One good thing about baby Jack. Was that even though Tony was now on forced leave. It was nearly impossible to be bored. It also provided a more than welcome diversion from the thoughts. Of the conversation he would be having with the team that evening. Emily and Gibbs had been surprisingly calm and understanding. Unfortunately that made it more likely that the team would be angry at him. At least it did in his head. In his mind all he could see was McGee, Abby, Ducky, Jimmy and most of all Vance completely hating him and saying he had taken advantage of Ziva. At least Bishop might be understanding. Emphasis on might. She made it clear she hated men who just had sex with a girl and left. So much that Tony was glad the last time he was like that was just before Jeanne. He had never really liked that kind of behavior but after Wendy. He just kind of snapped. Maybe if he had the relationship with Gibbs he had now and the close team family he would have been OK. Too bad Gibbs and him were just starting to get close now and the team back then was just partners. He had just finished feeding Jack for the third time that day. When he heard his phone ring.

"Hello?"

"Hi Tony it's Emily."

"Emily? Shouldn't you be working?"

"I am on my lunch break."

"Ah what's up?"

"Change of plans on meeting my kids."

"Oh I guess it doesn't have to be right away."

"No actually I need to do it sooner."

"What? Really?"

"Yeah I uh need you to watch them Friday. So is tomorrow OK?"

"Yes I am off the rest of the week at least so anytime is good. Why do we have to move it up?"

"I forgot that I have to take my mom to the eye doctor Friday afternoon and thinking I would have the kids. I already gave the sitter the day off."

"Well if you would like it could be this weekend or maybe next week."

"I want it to be closer because I was hoping you would watch them. I understand if you don't want to but I want them to know you first."

"Oh no it's fine. I don't mind watching them."

"Great"

"So did you tell your team about Jack yet?"

"No I am going to tell them tonight."

"Well good luck to you."

"Thanks I am going to need it."

That evening Gibbs came home with three boxes of pizza and a six-pack. At least he had provided dinner. So it wasn't just a hey guess what. I have a kid I didn't know about with our dead co-worker dinner. Tony just hoped none of the beer ended up in his face. Though he probably deserved it. He should have known that Ziva was pregnant. Maybe if he had she would still be here. Even if she was deformed from the acid he would still love her. Of course with his luck the team would accuse him of being shallow. Part of him wished that he had been the one who had died. It didn't seem fair his appendix burst and he went into a come but now three weeks later he was fine. While Ziva had delivered a healthy baby. Only to be killed the next day.

"IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME!" Tony yelled.

"Whaa!" Baby Jack cried.

"Don't you ever say that again." Gibbs warned.

"Yes Boss." Tony replied.

"Good now get your kid calmed down." Gibbs replied.

"On it Boss." Tony replied.

Tony placed baby Jack into his baby carrier. He made his way down the stairs. It was time to face his fears and tell his team. McGee, Jimmy, and Breena were sitting on the couch, Vance was leaning against the wall sucking on a toothpick and Gibbs and Bishop were on the floor. Ducky had a cold. So Gibbs had quietly told him at work. To prevent him from passing his illness on to Baby Jack. At least he had understood. He had even called to congratulate Tony on his son. Tony's heart dropped when he saw who was sitting beside the couch. Delilah. He didn't know why that made a difference but he had known all day. That this was going to end badly. What if Delilah got so pissed she fell out of her wheelchair and split her skull open and died right there. Then McGee lost his mind and quit the team and eventually murdered Tony's entire family. OK maybe he was being a little over dramatic.

"Delilah?" Tony asked.

"Yeah they let me out today." Delilah replied.

"Great" Tony replied.

"So what's your big news Tony?" McGee asked.

"Oh it's nothing." Tony lied.

"DiNozzo I called everybody here on a work night. They know something is up." Gibbs warned.

"Everybody this is Lior Jackson but I call him Jack. He is my son. Mine and Ziva's." Tony explained. Holding up the carrier to show baby Jack to the team.

