"Hi," I say quietly.
"Ready to go?" Jean asks me while he rubs the back of his neck. He's obviously nervous.
"Yeah," I say as I close the door and lock it. We make our way to his car. He opens the passenger's side door for me. I'm hesitant, but I slip inside. He closes the door. I pull my seatbelt on while he gets in and starts the car.
"So, did you have anywhere in particular you'd like to go?" he looks at me with a sideways glance.
"Not really," I say shortly.
"Hmmm…" he furrows his eyebrows for a moment, "I know the perfect place!" he says excitedly.
We've been driving for some time now. I have no clue where we are going. My fingers are numb from the tight grip I hold on the end of Eren's hoodie. I'm nervous. I mean I did really like Jean before what happened last night…
I look at him slightly taking in his looks. He's wearing a gray beanie over his sandy blonde hair and his bangs fall perfectly against his forehead. His brow is furrowed as he keeps his eyes on the road. His long nose is the perfect shape for his face. His lips a perfect shade of pink. I bite my lower lip as I wonder how it would feel to kiss Jean while we're both sober. Would he be sweet? I watch as his jaw clenches slightly and then loosens as we take a sharp turn. I look down to the muscles in his neck and think about kissing him there…
I shake my head and quickly look down at my hands. What am I thinking? Yes, he is very attractive, but last night… I sigh quietly and tuck a stray strand of hair behind my ear.
"We're here!" he exclaims excitedly, "I hope you don't mind the beach."
The beach!? I quickly lift my head and look excitedly out the windshield. It's a little cooler out since the seasons are changing over from summer to fall, but that doesn't stop the crazy amount of people at the beach today.
"I love the beach…" I almost whisper.
He sighs with relief and opens the door to get out. I follow suit and close his car door behind me. He leans over the top of his car looking at me with an amused look on his face.
"I don't know about you, but I'm starving. Wanna go get something to eat?" he asks. I nod in approval.
We get seated quickly at the pier restaurant, given it's just the two of us. I sit down in the chair Jean pulls out for me and he takes the one across from me. We got a table outside and I look out to the beach and watch as the waves slowly roll in and crash against the shore.
I look down at the menu and settle on grilled cheese. I'm a bit of a picky eater. I put my menu down and look up to see Jean concentrating on the menu. I notice the slight bruise beneath his left eye and the cut on his eyebrow… Eren really did a number on him. My stomach twists with guilt. Both because of what Eren did to Jean and what would Eren do if he knew I was out with Jean? I furrow my brows.
"You okay Trin?" I look up in surprise at my nickname falling from his lips.
"Yeah, I'm okay" I say quickly, "Just kinda hungry." I smile nervously.
He laughs, "Me too."
After we eat we decide to walk down the pier and find a bench so that we can seriously talk. I sat down first and Jean sat down a few inches away from me.
"So, are you enjoying the day so far?" he asks avoiding the real topic.
"Mhmm," I hum, "More than I thought I would…" I trail off.
"Trinity…" I hear him start. I look over to him his head is in his hands and he lifts his head looking at me then, "I'm really sorry for what happened last night. I was drunk. I was stupid. I know I can't take my actions back…" he sighs heavily as his shoulders slump, "but let me prove to you that I'm not that kind of guy."
I stay silent for a moment picking my words carefully, "We were both drunk. I lead you on by letting you take me to your room… but that doesn't make what you did right…" I ball my hands into fists at my sides, "I really liked you before this happened Jean." He looks at me surprised, "I always thought you were attractive ever since we started talking more in class," I look at my feet, "I think I still like you, but I may just be confused. It's going to take time for me to clear my head."
"I…" he shuts up for a while, we sit in silence.
"I felt the same way," he finally breaks the silence. I look up at him shock on my face, "The first day when I walked in and saw you sitting alone, I didn't care who else had a spot open. I wanted to sit next to you."
"Jean…" I say quietly.
"I fucked up…" he throws his head back in his hands as he hunches over, "I fucked things up… and I don't know how to fix it… I'm so sorry Trinity."
I don't think, and the next thing I know my arms are wrapped around his waist and I'm crying into his shoulder. He turns wrapping his arms around me. We sit like this for what feels like an eternity. I finally lift my head up and push myself away from him gently, I look up to see his face stained with tears. I reach up and wipe his face with my hands and he mimics me wiping tears from my face with his thumbs.
I can't help but laugh a little. We're both crying messes. We're both confused. We're both a little lost.
I look out to the water. I sigh lightly as I wish I brought a bathing suit. I'd love to go into the water right now.
"Thinking you wished you brought your bathing suit?" Jean says over my shoulder. I turn and look at him in surprise.
"How'd you know?" I say.
He smirks, "I forgot mine too and was thinking the same thing. Would you like to go for a walk along the beach?"
"I'd love that," I say with a small smile as he grabs my hand and leads me to the beach.
I plop down on my bed and sigh heavily after Jean dropped me off at home. I have a lot to think about…
Today was amazing. I saw a totally different side of Jean. After our walk we found a little cove and sat and talked for hours about anything and everything until the sun started to go down. I smile thinking back on it.
My phone vibrates.
From Jean:
I had a lot of fun today. Let me take you out again sometime soon?
A smile creeps across my face. I reply.
To Jean:
I had a lot of fun as well! Sure, I'd love that. (:
I plug my phone into it's charger and get up and change out of my jeans throwing on a pair of pajama shorts. My phone vibrates again. I open it.
From Eren:
You okay? I haven't heard from you all day. I hope all is well. If I don't hear from you, I'll see you tomorrow at school! (:
The guilty feeling comes back to me now. What am I going to do? Eren doesn't know that Jean and I kind of made up? He's going to be pissed when he sees us talking and sitting together in class tomorrow….
