I don't remember when I fell asleep last night or even how I got home. All I know is that my head is pounding right now. I have a killer headache. I raise my hands to my head and groan in pain. This sucks.
I rub my eyes a few times before painfully yawning and sit up in my bed. For some reason I really smell Eren right now… I look down and see the reason why. I'm still wearing his hoodie. I smile slightly and run my fingers through my messy hair as I remember some of what happened last night… Jean was going to rape me. I shiver and pull my legs up to my chest my head resting on my knees. I start to silently cry.
How could I be so stupid? I did the typical teenage thing at parties. Most guys invite you into a "private" spot for that type of deal. I've seen the movies. Ugh. I throw my legs over the side of my bed and was about to stand when I hit something on the floor with my foot. I quickly retracted my leg to the safety of my bed and look down.
"Uunnghh." Someone groans from my floor. I peek over the side to see Eren sleeping. My heart beat quickens.
What? Why is Eren sleeping on my floor? I look over the edge of my bed again to make sure I wasn't imagining things… he's still there… what happened after we left Jean's house?
I furrow my brows in concentration. When the urge to go to the bathroom suddenly rushed over me…
I scoot to the edge of my bed carefully stretching my leg out across his body to the floor on the side of him. I'm trying my best not to wake him up for now. He looks so peaceful in his sleep. I have one foot on the floor and the other on the bed as I'm about to make my escape when he stirs.
He slowly opens his eyes and looks up at me. He instantly squeezes his eyes shut and turns a deep red in his cheeks.
"Trinity!" he says quickly, "I.. I am so sorry!" he covers his face with his hands. Why is he apologizing?
"Uh, why are you apologizing? I'm just getting off my bed… I didn't want to disturb you. I'm the one who should be sorry." I say confused.
"U…uh well. You're still wearing what you wore… last night… and the way you're standing… uh…" he stutters through his fingers.
I quickly bring my other leg to the floor beside my other foot and feel my cheeks instantly burning. Crap. I forgot I was wearing a skirt… he saw everything…
"I'm so sorry!" I said embarrassed, "I have to go to the bathroom and uh… just uh… stay here okay? I have a few questions." I quickly walked out of my room and down the hall into the bathroom.
Oh god… that was so embarrassing! I turn on the faucet after going to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. I look like I went to hell and back! I have major bed head and my makeup is smeared over my face. Oh god! Eren saw me like this!
He's still in my room…
My thoughts are all over the place as I struggle to make myself look decent. My shirt is wrinkled and pulled out of my skirt hanging lazily over it. I manage to pull my hair into a bun and I clean my face of my makeup. Once I feel confident enough I return back to my room. Eren is sitting on my bed his face in his hands.
"Uh, hi" I say quietly.
"Hi" he mumbles before rubbing his face and letting his hands fall looking up at me.
"So… why are you here?" I decide to be straight forward.
"You asked me to stay last night. You don't remember?" he asks me confused.
I rub my temple as I try to think back to last night. I sigh and shake my head.
"Well, this is awkward then," he lifts his hands quickly in defense," I swear I didn't stay without your permission!"
"Well, you did sleep on the floor… I believe you." I sit awkwardly next to him on the bed.
"Uh… what do you remember from last night?" I instantly picked up on the hint of anger in his tone.
I play with my fingers on my lap for a bit before answering, "Well, I remember what Jean did… that's pretty much all that is sticking out right now."
He huffs, "He's a real douchebag. If you didn't stop me I would have kept beating him senseless."
I keep my gaze on my hands as I feel tears prick at the corners of my eyes.
"You're the only one that knows right?" I attempt to look at him and instantly regret it after a tear falls down my face.
Eren's eyes widen a fraction and he instinctively raise a hand to wipe the tear from my face. I move away quickly feeling like if he touched me it would burn.
"I'm sorry… Trinity I'm not gonna hurt you." He says with a comforting tone.