"Wait so you and that Ziva girl have a son?" Bishop asked.

"Yeah" Tony replied.

"Congrats" Bishop replied.

"Oh Tony that is the best news ever!" Abby cried.

"Thanks Abbs." Tony replied.

"I am so happy for you." Delilah commented.

"Thanks" Tony replied.

"Really Tony?! You really expect us to believe that you didn't know that Ziva was pregnant?!" McGee demanded.

"Well we were only together the night before she left." Tony admitted.

"The night she was drunk?!" McGee railed.

"I was drunk too!" Tony yelled back.

"That's supposed to make it better?! I thought you didn't do that anymore! You swore you didn't do that anymore! I guess you are really conning Emily! She has kids for Pete's Sake!" McGee yelled.

"I feel terrible but she didn't tell me! I would have been there for her if she had and I would never leave Emily I love her!" Tony shouted.

"BULLSHIT!" McGee argued.

"McGee" Gibbs warned.

"YOU WOULD TAKE HIS SIDE!" McGee barked.

"Agent McGee it would be wise if you ceased attacking your teammate." Vance warned.

"Really Director you too! Come on Delilah! I can't be around the misogynist anymore!" McGee yelled grabbing Delilah's wheelchair.

"Tim please calm down. You are making me nervous." Delilah pleaded.

"I will because I RESPECT WOMAN!" McGee yelled.

"Oh No" Jimmy commented after McGee stormed out.

"Jimmy it's fine." Breena assured.

"No cause when he finds out he is going to kill me." Jimmy replied.

"When I find out what?" Tony asked.

"I KNEW OK!" Jimmy yelled.

"Knew about what?" Tony asked.

"ABOUT BABY JACK!" Jimmy cried before running from the room. Breena jumped up and ran after him.

All eyes were on Tony. He felt his body begin to shake. He didn't want to start crying in front of everyone. McGee was right. He was a misogynist. He didn't deserve to have this beautiful child. He had taken advantage of Ziva and it was probably his fault that Ziva was dead. He may as well have been the one covering her with acid. Why did Jimmy know but he didn't? Did Jimmy hate him too? Was everybody mad at him. McGee was just the only one who had the balls to admit it? He placed baby Jack on the floor before collapsing to the ground himself. That's where he completely broke down. The whispers of the remaining occupants of the room sounded more like shouting.

"I think it would be best if you guys left." Gibbs said.

"I need to get to my kids anyway." Vance replied.

"Is he OK?" Bishop asked.

"Poor Tony." Abby commented.

Gibbs calmly scooped the screaming baby Jack out of his carrier. Before sitting down beside Tony on the floor. He had never seen Tony like this. He gently wrapped one of his arms around Tony. Supporting baby Jack with the other. Tony scooted over and buried his face in Gibbs's shirt. Completely soaking it with tears.

"I'm sorry OK! I'm sorry!" Tony sobbed.

"It's OK Tony we are all emotional right now. I will deal with it." Gibbs replied.

"Emily deserves better than me and so does Jack!" Tony cried.

"No they don't." Gibbs whispered.

"I took advantage of her and now she's dead." Tony sobbed.

"You and Ziver were both drunk that night. The way I see it she took advantage of you too and it is one hundred percent not your fault she is dead. Somebody killed her and it sure as hell wasn't you." Gibbs replied.

"Then why is she the one who is dead?" Tony asked.

"I don't know." Gibbs replied.

"My partner hates me, Ziva is dead, I have to meet Emily's kids tomorrow, and I have this kid I just found out about. That I have to raise alone. I can't do this." Tony sobbed.

"Yes you can. You are a hell of a lot stronger than you think." Gibbs replied.

"I can't. I just can't." Tony sobbed.

A/N: I am not McGee bashing. He just seemed like the most likely to get pissed about Tony having an unknown kid with Ziva. New chapter should be up this weekend. Please review and thanks for reading.