I lay back down and huff. I'm exhausted. It was a long day… I close my eyes and fall asleep.
I wake up and shower. I put on my school uniform and decide to leave my hair down today. I put a little mascara and eyeliner on. I walk downstairs and grab a bowl and pour some cereal and milk into it. As I'm eating my phone vibrates in my pocket.
From Jean:
Need a ride to school?
To Jean:
Sure.
From Jean:
I'll be there soon to get you.
I close my phone and smile to myself humming quietly.
I grab my books and head outside just as Jean pulls up. He gets out of his car and opens my door for me. How sweet… I think to myself.
We arrive at school and Jean is babbling about some video game as we are walking towards the building. I feel a strong tug on my arm. I drop my books and look over to an extremely angry Eren.
"Can I talk to you?" he hisses.
"Er… Eren. You're hurting me." I say with a wince.
"What the fuck man?" Jean stands behind me with my books in his hands.
"Shut the hell up Jean!" Eren spits at him.
"Eren calm down, we can talk," I turn towards Jean and take my books giving him an appreciative smile, "I'm fine Jean, I'll see you in class."
Jean scowls at Eren before turning around and walking away.
"Why in the hell are you with that douchebag!?" Eren says angrily.
"We talked. We sorted things out, it was a drunken mistake, we're okay now." I say quietly trying not to get anyone attention on us.
"He tried to rape you and you just 'talked' and everything is fine and dandy now?" he raises his voice.
"Eren be quiet" I stress the last word, "I told you we made up. It's fine. Just calm down."
"No, it's not fine Trinity." He hisses.
"Why not why can't we make up? Why is that so wrong Eren!?" I say angrily now.
"Because…!" he sighs angrily his hands in fists at his sides, "I've seen the way you look at him!"
"What does that have to do with anything!?" I'm yelling now.
"I…" he struggles, "Because… just forget it! Go and be happy and just fuck him already!"
My jaw drops. What? I slap him across the face and turn on my heel and stomp towards the school. I feel everyone's eyes on me as I quickly walk past them.
"Eren!" I hear Mikasa yell before I enter the hallway and run towards class.
The day goes by and I haven't heard any more from Eren. Mikasa continues to give me death glares and I return a cold look her way.
At lunch I sit with Jean outside in the courtyard. He talks about how boring math class is and I just nod and act like I'm listening.
I stare across the courtyard at Eren. As soon as he looks up from eating and at me our eyes lock for a few seconds before I quickly look away.
"You okay Trin?" Jean asks.
"Yeah, fine." I sigh, "I just don't know why Eren is so upset that we made up."
"Jaeger is a tight ass," he runs his fingers through his hair, "He's probably got the hots for you but is too afraid to admit it. Probably thinks we're going to start dating."
"You have no problem being honest do you?" I eye him.
"What can I say? I have no filter when it comes to honesty." He shrugs and bites into his sandwich.
"But you don't know if Eren likes me. So who knows if you're being honest?"
"I see the way he looks at you all googley eyed," he smirks then, "Oh Trinity! If only you looked at me the same way! We could ride off into the sunset and live happily ever after!" he says in a mocking voice.
"Shut up Jean!" I jab him in the side and start laughing.
He laughs, "Well it's true. That's how he looks at you!"
I look over to notice that Eren and the others left already. I stand and brush myself off.
"Let's go before we're late for class horse." I tease him.
Jean just shoves me playfully before we walk inside.
As I run I try to clear my head and listen to my breathing.
Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.
I've been running for close to an hour. I have no destination in particular, I just really needed to clear my head.
I stop to drink some water from the bottle I'm carrying and catch my breath. I look up and notice I'm in front of Eren's house… well, I guess I may as well talk to him while I'm here…
I knock on the door.
Mikasa opens the door and quickly goes to shut it I reach my hand out as it slaps against the wood.
"Is Eren home? I need to talk to him."
"No." she says shortly, "he's out."
"Could you let him know I stopped by?" I wince a little from the stinging in my hand from hitting the door.
"Maybe." She says as she pushes the door shut the rest of the way.
I forgot she was so protective of him… sheesh. I turn and run the rest of the way home.
I enter my house and am about to run upstairs into my room.
"Trinity? Will you come in here?" I hear my dad's voice from the kitchen. I turn and walk in.
"What's up dad?" I say and stop and stare in confusion.
There's a woman sitting in the chair next to my dad. He's holding her hand.
"This is Victoria," he says a little nervously, "We have been working together, and I thought I should introduce you."
Victoria stands and holds her hand out to me with a smile, "It's very nice to meet you Trinity, you're father has told me so much about you!"
I don't take her hand as I look past her at my dad a scowl crosses my face. When did my dad start dating? It's only been a few months since mom… I look at the woman. She looks a lot younger than dad. She is tall and slender, blonde hair falls past her shoulders. I get a look of disgust on my face.
"What the fuck is this?" I say angrily.
"Watch your mouth young lady!" my dad says angrily as he stands, "Apologize to Victoria. Now."
"Fuck you!" I hiss and storm up stairs to my room. I slam the door shut and lock it. I fall onto my bed and don't hold back the tears that start to flow from my eyes.
AUTHORS NOTE:
Hey guys! Hope you like the story so far. I hope to get a little more into Trinity's past in the next chapter. You'll learn about what happened with her mother. And we'll see what happens between her and Eren. Will they stay friends, end the friendship, or possibly turn into something more? Stay tuned for next weeks chapter!
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