-Shay's POV-

I drove away as fast as I could only to pullover on a vacant space. I worked my ass off to get over with what happened in Vancouver and now I'm still crying like hell inside my car.

I'm so glad Ashley accepted my offer to come with me to Vancouver. We've planned this since the first season and now we all have the time in the world. I took her to my favorite places in my hometown. It's like a dream come true. We were invited to this party of a friend mine and before we knew it we had consumed alcohol more than we could carry. We danced like it's the end of the world on the dance floor.

"I'm so glad you're here" I drunkenly said to Ashley.

"I don't want to be alone either" she responded on the same state as I am. Suddenly Katy Perry's 'kissed a girl' song started playing.

"I like this song" Ashley said proudly

"Me too!" we both sang along while dancing to the song. Just then my chocolate brown eyes met her blue orbs. We stopped moving and I leaned in closer to her. She placed her hands on my cheeks. I swallowed hard and pushed my lips to hers. Her lips were soft and it tasted like the vodka she had been drinking but it dominantly tasted like her cherry lipgloss. Her tongue was brushing with my lips asking for permission to which I granted willingly. Our kiss moved in synchrony with the music. We disappeared temporarily from the crowd. It was just her and me and the music and our kiss. Almost impossibly we didn't need to break for air. My hands are tangled on her hair and one of her hand was holding me by the neck to keep me close and the other on my waist to keep me still. We pulled away when the music stopped.

"That was…" the alcohol that once took control of me now seemed drained.

"I know" we both couldn't believe what just happened. We went on dancing when the new song started playing.

Whatever that kiss meant or why it happened it didn't matter, we just didn't talked about it. We didn't feel awkward after it but surely something changed between me and her. Our gestures were sweeter and it just felt perfect when I'm with her. It's like I now see Ashley in a different perspective and it's scaring me. It feels like I'm falling for my best friend and it's not just me. I can sense Ashley feeling it too. Her hugs were tighter than usual and the way she holds my hand was different. I couldn't understand what I feel. One night I just decided to talk her about it.

"Ash. Can I ask you something?" We were lying on the same bed on my room

"Sure thing buttah. What is it?" She shifted her position and faced me while I just laid on my back staring at the blank ceiling.

"Is it just me or is there something with that kiss?" I bit my lip in a non seductive way. I didn't want to assume.

"Like a spark?" I turned my head and look at straight at her sparkling eyes. "Something changed the moment we kissed. I was secretly hoping you felt it too" she said and her voice sounded so sexy

"I did" after hearing my words she leaned in for a kiss. It was slow and it had more passion. It had more connection and spark than our kiss at the party. That one kissed turned into a hot make out session.

"What are we doing?" I ask her in between our kiss when I removed my shirt that she had been tugging for a while.

"I don't know but just stop talking" she removed her shirt and went on kissing me. She enjoyed the soft spot on my neck. I can't help but moan while she marks my pulse point. We stopped when we finally consumed all our energy making out.

"I love you Shannon. I'm in love with you" she whispered to my ear which I responded with a lingering kiss. I cuddled up to her and burrowed my face on her neck and I slept peacefully on her arm throughout the night.

Last night felt like a dream. A good dream that I didn't want to end. Ashley told me she loves me and I didn't say it back, not just yet. I reached her side of the bed "Morning Benzo" I opened my eyes when I didn't feel her beside me. That's weird, she's up early. I went down and was greeted by my mom.

"Mom. Have you seen Ashley?" she had a confused look on her face

"Honey she left early this morning" she placed a plate in front of me on the table

"Oh. Where did she go? She should have waked me she's not good with directions around" I looked at my mom when she didn't say anything "Mom?"

"She went back to L.A. Shay. I thought you knew. She said she didn't want to wake you up" I was horrified with the news. Last night we were having a good time and she told me she was in love with me. Why would she leave?

"Did she…did she tell you what time her flight is?" I got up from where I was seated.

"She said she's just going for a chance seat on the 9 am flight" I look at the clock mounted on our wall that said 8:37. If I break some rules on the way I might be able to catch her. So I rushed upstairs and put on a sweatshirt and some shorts that was on top of my closet and kicked in to my sneakers.

"Shay wear are you going?" my mom followed me inside my room.

"To the airport mom." I grabbed my keys and drove to the airport as quick as I could be but I was too late. The plane had left already and she was lucky enough to get a seat despite the last minute booking.

I went home and cried all day. I spent more nights crying. I tried contacting her but I couldn't get in touch. Maybe she wanted to stay away. Maybe she didn't mean what she said and what happened to us was a mistake for her. My family and my boyfriend were starting to worry about me. I couldn't just keep this to myself. I told Ryan what happened, everything, and he willing accepted me for it. He comforted me until I got through my misery. Before I went back to L.A. he proposed to me and I said yes.

I didn't get to tell her what I felt and now I'm engaged to someone else. On the positive note it was okay since she left me anyways. She shattered my heart to pieces. How could she just come back now and tell me that she loves me. She should have just stayed away. I would have to keep it to myself that I loved her. I loved Ashley. I still do. If only she didn't leave me in Vancouver.