"I… I just… please don't." is all I can manage to say. His hand retracts back to his side.
"Trinity, I'm sorry." He says in a hushed tone.
"It's okay. It's not your fault," I rub the tears from my face, "If anything you saved me, I don't know why I feel like this."
"Well, you did go through a traumatic experience… are you going to be okay?" he looks at me with concern.
"Yeah," I say with a sigh, "I'll be fine. You can leave if you want."
"I can stay if you'd like… I don't have any plans." He says politely.
"No, it's fine," I return a weak smile his way, "I need to be alone for a while."
He presses his lips together into a line.
"Okay, well just text or call if you need anything at all," he says as I feel his weight lift off the bed, "I'll be here if you need me."
"Thanks Eren," I say shyly, "For everything." I look up at him before he leaves my room. He smiles and exits.
I lay back heavily onto my bed after I hear the door to the house close. I cover my eyes with my arms as I cry.
I hear my phone vibrate somewhere. I lift myself up and search my room for it. I see my clutch on my nightstand and grab it, finding my phone inside. I open it and I have the most messages and missed phone calls I've ever had in my life.
From Sasha:
Trinity where are you? We're leaving soon.
From Armin:
Did you go home? Do you know where Eren is? Is he with you? Hope you're okay.
From Connie:
Are you playing a game? Haha! I like hide and seek. We'll find you!
From Sasha:
Trinity… this isn't funny. Why aren't you replying!?
Come on. I'm really hungry and we all want to go get food.
Where are you!?
From Mikasa:
Please tell me that Eren is with you. I'm worried.
That's the end of the messages from last night. I had missed calls from each of my friends… I have a few from this morning as well…
From Sasha:
Are you okay? I'm getting really worried. Did you make it home alright?
From Armin:
Hope you're okay… I heard from the others that they still haven't heard from you. Please respond to us soon!
My stomach immediately twists as I read the most recent text.
From Unknown number:
Hey Trinity, it's Jean. I got your number from Connie. I feel like a complete asshole for what happened last night, I was drunk. I was a complete douchebag. I'm really sorry. I know you probably won't forgive me, but I had to apologize. I feel like shit. I hope you're okay.
Again, I'm really sorry.
I furrow my eyebrows as my face becomes wet again with tears. I send quick replies to my worried friends letting them know I'm okay. Then I sit with Jean's text open, staring at it.
Seriously!? You freaking almost rape me and you apologize through a text? What the hell… my free hand balls into a fist as I read it over and over again. My hand buzzes as I receive another text I open it.
From Jean:
Can I try to make this up to you? Somehow prove I'm not that kind of guy. Please? I don't know what got into me last night. Please just let me show you. I'm not a douchebag. Again, I'm really sorry.
I hold my phone between my hands. I'm hesitant about even replying to him. Should I? I mean we do sit next to each other in school… it could make things less awkward? But he did almost rape me…
I sigh and start typing.
To Jean:
Sure. I'm not accepting you're apology yet. I still think you're a douchebag.
I send it and within seconds receive a reply.
From Jean:
Thank you Trinity! I'll prove to you that I'm not one!
Are you okay with going out to get lunch? It's public so you don't have to feel too uncomfortable.
To Jean:
That's fine.
From Jean:
Pick you up at 1?
To Jean:
Okay.
I shut my phone and look at the time. Eleven fifteen. I stand and take off Eren's hoodie. I lay it on my bed. I grab a few things and go take a shower.
I get dressed in my usual attire. Black skinny jeans and a baggy band tee. I throw on my converse and then look back at my bed. I walk over and pick up Eren's hoodie and put it on. It's comfortable and comforting in a way. I decide to wear it as my own stupid way of protecting myself. It's baggy so it hides my body.
Just after I finish drying my hair and throwing it up into a ponytail the doorbell rings. I grab my purse and throw my phone inside and make my way downstairs.
I open the door hesitantly.
"Hi Trinity."