then the rest is just whenever."

"And if I'm addicted to loving you, and you're addicted to my love, too, we can be them two birds of a feather that flock together. Love, love."

"Got to have something to keep us together, love. Love."

"Got to have something to keep us together, love. Love.

"That's enough for me."

Cassie and Dawn laughed as they kissed again, and the music faded.

The song used in this chapter, and provided the chapter name for both this chapter and the previous chapter, is "If It's Love" by Train. I'm trying to get some more songs in her other than just Daughtry songs, but let's face it, Daughtry's so awesome, I probably should have made this story nothing but Daughtry's music. Anyways, I have a significant list of songs I might put into this story, so at this point, I'm not taking anymore requests, though I might take some more at a later point if I have a scene in mind, but don't have any songs to suit it. Anyway, thanks for supporting this story!